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sickness Anonymous 04/21/15 (Tue) 08:34:00 No.190 [Reply]

post itt if you are sickly as well as NEET

i got CFS/ME/SEID/whatever docs wanna call it, but basically im too tired to leave the house or even bed most of the time, and its not depression or anything mental

also get mad headaches, nausea, and dizziness from just standing up

also relevant is itt NO BULLYING ALLOWED!!

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Anonymous 01/26/23 (Thu) 22:14:45 No.7608

>>7607
I was for 7 years and this is my thread fuck off

Anonymous 04/29/23 (Sat) 05:00:36 No.7689

I ran out of my vitamin D supplements not long ago and I'm beginning to face the effects without it. Being a hikki especially one who's been inside for 6 months now I know it won't go well without it - going to reup soon.

Anonymous 01/06/25 (Mon) 03:19:00 No.8819

so much to update in the last year jesus christ

long story short im very much NEET again, i pick up my first dole/unemployment payment in ireland tomorrow

meanwhile cafe went to shit and i lost everything, but its pushed me to accept im going to have to back to school which ill most likely be doing from this september

i moved back to america for a month but nope'd the fuck out, im 32 in a month and without a degree the job prospects were shit but its really the same in most first world countries so may as well be somewhere im happy and has a better welfare state

in ireland im going to be able to get paid to go to school, potentially get a medical card for free healthcare, all that jazz which is great

Anonymous 01/08/25 (Wed) 13:21:58 No.8826

>>7606
you look like stampylonghead if he just went cold turkey on a heroin addiction <3

Anonymous 08/18/25 (Mon) 15:14:00 No.9661

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Yeah occipital neuralgia,(only thing here that feels like my fault) constant full body nerve pain,extreme heat sensitivity, abdominal pain, nausea, tiredness. I hate doctors who want to call it fibromyalgia and leave it at that without treating the worsening symptoms. I hope I can find a cause before I can't get the money for anything anymore and I hope you are all kind to yourselves

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deleting discord - good thing? Anonymous 06/30/25 (Mon) 02:01:37 No.9544 [Reply]

i've recently deleted my discord accoutn in an attempt to at least drastically cut back my social interaction and at most completely socially isolate myself because i feel like it's better than constantly begging people for attention and having public mental breakdowns. i know the methodology of my little self-experiment is incredibly stupid and my wording is probably strange too but i feel like eventually my biological urge to socialize will go away. any advice as to what i should do to fill the time?

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Anonymous 07/03/25 (Thu) 23:57:12 No.9592

>>9590
r u ok?

who 07/07/25 (Mon) 17:10:57 No.9598

I deleted my discord and haven't looked back

Anonymous 07/07/25 (Mon) 19:04:16 No.9599

>>9598
why. why why why why why

Anonymous 07/16/25 (Wed) 09:04:36 No.9605

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>>9598

Anonymous 07/31/25 (Thu) 07:13:53 No.9624

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>>9598
keep 'writing songs' and 'shitposting' to your "'kurt cobain'" that way maybe he ll take a leap of faith to see you again in another 10 years. i dont trust you im leaving

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Anonymous 12/12/24 (Thu) 10:50:34 No.8761 [Reply]

As an incel I will soon be 30 years old, I am tired of waiting and struggling, no woman will come into my life, and deep down I know it. It would be better to focus on me, my health, my hobbies and my personal growth. Sometimes life is like that, you have to be strong and conscious, but you are still alive and you can still enjoy things.
A cybernetic hug.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pmgb5yVroBc&list=PL1NCNBOfO0imJqZnRTzjDWUjxB9-9_54t&index=11

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Anonymous 12/16/24 (Mon) 11:59:02 No.8784

>>8771
Understandable and respectable, fratello.

Anonymous 12/20/24 (Fri) 14:50:10 No.8793

>>8762
He's going to get called that whether he likes it or not so might as well own it.

Anonymous 06/30/25 (Mon) 19:47:17 No.9555

men say this and then have the most soulful personalities and then create evangelion

Anonymous 06/30/25 (Mon) 19:53:50 No.9556

>>8793
ok, but i think it's weird to internalize it.

