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meow meow meow

Shall we play a game?

>>817
forgot to mention. the point of doing a program/internship in a high demand field is to give you multiple advantages. first of all you're going into a field where the chances of getting hired are higher than the norm. secondly, saying you joined a program/whatever in a totally different field helps if you have no actual experience (or very little) because they do not give a fuck about your experience in a field unrelated since you can't translate those skills to your new field. they won't even bother calling to see if you actually worked there. they'll care morea bout some internship or temp job you did in the field they care about and will check that.

don't blindly pick the fields i listed if you have nothing to lose, it's highly dependant on your location (and sometimes it's just luck).

Escaped for 9 years and now I'm back. Some wild stories there but yep that's the way it is.

Feels like we just live with our afflictions forever, only temporarily pushing them down but never really fixing them proper. I laugh at how naive I was in those moments where it seemed like this type existence was so far away and behind me. Maybe I got too careless and complacent but my canonical recount is that I did everything I could to keep the dream alive. If I'm lying to myself I will never know.

My main point is that I'm personally shocked at how far someone can come only for none of it to mean anything. Reminds me of that one song.

>>822
Let's not be fatalistic for no reason. I'm sure you didn't leave those 9 years with nothing. It's not abnormal after a decently long period of employment to be unemployed for some time after, especially nowadays where NEETdom is way more common than it used to be just a few years ago. Hell, a lot of normies out there I see/know have long periods of unemployment as well.

People don't change, they just become more of who they really are. Temporarily gaining the strength to stray away from one's nature always involves the same thing, a lot of suffering. Personally the moment I truly left NEETdom, I never went back. Because the reason I left it was because of immense pain/anguish that made me genuinely see suicide as some kind of mercy killing for myself. It was around 3 weeks of pure hell during which sleeping felt like heaven because of the relief. Can't even explain why, it just happened at some point, my brain had enough. When I start to "slip" back into the old life too much or get comfortable, I start remembering or even getting a slight sense of what that experience was, and correct the course back to normalcy. My nature didn't change, but I self induced some kind of watch dog I guess, that forces me to stay at a certain level inside the realm of normalcy, beyond just basic employment.

You're not doomed.

>>823
Well you know, being unemployed again is only symbolic. The main issue is that I've seen too much of life, now. As a young shut-in you don't know anything about anything, while your peers keep lapping you, learning about what the breadth of life has to offer. I learned about these things too, and I should say maybe even in more ways than the average person would. We as hopeless NEETs secretly believe that there is something better waiting for us out there. But what happens when you've already been to the other side and seen that there is no escape from how you really feel about life? Living on your mother's good graces in a room or comfortable in your own mansion, you are a mere mortal trapped inside of your body and mind. I am convinced that if the meekest of the meek were able to ascend to being the emperor of the universe, they would come to the same types on conclusions. The change can't be superficial. The change can only happen when you change what's inside. But how? In this way I don't believe escaping NEETdom can be the primary goal if you really want to feel better in life and have it last.

What you described is strikingly similar to my experience as well, but only for the inertia phase of the plan as opposed to the maintenance after I escaped. It slowly bubbled up after a few years and by the end I was regularly self-harming to the point of giving myself scars on my face, so yes finally being able to break free felt real good at the time. Anyhow, I believed that I could trust it to be self-sustaining past that point and that might have been my mistake. But that doesn't even matter. I've seen life and I no longer believe in having a place in it, sadly. This could have been 19 years and the conclusion would have been the same.

Maybe I should have just taken those anti-depressants after all, huh. Maybe my hand will be forced soon. Sucks be a mental cripple if that's really what it is, but what other choice can I make now?

>>824
The number one error is believing there is a way to solve either ourselves or the hand we've been dealt. It's not what I had in mind when I left NEETdom, I knew it was over no matter what. I simply wanted to reach a state of maintenance in which I would at least not be decaying, both physically and mentally, and having to deal with the aftermath of said decay? which is feeling like you're in hell. That's it.

If that was familiar to you, I'm sure you understand the difference between not being happy in life and feeling like you're in hell. Normalfags aren't the way they are because of different experiences. Trying to be like them (at least the ones most NEETs idealize, the genuinely happy/content/unaware normalfags, not the majority too unaware to even know better) is like attempting to life like a horse to eventually turn into one.

