/hikki/ - NEET / Advice

video game, movies, writing, smoking, doing research on random topics is what eats up most of my time. But i enjoy it.

>whats your list of things you wanna try?
<perfect comfort
>what did you try?
<to understand the world and people in it
>has anything made you change an opinion you once strongly had?
<the state of the world made me give up on politics, all that matters is i get my NEETbux as long as that exists, fuck polisperg shite.
>future plans changed?
<stay a NEET

sitting in my tiny room(3rd world cuntry) all day and complaining about how lonely I am

consume brainrot media. time will pass so fast you'll ask yourself where the last 10 years went

>>7859
This is actually a slight fear of mine I've started to obsess over how little I can decide my time is used for and it just makes me feel upset, especially considering 1/3 of my time not matter what is spent sleeping and aside from that I realize being on the internet is wasting my time anyways. Days go by way too quick and it just leads to existential dread and while most people are probably okay with it for some reason I just can't be its a weird purgatory based in my mind. I don't really think there is a way to cope with it, so I'm in this weird position of feeling

Lately mechwarrior, lots and lots of mechwarrior.

>>7486
>What I really like is feeling dizzy from blood loss
by far the best part abt cutting besides the pain and visibility of it all
still glad i stopped tho;; at least for now

i never really cut in any meaningful way, but i did use to bang my head against shit when i was really depressed. i liked the thuddier pain than the sharp from cutting, also im too much of a pussy to actually cut.

>>7471
Your thoughts and feelings aren't invalidated just because they aren't as dramatic as others' nor your feelings unworthy of being expressed or left to be undeveloped, and that emptiness you feel counts as your chagrin, you don't have to lash out for that to be proven. Everyone has an interiority or inner world that shouldn't be denied on account of feeling spoiled or privileged, of which feeling spoiled or privileged is a matter of self-reflection. There is no other person to be but the soul you possess and body you inhabit.

>even if that's incredibly insensitive and selfish to say or think
It's not even if it is about harming your body and the state of mind to do so, everyone wants what the other has. Someone wishes they were as cool-headed as you and you wish you were as expressive or genuine as they. Harming themselves was their choice as well.

I feel the same as you do, and also don't really care for anyone close to me. I'm wearing a cloak to fit in with the mood and spirit of people like this because anywhere else I would stick out so I feel dishonest or unworthy in comparison to things other people went through or did especially if out of their control. But maybe I do have enough emotional strife to have gotten off at this station. Maybe many of the people I met didn't have it that bad or used their circumstances to justify being shitty people, maybe I'm just compensating for my weak pathos.

Sorry in advance if this is stupid or unnecessary.

I just cut myself again. It feels like the right thing to do, punishing someone as inept and disgusting as myself with harm. Although I know ultimately it isn't doing me any favours. I always cut on my thighs, I'm too scared of someone seeing my arms so I don't cut there. I know I can keep my legs hidden. I usually cut with scissors because you need a lot of effort to get good cuts but this time I used a hobby knife, they are surprisingly sharp. I didn't bleed as much as other anons in this thread seem to though.
I also punch myself in the head sometimes, and bruised my hand once from doing it. I don't really enjoy pain, but sometimes it feels like the only way I can deal with my emotions without dumping them on other people.

i still do it frequently :/ i hate how repulsive it makes me look but it feels so good it makes me feel powerful but also punished?? that sounds kinda kinky i dont mean it in that way helppp

i will fixate on people who i consider to be above me artistically and grind myself into dust thinking "what would this person think about this or that?" sometimes its things that make sense, like about my art, but it happened with this one person so pervasively theres a chance i'll think about them when i change my fucking diva cup.

id like to but nobody is interesting enough

yes 10000% honestly im not even sure if ive ever had a romantic crush on someone i think it all has just been some weird idolizing obsession type thing

Yup unfortunately i kind of try to replicate them and try to steal their like vibe or mood they give off and try to do the same thing as them and be as good as them and passionate. But i get depressed or i simply give up because they have been doing a certain thing for years and i can't hope to become like them within a month.