Anonymous 07/02/25 (Wed) 13:32:13 No.9572

>>9556
i think it's weird that people play yume 2kki when .flow is better

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hikki amechan_inda_flesh 11/20/23 (Mon) 20:07:48 No.7863 [Reply]

how the fuck do i talk to ppl irl (specifically at school)

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Anonymous 05/13/24 (Mon) 21:00:47 No.8103

>>8091
I don't actually have any problem leaving my house/room, I just don't have any friends or money to do anything.

Anonymous 06/29/25 (Sun) 21:25:07 No.9540

this board is so bad to be on if you are a teen or young adult. especially if you are easily impressionable and think hikkineets are cool. brainworms. also absorbing other's miserable thoughts. it's bad.

Anonymous 06/30/25 (Mon) 00:50:35 No.9542

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>>9540
It's a fansite for a game where some girl shuts herself in her apartment and has nightmares until she kills herself and there isn't much to the game other than to watch the girl go through trippy and fucked up trauma implications.
That will obviously gather a bunch of people from which a great many will be mentally ill, and for some reason they have a forum to discuss mental health of all things where most are likely not to be in a good place to give mental health tips to anybody.
Of damn course its not a place for kids or idiots. This site is as adults only as it gets.
On the bright side, it's fun.

Anonymous 06/30/25 (Mon) 01:35:30 No.9543

>>9542
plump 13 year old pakistani fingers wrote this

Anonymous 06/30/25 (Mon) 02:05:01 No.9545

>>7863
>school
i really really hate to be like this because gatekeeping doesn't help anyone but i feel like hikki communities are not the best place to ask for social advice in situations like this

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she's trying, it isn't working - why won't i let her help? Anonymous 06/25/25 (Wed) 00:13:06 No.9531 [Reply]

my mother has come to realize that i havent been leaving my bed let alone my room and she's starting to try to pull me out of the room to spend time with her (e.g. cooking, helping her out with stuff).

however, there's some subconscious side of me that, against my will, fights her at every step and the moment i'm free from her plunges me back deeper into isolation. i don't know what to do. i dont want to be this way anymore. i don't want to be alone but for some reason part of me does want to.

i wanted to live a normal life. i wanted to go to community college. i wanted to have a career. i wanted to have a loving husband. instead i can't remember the last time i left my house.

please for the love of god help me. i cant keep living like this. i genuinely don't know what to do anymore. i don't want to die a miserable shell of who i used to be.

Anonymous 06/25/25 (Wed) 21:41:30 No.9534

sounds like depression

Anonymous 06/25/25 (Wed) 21:46:55 No.9535

>>9534
oh yeah about that to clarify for further discussion i am diagnosed with major depressive disorder and nearly dropped out of high school because of it

Anonymous 06/26/25 (Thu) 09:35:59 No.9536

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I think what it comes down to, and this might not sound helpful/easier said than done, is just resisting the urge. i guess "resisting the other side of you" in this instance. it'll be extremely uncomfortable but you can't have anything if you don't try for it. little by little of course, don't force yourself too hard in the beginning or you will fall back. it sounds like your mother is pretty much giving you baby steps so try your hardest to go along with her for now and then work your way up. maybe to not immediately go NEET mode again, you could hang out with her a little longer each time you do something together, like a chat after putting away the groceries or what have you or talking about the food you guys made and considering other recipes. hope this doesn't sound too reddit, i believe in you anon-chan

Anonymous 06/28/25 (Sat) 11:26:05 No.9538

the reason why you kinda dont want to get out of this subconsciously is most likely because that is simply what you have become used to. isolation is your everyday life since probably quite a long time and getting out of your comfort zone is extremely hard but definitely possible. so yeah do what anon said, push yourself through with it, the fact that your mother acknowledges your problem and offers you subtle help is giving you a big advantage in terms of healing. accept her help, do not dump it in the trash just cause youre afraid or because it seems difficult. thats one of the reasons why many people (including me) stay stuck forever.

