recent - Recent Posts

are you gay or a woman?

>>823
Well you know, being unemployed again is only symbolic. The main issue is that I've seen too much of life, now. As a young shut-in you don't know anything about anything, while your peers keep lapping you, learning about what the breadth of life has to offer. I learned about these things too, and I should say maybe even in more ways than the average person would. We as hopeless NEETs secretly believe that there is something better waiting for us out there. But what happens when you've already been to the other side and seen that there is no escape from how you really feel about life? Living on your mother's good graces in a room or comfortable in your own mansion, you are a mere mortal trapped inside of your body and mind. I am convinced that if the meekest of the meek were able to ascend to being the emperor of the universe, they would come to the same types on conclusions. The change can't be superficial. The change can only happen when you change what's inside. But how? In this way I don't believe escaping NEETdom can be the primary goal if you really want to feel better in life and have it last.

What you described is strikingly similar to my experience as well, but only for the inertia phase of the plan as opposed to the maintenance after I escaped. It slowly bubbled up after a few years and by the end I was regularly self-harming to the point of giving myself scars on my face, so yes finally being able to break free felt real good at the time. Anyhow, I believed that I could trust it to be self-sustaining past that point and that might have been my mistake. But that doesn't even matter. I've seen life and I no longer believe in having a place in it, sadly. This could have been 19 years and the conclusion would have been the same.

Maybe I should have just taken those anti-depressants after all, huh. Maybe my hand will be forced soon. Sucks be a mental cripple if that's really what it is, but what other choice can I make now?

>>824
The number one error is believing there is a way to solve either ourselves or the hand we've been dealt. It's not what I had in mind when I left NEETdom, I knew it was over no matter what. I simply wanted to reach a state of maintenance in which I would at least not be decaying, both physically and mentally, and having to deal with the aftermath of said decay? which is feeling like you're in hell. That's it.

If that was familiar to you, I'm sure you understand the difference between not being happy in life and feeling like you're in hell. Normalfags aren't the way they are because of different experiences. Trying to be like them (at least the ones most NEETs idealize, the genuinely happy/content/unaware normalfags, not the majority too unaware to even know better) is like attempting to life like a horse to eventually turn into one.

I told you anon, there is no change, there is no hope of changing anything, neither ourselves or the world. Ultimately our feelings towards the universe should be total indifference, regardless of our experiences. If you're depressed and "tried everything" as you claimed you have, unless you're lying to yourself and others, just give up on that and seek mere maintenance to avoid unecessary anguish, because we're going to be stuck here for a while.

Biggest error a lot of NEETs make when reaching normalcy is thinking they're now normal and thus, start to value what normaloids value. You attempt to emulate them and fall into despair realizing what they care about holds no meaning to you, and the way they view things make no sense to you. Horse analogy, once again.

Just maintenance anon, it's all mere maintenance.

>>825
Well, that sounds a bit grim to me if I have to be honest. My baseline feeling state during maintenance is not good which is why I wanted to believe in change. I think I would be fine if my brain was tuned slightly differently. In theory, a person with my temperament should do well left to their own devices, but there are counter-temperaments strong enough to cancel it out. So I end up in a state of purgatory. At least when I was a young shut-in I was able to romanticize such things but with age and experience all that I feel now is annoyance and deep dissatisfaction. But I do believe this is the baseline state for life in the universe given that you are not making up definitions for it that don't exist. Knowing that however does not make me feel any better.

>>815
UPDATE
Have been accepted for an internship at a government-adjacent company doing technical/IT work… Assuming things go well I'll be making perhaps almost three times as much money as I am now while working on very cool shit.

>>828
The good news in my opinion is that changing your baseline is possible. It's just harder to increase it than it is to just let it go down completely and end up homeless and addicted to drugs. It just involves setting up new normal until they become natural to you, akin to learning to drive stick until it becomes natural to do so. That's independant of what I'm going to mention below.

For what it's worth, I still believe in what I said but… When I'm around friends and other people and entering a totally different universe from what I also used to romanticize when I was younger, I can feel that I am different, even if temporarily. Being temporarily different in specific settings is enough, from what I experienced, to make happy memories and have fun with friends and have sexual or romantic relationships. But I never see those as my real self. Your real self is what you drift back to naturally when left to your own devices.

Getting rid of the fear of missing out by experiencing a lot of what normalfags experience is more than half the cure. It brings a feeling of permanent contentment inside you.