I told you anon, there is no change, there is no hope of changing anything, neither ourselves or the world. Ultimately our feelings towards the universe should be total indifference, regardless of our experiences. If you're depressed and "tried everything" as you claimed you have, unless you're lying to yourself and others, just give up on that and seek mere maintenance to avoid unecessary anguish, because we're going to be stuck here for a while.

Biggest error a lot of NEETs make when reaching normalcy is thinking they're now normal and thus, start to value what normaloids value. You attempt to emulate them and fall into despair realizing what they care about holds no meaning to you, and the way they view things make no sense to you. Horse analogy, once again.

Just maintenance anon, it's all mere maintenance.

New render with the new textures.

Made more updates to the main 3. Madotsuki's window, Sabitsuki's neckpiece, and Urotsuki's sweater thing should be closer to the original portraits.
Again, all updates have been added to the Ko-Fi release.

The updated 3d portraits for Sabit and Urot. Madotsuki's pose was broken after updating her model before.

Updates on the expressions lol

>>5675
its refreshing to see someone being productive around here, good work!

>>11288
Which ones sound like they are made by synth1? can you give me an example?

Also does anyone know how does reverb and Valhalla Supermassive work?

>>11299
Can't tell anything about Zenmaigahara, but I find this video about a Speder2 ("K", even if is too obvious just in case..) song that mention some:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ldF1FCDOjZA

-The Ultimate Megadrive Soundfont
-Genesis Soundfont
-Rainbow Soundfont
-Synth1
-SANA 8bit VST
-Magical 8bit Plug 2

I'm not an expert, but this should help a bit.

>>11303
>ShikiSokuzeKu recreation
oooh! it's not exactly right, but it is damn close!

>synth1
I played with it before and I enjoy it! the following ain't mine, but check out these lil demos. second video shows the settings used. unsure about the first.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R4scLfh_zCc
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lqpJr0I2I0E

I take it everyone here is a homophobe

>>17709
A lot of people are, they're just not allowed to talk about it openly due to heavy internet censorship and/or needing to keep a good image. Others simply don't like the constant nagging of these movements.

>>17709
Why would you say that? I commented confused at the random gay flag because it seemed indeed completely random and out of nowhere.

>>17707
That, and an insatiable need to signal their identity. Also a symptom from being on the tumblr

>>17712
Somehow you sound gayer than the tumblr kid.

White to play
H Schussler vs D de Lange
https://www.chessgames.com/perl/chessgame?gid=2710138&m=61

White to play
Nakamura vs Duda
https://www.chessgames.com/perl/chessgame?gid=1945728&m=37

White to play
Bachmann vs L Coro
https://www.chessgames.com/perl/chessgame?gid=2903287&m=39

White to play
K McDonald vs L Blanco Milhet
https://www.chessgames.com/perl/chessgame?gid=3148663&m=71

White to play
J Klavins vs G Fridstein
https://www.chessgames.com/perl/chessgame?gid=2435156&m=38

I'm looking for a copy of
アクアドール3189
Part 1 and 2 pretty please

>>9747
>What causes people to become neets? Is it social anxiety, depression or something else
For me a lot of it was my chaotic, terrible upbringing and then just the usual societal pressure + mental illness stuff. I suppose this is how it works for the majority and some are just lazy or dont see a point in spending 8+ hours a day doing something you hate for 50+ years at minimum pay

I tend to drift from NEET -> stable enough to not be a NEET -> become unstable -> back to being a NEET, so in a sense im "less" NEET than others, but still just as incapable of employment, even if i try. At some point you prefer the solitary confines of your bedroom over in-person interactions with other people, atleast the funny anime characters on my computer screen dont make me feel sad.

>i would like to learn i mean no disrespect i feel bad for neets i just wanna know for morbid curiosity
thank you for your humility
now excuse me as i drown my sorrows about my shitty life in liquor on my 26th birthday while listening to waqs

>>10333
Hey anon happy birthday!

is there anyone else that thought shut in neets were the coolest thing ever and had the best lives…

>>10334
The Breeders (I only listened to a handful of songs).

>>10338
I thought being depressed was cool when I was 12.

I can relate to this, I stopped being a NEET over a decade ago now but it happened to me, I just told them how I felt and let them be after that.
At the same time, when I was a NEET I didn't like at all when people came to me with their ideas of self improvement and health, so I understand them too.
In the end they made it too. I think simply seeing me get better helped them.
The NEET who look down on people who get out of it exist, but I don't think it's a product of being NEET, I believe they'd be as lame as non-NEET.