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Anonymous 04/18/25 (Fri) 07:41:45 No.9417 [Reply]

how do i make myself less like byakuya togami and more like chihiro fujisaki

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nama3!Rc/nDmcOQM 04/18/25 (Fri) 19:32:44 No.9425

>>9423
he wants to be like a video game character.

Anonymous 04/19/25 (Sat) 15:02:59 No.9433

what the ._.

Btw, i hope Balatro rlly good game

Anonymous 06/16/25 (Mon) 06:24:59 No.9519

well, comparing them both, chihiro fujisaki has a milder personality while byakuya is more precise and sometimes blunt in his words. So try to be calmer, quieter, gentle.
you know, a submissive breedable twink

Anonymous 06/16/25 (Mon) 10:36:42 No.9520

>>9519
im not wasting my money on pinkpills you shill

Anonymous 06/16/25 (Mon) 14:54:53 No.9521

>>9423
Can you post tomoko_disgust1.png (or tomoko_disgust.png) for me please

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Anonymous 04/15/25 (Tue) 04:19:39 No.9396 [Reply]

some time ago I talked to my psychologist, I told her about my most recent attempt to end my life and other suicidal idealizations, she told me that there was a dysregulation with my emotions, that at the slightest bad situation I was already thinking in the extreme, between many words we determined that the origin of my problems was due to the environment that surrounded me and she was right, living with parents who were not mentally and economically stable is not the best for a child to develop, fights, beatings, alcohol, death threats, in addition to suffering bullying for a long time for not being generally neurotypical caused me to have suicidal thoughts with 11 years and many attempts in progress, currently: I do not feel very well but it could be much worse, I went back to smoking for a short period of time and I isolated myself in my room, it is not that I have relapsed completely, I just want to disconnect a little bit from everything to reflect on myself and try to improve somehow, I feel optimistic about it ngl

Anonymous 04/15/25 (Tue) 12:42:20 No.9398

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some time ago I talked to my psychologist, I told her about my most recent attempt to end my life and other suicidal idealizations, she told me that there was a dysregulation with my emotions, that at the slightest bad situation I was already thinking in the extreme, between many words we determined that the origin of my problems was due to the environment that surrounded me and she was right, living with parents who were not mentally and economically stable is not the best for a child to develop, fights, beatings, alcohol, death threats, in addition to suffering bullying for a long time for not being generally neurotypical caused me to have suicidal thoughts with 11 years and many attempts in progress, currently: I do not feel very well but it could be much worse, I went back to smoking for a short period of time and I isolated myself in my room, it is not that I have relapsed completely, I just want to disconnect a little bit from everything to reflect on myself and try to improve somehow, I feel optimistic about it ngl

Anonymous 04/15/25 (Tue) 15:40:06 No.9402

good luck anon

Anonymous 05/11/25 (Sun) 18:15:07 No.9483

https://myhikilife.tumblr.com/

Anonymous 06/10/25 (Tue) 01:34:34 No.9512

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iu wonder what could be the context for this thread ? can someone confirm

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What do I do now? Anonymous 04/23/25 (Wed) 13:31:34 No.9470 [Reply]

I'm not sure what information I should share to get the advice I want to do ask me questions if needed please.

After a bit over a year of mostly weekly talking therapy I've come to the conclusion it isn't helping me in the ways I want it it to.

I want to nurture passions that time, depression, hiki-ization, life, whatever U wanna call it, ground down in to near nothing. I want to do something with music and I know it's not going to always be enjoyable but I want it to become something I can enjoy and feel somewhat skilled at.

I've attempted this a lot but keep hitting a wall of not knowing what it is I'm doing wrong or if I am doing something wrong or not. It's been over a year and I'm still very limited in what I can do and I can never memorise the name for most things it's just muscle memory. It's at this point I'm not sure what I'm saying or why I'm posting this but I guess I'm doing it anyway.

Anonymous 04/23/25 (Wed) 17:18:23 No.9471

What sort of music, anon?