Contentment is what we should all strive for. And the best way to reach that is both maintenance (not letting things get worse) and getting rid of FOMO by going on expeditions into the normalfag world.

I could be wrong, I'm just talking after having years of experience in both NEETdom and the workforce/normalfag life.

Urotsuki is kinda in the game. Her head will be randomized as one of the heads, and her hair/Madotsuki's design will be randomized too.

>>17844
Don't scare the lurkers, they'll start making conspiracy theories about us again.
Besides, it would be extremely autistic and achieve nothing in the end.

>>17816

Yeah, no shit he never got any other punishment and is able to hop back to another community. You didn't say anything, it was really that easy and it took less than a day for him to be removed from the team upon informing someone. Lemniscate is involved with the project as well?

>>17852
Lovely news, fuck this guy forever. Wonder what Lem is up to, that guy is most certainly somewhere too.

>>30460
I feel your pain, friendo.

>>27753
Luigi "Healthcare CEO Killer" Mangione reporting….

Volume One, Issue 7, Phile 3 of 10

=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=
The following was written shortly after my arrest…

\/\The Conscience of a Hacker/\/

by

+++The Mentor+++

Written on January 8, 1986
=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=

Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

I prefer french

>>29711
what?

The Charge of the Light Brigade

By Alfred, Lord Tennyson
I
Half a league, half a league,
Half a league onward,
All in the valley of Death
Rode the six hundred.
“Forward, the Light Brigade!
Charge for the guns!” he said.
Into the valley of Death
Rode the six hundred.

II
“Forward, the Light Brigade!”
Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

Found this place via 7chan

Someone mentioned it on a zinecord.

>>30205
blkack fog zine

that sever SUCKSed

I remembered the site when it first partnered with lainchan, but I always seemed to prefer that community
Now the site is down so I spread my pestilence here

Ponychan told me to come here.

>>29623
its hacker news

Xkcd

Mr Money Mustache

>>1408
>>1409
Thank you, buddies!

>>1410
Good luck on the drawing! Please update us on your progress

I like this

You need to use a polygonal tool in your drawing program, even paint works.

https://apoyoalnahuatl.blogspot.com/p/codices.html
Found you a bunch of photos of different codexes, each link has pics.

Might help with inspo.

>>9812
>>9812
Nothing wrong with being alone. Sometimes you gotta run with the mob but being alone means no one is gonna let you down. At the end of the day anyone else is just drag when you're running an elite NEET program. I feel sorry for everyone else I come across. Every single one has hangups and often they are total slaves. Being a NEET loner is hard work to keep on top of the loneliness and depression but more often than not its a kind of nexus.

>>9812
>Is anyone else here completely alone?
not really since i recently started to talk to my neighbour, even made pizza with him yesterday and went on to watch a world cup game not that i was particularly interested in it but it was nice for the most part. however we went on to drink a bit of liquor and he started telling me how he kills pigeons at his work (hes a farm helper and tractor driver) for fun and has killed around 50 so far, he sneaks up to them with a shovel and hits them so they cant fly anymore then punches them until they're nothing but pulp and ditches them in cow shit, and went into a laughing fit for 10 minutes. idk man i started crying upon hearing it maybe im just a sensitive fagotini but atp i wouldn’t want it otherwise i think i will keep going back to being solitary as much as being alone hurts is it not better than to surround yourself with such beings?. how can one be so cruel? does he not feel for those beings? if he were killing those in order to cook them i would not mind but how can one kill for fun? maybe being in isolation was not too bad afterall even if it eats away at me would it really be better to integrate into such a society? are other people also like that? if i think back at my school days there were many who derived pleasure from the suffering of others i do not want to be like that.

>>10347
You found out the truth: Most other people are not worth talking to. Why do you think alcohol has always been there for humanity? We cant all be moral and kind and clever can we? The greatest lie told by the jews is that all people are equal. White, black, yellow, brown; all supposed to be part of the human race. There is only the human race, that is White people. All the rest are sub-human. Your new chum is a hylic and it sounds like he is on the road to becomming a low level psychopath. Dont let him use you just because your lonely. Also dont try to understand others, learn to profile and predict behavior. No man knows another in the end.

>>10348
i didnt give you context but i am a brown palestinian (i guess id count as white in the us but i fail to see how this is relevant) and the pigeon killer is a white christian german, yet this doesn't make him any less cruel. many of the child killers roaming palestine are also partially german or of otherwise european descent, do not make this about race. there is no superiority of a white person over a black and no superiority of a black person over a white one but for his behaviour, may God guide you.

