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I just became a Quora partner. I ask questions and depending on the views/ad revenue, I get money, no strings attacthed. I'm not getting my hopes up too high, but it's nice. Any questions suggestions?

What will ubuu do during the upcoming New Years Eve?

I'm almost 30 and work an 8 to 5 job from Monday to Friday. Every night before I sleep I keep hoping that I never wake up. I have little attachments to this world. I'm just ranting since this is the /ot/ board. I used to post here before as a neet, now I'm posting as someone with responsibilities in society.

I just hope that this night will be the last.

I can’t stand any more how much my social anxiety keeps blocking me away from what I want to do. I feel like each day I’m going crazier from the weariness and frustration it causes me. And I feel like my life is getting closer and closer to a situation where it is essential for my survival to be able to overcome this, at least enough to not end up starving on the streets.

So, this next week, I’m going to force myself to join at least one discord group I know about for people with anxiety. From there I’ll try to join some non-directed for my problem and instead to my interests. Yeah, I know how ridiculous it is that I can’t even join online groups without stressing out. This is how much social anxiety hinders me.

Through the suggestion of a friend, I’m also going to create an account on tinder. I know how stupid this is, but it might offer in some part what I need to be challenged with. Exposition, been identified, sharing personal information, being approached by strangers, having people manifest interest in talking to me. Where I live this app it’s still not a complete cancer container. And having to deal with the assholes proliferating there will, I expect, allow me to develop other social skills that are also needed.

Have any suggestion to my plan? Or want to tell how stupid it is and that I’m doomed to fail? Feel free to either, I don’t care. I can’t stand how things are anymore. Even if this experience kicks me to the ground, at least something happened, at least I’ll be out of this cycle, even if just for a while.

Have any of you ever done something similar? What have you tried to fight against social anxiety?

It's halloween season again.
When I was a kid I used to scour around my school for a pumpkin a couple days before the 31st. Then i'd come up with some kind of plan and steal it without anybody noticing. After i'd carve a pattern in it at home and stick a candle inside. Didn't even put it outside. I just kept it in my kitchen and checked on it all the way through the night until it flickered out finally. Now a days I just buy one. What kind of tradtions do you have?

Also, this year i'm looking for a physiological horror movie to watch instead. I'm hopng people here can suggest something that's not entry level like The Shining.

hello, can anyone throw off yume nikki 0.10 not exe? For easyrpg on android.

In the past I have been diagnosed with general anxiety disorder and more specifically social anxiety disorder.
It was so bad I couldn't even look people in the eye and I would start shaking whenever I feel like I am looked at, I would run out of classrooms at university because of anxiety attacks.
I can't remember what I was on back at the time.

I have now started a new course ( which basically guranatees a job ) and it's back. It's more under control because I am more mature and have learned to breathe, try to calm myself and distract myself but it still doesn't let me function as a human being. ( + )

I am too poor to afford therapy but my cousin works as a nurse. I have access to: paroxetine, citalopram, sertraline, venlafaxine, regabalin, tradozone and alprazolam.

( + ) I'm currently anticipating social situations and taking 0.50 of xanax ahead with like half or 3 quarters of an hour but this will not last me long because I'm developing resilience to the drug ( I used to take 0.25 ).

I exercise using the bodyweight fitness app whenever I can. I do not drink coffee, alcohol or energy drinks. I used to drink tea but at some point I realised black tea unsettles me and I kind of stopped.

My concerns are anhedonia and gaining weight because this happened last time.
I plan on informing myself for a few weeks first and I am seeking help.
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Hopefully the right place to put this, but looking for a couple people to help play-test an upcoming game.

Best way I can describe it as a cross between LSD and Dreaming Mary. It all seems very randomy but does have an overarching horror element exposed late-game that ties it together. Very heavy exploration based with levels that change themselves as you progress.

Does require a decent gaming rig, and fully supports local CO-OP. The game is finished besides any last minute bug-fixes or additional hints as needed.

I'm writing a very general paper on single parenthood for uni. Since some people here seem very passionate about that topic, I'm hoping they have something interesting to say about it. Could you guys help me out?

I've noticed a very disturbing trend going on online. There seems to be a split where everywhere you go it's either a shitpost hellscape where everybody constantly bitches about Jews 24/7, or a hyper safe space full overly sensitive communists and tumblrinas. The vitriol is just so insufferable. I'm Jewish and i'm definitely not swimming in money, nor are my relatives, but I have to sit and read about how Jews are destroying the world and cause every problem in pretty much any place I go. It doesn't even make sense. Would lobbying be okay if only white people did it? Nobody acknowledges that Jews are just as much brainwashed as everybody else by modern political correctness and liberalism. Nope, Jews just want to take over the world and use everybody else as slaves. The Talmud says so and Harvey Weinstein types definitely have a copy of the Talmud on their night stand. That's why so many powerful positions of power are Jews. It's all a zionist conspiracy. Also they're actually marxists which is why they like business and banking so much. If that's the case, where's my cut? It's like stormfront is slowly leaking everywhere else. You can't even escape it on music boards. Nobody talks about music there, it's all just /pol/shit.
The only other option is in many ways worse. You constantly have to walk on eggshells and be mindful of everybody's sensibilities. This is the problem with ideology. It infects everything it touches and slowly wrings it to death. It's suffocating. The infected have their head so far up their own ass and they think they're the objective moral authority. They're the saviors and everybody else is wrong and needs to be silenced.
Is this just going to be how things are from now on? Is there any hope of things cooling down and becoming neutral again?