I stalk someone I know only from reading some MMO forum and some guy's Twitter because his art is cool, solely because they seem to share my interests but are so out of my reach I would never actually talk to either of them as I am an autistic freak.

great webbed site

The government is taking my freedom away, soon everything I love will be taken away from me. Unless I become a criminal and part of a gang or the black market I will have nothing to live for soon. So I see no reason to stop being a NEET recluse. I'm just waiting to die at this point.

>>7618
My dad gave me $2000 to get experience on the stock markets, but I made bad investments, had to sell at a loss and soon lost all of my money. There is no escape for me.

>>7810
that sucks I wouldn't say give up, but if I could ask how long did you hold the investment if it was less than a year its likely that the stock dropped for the time, which may be scary, but stocks fluctuate drastically. Stocks are unfortunately very unstable anon.

I need to talk to real people. i realize i dont even remember any useful advice i read because it has no significance, nothing makes it stand out and memorable. Maybe i just have dementia from isolation and not even using my brain to play games… i think it’s the just the latter……

first realize that people care infinitely more about themselves and their problems more than what you say/do. lead with appropriate questions then probe further. people will like you more if you seem interested in them and let them talk.

find common ground. that’s always been my hack. even if the common ground is initially a long queue to something or being stuck in an elevator, you can make at least a little bit of chat out of that, and chances are if it’s in school or with someone in school, you’ll encounter them again and build something from there.

That's what I asked myself anon. By the way, thanks for reminding me of the need for an Aphex Twin t-shirt, dammit.

What happened to this place?

>>7880
Yeah what the hell are they doing on a NEET/hikikomori board asking about how to meet people at school?

ok but so like… am i not even allowed to post here if I didnt get neetshamed

my roommates been neetshaming me so hard im going to move back in with my family (even if its just for a little bit) just so i can be left the fuck alone

if we assume for argument's sake that you're talking about IRL, I don't think you can
I've thought to myself about when my parents will inevitably ask "when are you going to get a gf", but I have no outside places, nor a workplace in which I could find one, and I think it is the same with regular friends as well
in that regard, finding someone who you can attempt to become friends with is hard enough, actually finding someone who you want to be friends with is even harder, not to mention that both you and this person will stay in regular contact
as a tangent, not long ago (March this year or something), my 'parole officer' and my mum tried to set me up to be friends with someone, and they thought we would be good friends, because, to quote her directly, "you're both gamers", and while he was not thoroughly unpleasant, I had no interest in speaking to him (also I found out several months later he was a nonce)
guess that's just me forcing an excuse to blogpost, point is, finding friends is hard, but at least as /hikki/posters we have a tenuous connection, which is something, and maybe it's better that way, finding friends is a lot of hard work for what in most cases does not produce satisfactory results
but I'll be your friend if you want

Rule number one: never ever use discord. You will only find two kinds of people there: meme spouting underage retards or some really fucked up mentally ill freaks (trannies, schizos etc).
Personally I've made a few friends on penpal websites, but you gotta be comfortable with using your real pic for that.

>>6855
>meme spouting underage retards or some really fucked up mentally ill freaks

Man, I don't know what alternative reality imageboards you come from, but sign me up. You've just described most of this sphere's userbase

"A channer-to-Facebook-normie pipeline? How would you even do that?"

most of my friends are real life ones usually just due to circumstances, i cant stand how people are online now
that said i still only talk with them a few times a month

My father is an ex hikki as well as a current hermit so I've probably inherited his taste for solitude. However to my knowledge he's not a schizoid, whereas I am, perhaps making me an example of how kin commonly amplify the behaviors learnt from their parents?
Regardless; what are you trying to break free from? Learnt asocial behavior or your familial expectations of asocial behavior?
If it's the first: learnt familial behaviors are quite difficult to overcome, if not impossible to overcome fully, however really the only way you can improve your social prowess is to force yourself to be uncomfortable in any social situation.

my sister has the same behavior patterns as me, she's more 'normal' and even though we mostly grew up indifferent to eachother she's growing up with a similar lifestyle i had