Anonymous 04/23/25 (Wed) 20:15:20 No.9474

>>9471
Anything that can hold my interest I have a guitar I forgot to mention

Anonymous 04/23/25 (Wed) 21:54:01 No.9475

actually switching tactic a bit, I struggle to talk to people and manage very normal basic social situations, when I do it is severely draining and/or does not leave me with any significant positive feelings or experiences worth remembering, I struggle to find the point in doing anything, I constantly fall in to bad habits of neglecting myself, the one person i felt comfortable with turned out to be a a selfish prick and i still havent gotten over him, im a tranny oversly conscious about my appearance but lacking the same ability and drive to do anything about it that keeps me from pursuiting anything susbstantial with music, i live with my parents who are nice enough that I can't justify leaving my dead body somewhere for them to find but have/are still abusive and ignorant to be a significant reason for why i feel so low and hopeless, what do you do when you spend over a year in therapy not sure what to talk about wrt any of that and just seeing what happens and having no progress come from it. I want to feel good about something, I want to learn something that will help me connect to other people, give me a creative outlet, make me feel useful. What do I do?

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struggling at work Anonymous 04/20/25 (Sun) 19:48:13 No.9438 [Reply]

hi im an it guy fresh 30s. i ve barely had a satisfying workplace in the past several years because i cant get along with people. i know i have to but its very hard for me i cant stand them. this is worrying me a lot thinking i cant cope with life. if any of you have deep thoughtful advice id really appreciate it thank you a lot

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Anonymous 04/20/25 (Sun) 20:31:29 No.9444

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born to die

Anonymous 04/20/25 (Sun) 20:37:58 No.9445

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must be overthinking

im thinking most people who are well adjusted wouldnt even think 3 microseconds for a fucker

Anonymous 04/20/25 (Sun) 20:40:37 No.9446

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my antennas fried long time ago. i think im crazy sorry

Anonymous 04/23/25 (Wed) 06:59:33 No.9468

>>9440
>feelking like a real dunce this should be the easiest industry in the fucking world yet i cant keep it because im a retard
How in the actual fuck is IT an "easy" industry? You're just saying that because you were blessed with a big brain with plenty of grey matter.
I can't help you with being a better people pleaser but I'd like to know how to learn server admin stuff. I'd like to run my own things on my own server but have no idea where to start learning this stuff

Anonymous 04/23/25 (Wed) 10:18:30 No.9469

>>9468
Thanks.

try taking a structured approach. I would suggest comptia core + infrastructure then red hat (RHCSA). Find additional background material on your own

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scizoid personality disorder. Anonymous 12/08/21 (Wed) 19:10:09 No.6969 [Reply]

just figured out I suffer from this shit, and it really explains a lot of the shit I went through and the hellish state is trapped in now. so I was wondering if any of you anons are suffering from the same shit?

but before it's asked no schizoid personality disorder is not related to schizophrenia.

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Anonymous 12/18/23 (Mon) 12:29:05 No.7905

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>>7904
Then those people are not worth your time and effort. Unless you have to deal with them, for example parents that let you live with them or co-workers that need to tolerate you somewhat. I do understand what you mean with the crowd, but group pressure, society, or however you want to call it, is always worth questioning. Should you give in or not? Is it necessary for you that they accept you? Do you gain something you need from that? How far do you relent? It may get lonely like that, but in my opinion it is better to be lonely alone than lonely among others that don't really know you.

Anonymous 12/18/23 (Mon) 18:13:13 No.7906

>>7903
That's not the main point I was making. Regardless of if I should forgive myself or not for who I am and accept that there isn't a rulebook to have been properly human, I maybe could understand myself better if I know what SzPD is. Not that I'm privy to explaining away human behavior through quantification and materialism.

Anonymous 09/14/24 (Sat) 19:26:19 No.8527

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This video is interesting: https://youtube.com/watch?v=QjhB33SNJQc

Anonymous 09/23/24 (Mon) 16:31:52 No.8558

I made a forum for schizoids as an experiment, come make some posts if that interests you:
https://schizoid.boards.net

I know about the chats and communities thread but I'd like people in THIS thread to see, and that one's mostly spam containment anyway.

Anonymous 04/20/25 (Sun) 21:37:31 No.9447

>>8558
Womp womp.