That's probably a bit of an unusual topic. Does anyone here also struggle with late sexual initiation in their lives?
I've been lonely for the most part of my life, up until early 30s due to a multitude of reasons.
For more context: i am a late-transitioning trans woman (i do actually pass and that's by standards of a pretty conservative central european country)
At school i struggled with impeded social skills and i was a moderately unattractive person at that time (in my opinion) - by either masculine or feminine standards of beauty.
I had a very little internal sense of gender back then and felt pretty much like a genderless entity, although my environment treated me like a dude, obviously.
Due to my general emasculation i was often badly mistreated and abused by male peers. It was a small, provincial school, full of people with very conservative and narrow mindsets. Girls were pretty traditional there and weren't interested in me, plus it was generally expected that i should initiate things, as a "man", while i was never the type to do so.
Later in life i have become extremely secluded and never completed any education beyond HS. This of course left a huge negative impact on my social life and skills.
With the life context out of the way - fast forward to 2023.
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