I have been since my dog died a few years ago. Miss him a lot. Feel the lowest I've felt in a long time and I can't afford another pet financially, or mentally. Human relationships feel out of reach too - the last time I had interaction with someone I'd call a friend was 2014.

>>17786
Try opening it in Paint.NET, saving it as a PNG, and setting the bit depth to 8-bit

This is what I usually do when I'm messing with RPG Maker 2003 stuff

Using Paint.NET to save in 8bit works but it sometimes messes up the transparent color. Paint.NET doesn't have a palette viewer unfortunately. Personally I use GIMP to move the intended transparent color to index 0, making it transparent in RPG Maker.
There's this tool that sets transparent color, and can be used to modify images in batch. I don't know if it fixes the 256 color issue or not. Maybe it can still help you or anyone else who sees this thread. https://github.com/lpre-ys/magic-pot-gui/releases

I started learning rpgmaker 2k3, I draw and edit sprites on Aseprite, you can get it for free since it's opensourced on github, or buy it on their website. It really is a different experience compared to using paint.net

I might be the only dumbass using PSD for sprites, but overall I never seen a color issue when using the software. You might want to see if the software you're working on to make sprites has a color palette option for 8-bit color depth samples only.

Oh and you can also try dotpict on your phone.
It has a cursor + button control style so you can be very precise, plus layers and palettes.
It's very nice.
https://dotpict.net/

>>10338
I thought being depressed was cool when I was 12.

>>9755
Why have the fates condemned me to burgerdom when I should have been a leaf.

>>10345
1500 CAD amounts to basically nothing here if you're in the city or its edges, if that's any consolation. If you want it to be enough for food and rent you're looking at a room in a house and a shared bathroom as one of the better outcomes. People with bad physical disabilities are more or less screwed here if they don't have anybody else helping them financially

>>10351
I remember making an exercise in the end of high school (years ago. around 2017 i'd say) with a classmate to find a place and budget to live with at a minimum wage in my fishing/mining-centric town. for a single person, apartment listings online were so fucked we were hard press to find any savings with nothing to spare for anything/hobbies except for rent and groceries. we didn't even think about insurances and car usage. I'm scared of trying the same experiment today.
….I hope my fellow leaf neets are doing fine if they are alone. guh. shivers. I got no real idea of how applying for unemployement benefits work and I don't think I'm ready to find out.

>What causes people to become neets?

For me, it was childhood abuse, years upon years of wage slaving and school that led nowhere, and the lack of empathy that drove me to lose faith in people and society as a whole. Couple that with a work related brain injury, and here I am hiding in my room. I've made some progress with my health and social life and I still leave the house occasionally to be in nature, but I still rather die than go back to that hellscape full-time. I turn 30 this year though, so I wonder if I'll be able to get my shit together or if this is all that's left for me.

Black to play
H Casagrande vs O Staudner
https://www.chessgames.com/perl/chessgame?gid=1220022&m=35.5

White to play
C Lutz vs Lobron
https://www.chessgames.com/perl/chessgame?gid=2194213&m=32

White to play
R Hovhannisyan vs A Shuraev
https://www.chessgames.com/perl/chessgame?gid=1733623&m=20

White to play
I Madl vs D Summermatter
https://www.chessgames.com/perl/chessgame?gid=1470676&m=21

White to play
K Alekseenko vs L de La Fuente
https://www.chessgames.com/perl/chessgame?gid=1990678&m=25

Cave Story is the obvious answer. Also maybe check out some old MUGEN-based stuff? Hoping this thread gets some more traction.

i mean basically anything. have a genre in mind?

I would like vns, if possible lighthearted fun or exciting thriller ones. I don't want to get SAD and that's all.
I'm not that good with rpgs honestly, I like action adventure more. Fighting games that can he played by a casual and aren't restrictive like the first and second touhou ones, I loved mystical chain and touhouvania too.
I wonder if the oldest melty blood will run here?

OH MAN LEGAL DOCUMENTS

HOLY SHIT SIGN ME UP

Anyone that talked to or posted in Thadeus socials was flagged by the feds without their knowledge, from that initial interaction, the feds unraveled the real world identities of many like him.
they also revealed the identity of a man they themselves "killed".
this ensured a key witness in politicians using dead men for votes, so now they are trying to kill a zombie that keeps coming back.