After finally stopping being a NEET my former friends refused the challenge of adapting to my new unavailable lifestyle, they seem to feel safer with me contained to a room, but I know more than anyone that in the events of a cataclysm the low tier computer people like me would be the first to go, i needed to train my body into something capable of enduring things in case of scarcity.

>>695
>and they begin to treat you with resentment for doing that
I think that's thing that irritates me the most dealing with some old online friends and communities.

>You have a job? normalfag you dont understand my pain
>You have irl friends? how dare you normalfag
>You have a girlfriend and you have had sex? I can't believe I was ever friends with you traitor
It's so reductive and imageboard-brain poisoned. Especially the people who write you off when you dare speak about your problems with any of those three subjects (job, friends, relationships). If these are such a silver bullet to ending neetdom and living happy, healthy lives then why isn't every "normalfag" content with their lives? There are salarymen with wives and kids inches away from suicide everyday. Neetdom in general is a luxury I couldn't afford to keep, and I changed my life path accordingly. I still get paid like shit at my job, my girlfriend left me, and my group of irl friends is always dwindling but I stay the course because I want to die with something more to my name than "prolific shitposter on an imageboard/forum".

Why? Well for one, my parents can't fund my lifestyle forever and deserve their own financial freedom as well. Two, I want to find fulfillment in life beyond a screen and chatroom/board, there's more to life than sitting in your room playing video games and reminiscing on the good ol days of the internet (because fun fact: those good ol days aren't coming back no matter how much you shitpost, troll people, harass via forums and comment sections, support podcasters and comedians who act like they know shit but don't, and elect right wing politicians who act like they cater to you for your vote). Eventually you got to take some initiative in your life and find alternatives/new hobbies to the things that once gave you joy.

My advice to you op is to just ignore those people, if they are fostering resentment to you over miniscule steps towards improvement. They clearly don't have the emotional maturity or mental clarity to see what you got really ain't shit that 70%-80% of the population don't already have and you need support from uplifting people, not those that will drag you down. These wastes of space will just degrade you Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>695
I helped a friend escaping NEETdom, but it took some scolding. I barely had my shit together myself but was functional and on the surface looked normal (even successful). It involved me having to pretty much do everything for him at the beginning, sadly. Cleaning his house/room with him (cockroaches everywhere, his case was REALLY bad), getting rid of all the cockroaches (somehow something I'm proud of because they were all gone/died after he struggled for years with them, and I forgot which chemical I used but we mixed it with sugar), filling out/calling a ton of people to get his paperwork fixed and make sure he started getting welfare (he was living with a relative with zero income), looking up jobs online and telling him exactly what to do/where to go/what to say. Despite all of that people just don't give a fuck. I despised him and I still kinda do because he gave no fuck. At least at first. When I wasn't there he wouldn't clean his house, not even the basics, he'd just join me when I was with him to do most of the work. He was too retarded/brain damaged to respond to emails/phone calls or fill out forms, anything administrative was overwhelming. Multiple times he just straight up didn't go to a job interview we secured together because at the last moment he realized "it was bad" (too far away, bad hours, etc…). That was after wasting quite some time planning it with him. On top of that he'd fall for the scammiest shit out there and wanted to join a program for some bullshit. Just 10 minutes of looking it up and I realized it wasn't worth it. At some point I had enough and just told him (with another friend) that he had to do something otherwise we'd just leave, go on with our lives and to never bother contacting us again. Somehow it worked out, but we had to get mad. He's doing fine now, he puts in a lot of effort into it. Sometimes when I go out he's invited so I see him, he's doing really fine surprisingly and his house is clean, he has a paid internship in a field that he's passionate about. But I cannot help but resent him since he basically acts like I did nothing. I even pay for his food because I feel bad when I see him. Nobody gave a fuck about him, his parents/brothers weren't doing shit, I'm the one who helped him out. Now that he's doing a lot better though they SOMEHOW started appearing again in his life. I just hate him and have no idea whyPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>710
Can only help them by acting like substitute parents for a bit, the same way people who escaped NEETdom did it by parenting themselves, as weird as it sounds. And that involves being hated even when you're doing (or at least trying) to help/do the right thing because you're making him (the NEET) feel uncomfortable and he has to lash out on whatever he can (you, in that case).

Some NEETs make the mistake of thinking that beyond NEETdom is potentally some kind of salvation beyond pain, like a happy ending to a movie, in which your struggles aren't really struggles and you're living on auto pilot with far less trouble/stress than them. It's the same error a lot of people make (when I graduate/find a job/find a wife, my real life will start). So they resent you because you try to lecture them while being in that little paradise of yours (in their mind).

Personally, my personal experiences made me realize it's the opposite. The better I'm doing, and the better the people I see/frequent outside are doing, the more demanding life is, the more stressful and problematic it gets.

Escaping NEETdom out of a selfish mindset is very hard. You start realizing alternatives out there aren't pain free enclaves with a smooth sailing. You escape NEETdom with others in mind, from what I witnessed. Not wanting to be a burden anymore. Or potentially financially helping somone. Or becoming an inspiration to other NEETs.

Unless you're super delusional, then maybe you can do it for your own interests. People who only care about themselves will remain NEETs, that's just how it is. The way out begins with someone or something else in mind.

I definitely can relate with feeling like a NEET and being a member of society. I used to feel that way in school.

A few years later, Im a NEET. Wondering if I should end it all.

You probably wont read this, but how are you doing now?

Interestng pic,

>I feel dread every time I hear the microsoft teams notification sound.

painful pits in my stomach the moment i imagine -work-meat-space lol

Don't end it, your picture selection is a banger and after all your end would be another useless action in a line of useless actions that brought you here.
How about this: There are evil gods scheming against you and the way to beat them is to fight against their influence and go out.

That was 5 years ago. OP, what have you done? Did you go back to being a NEET? Did you get a different job? Do you feel at peace?

>>7119
Yess, I love this game, Garry was also my favourite, I love him, I wanna hug him.
I learned to play his theme song (Blind Alley) on the guitar, even though I don't really play guitar and it made my fingers hurt (worth it). Ib songs are the only thing I can play on the guitar tbh.
YASUpochi, the composer of the guitar songs in Ib, posted the tabulature of his songs on his website:
https://www.asahi-net.or.jp/~yd9y-wtnb/sub2.htm
(It's just Departure, Blind Alley and Hide&Seek).
I learnt how to read guitar tabs for this and I actually find it much easier than reading regular sheet music (I normally play piano and still suck at reading sheet music).

>>7119
It feels as if IB fans are almost extinct at this point but it still brings a smile to my face whenever someone mentions the game or posts fanart, to this day i still hope this comic gets an update but it's unlikely seeing how the artist is still active but doesn't acknowledge it.

>>7243
We havn't all died off! XD

>>7237
Rape

>>7238
Also Garfield.

>>7239
And Jesus Christ

who?

>>7241
Jesus

>>1819
Article pulled, no explanation given. Here's an archived copy.
https://archive.ph/ZTU4e

idk how you thought this was interesting enough to make a whole article about, just makes it seem like you're assmad

Anyone got the discord link to the server?

>Never reading ONA MSS
>Never reading Martinet Press works
>Never reading even Myatt little article's (where he's disposing both communism and sexual deviation)
>Making up some chimera of "muh glowie satanicpedo organisation that grooms pewple"

Cmon.

>>2101
Y'know Martinett Press (now Agony Point Press) was ran by an FBI informant right? And that Myatt wrote The Girl Goddess, a story about paedophilia. APP, the informant, posted a pic of him and Myatt at a libertarian convention.

Taking away the psyops, ONA is just a hodgepodge of Jungian psychology, Spengler and Devi's ideas, inverting Catholicism, etc. it's literally just random shit Myatt read. Nothing unique but some things are interesting.

>>11309
>Anyway today demakes and 1-bit games have an audience
Undertale did manage to pozz everything in its way in the mid 2010s despite looking like utter fucking crap yeah

>>11311
>>11309
kek YN would be unironically called an undertale ripoff today

>>11312
Zoomie woomies that found YN through Undershit taking inspiration from it already call it that, just under 16 layers of disingenuous irony, which is basically the same.

>>11309
>ever growing pile of walking simulators
ftfy

>>11313

Undertale is about Chara, not irony.

anyway Deltarune is much better. You can put all the details together in any way you want and still not coming up with the full picture

Must be not on the internet 24/7

>>29391
I'm glad you're winning anon, to secure victory remember the basics, drink enough water, spend enough time outside to get some fresh air and sun, keep your room tidy and stretch your back

>>29688
Danke

Normal is over-rated.

>>30476
Be a little quirky and weird