/hikki/ - NEET / Advice

>>4161
7 months lol, fuck off

>>7951
Hope you get kicked off ssi you lazy degen(HIKINEET SITE (USER WAS BANNED FOR THIS POST))

>>7951
I like you anon, you seem wise. Newfag here, but was there ever a time before this board became overrun by holier-than-thou types and nahtzees? When it was just people who had become neet one way or another and were trying to get along?

if you say that i think you've just wasted your time judging boards through your bias when you could actually study psychiatry, psychology and sociology.

now, don't get me wrong. i agree that it is unhealthy and undeniably selfish to make others pay for your self destruction.

but mental disorders are EXACTLY that. having an undesired condition - often because you were raised by the wrong environmen - that makes you do bad things to yourself and others even if you don't want to.

it's like you're telling someone with pneumonia to breathe well just because YOU are perfectly healthy. of course, pneumonia is treatable and curable, hikkikomori is as well. but both take time, money, energy. it is not gonna happen instantly, no matter how much you yell at the sick to get better already. you're just verbally abusing them for something they literally can't do. in other words, you're being petty and irrational.

>>8688
well said

>>8314
Not saying it is but that sounds like anhedonia. I feel this from time to time, not just with boring activities but with stuff I enjoy too like videogames. Everything feels like a chore.

>>8561
Together with you or together with each other?

>>8313
What’s the image in your post from uboanon?

I used to think that I was unwell for being a loner that did not want to integrate into a larger society. Everyone else is thinking about capital, marriage and retirement, don't they? What kind of man does not strive for wealth and children? I will tell you what kind of man: the same kind that can see the illusions of this world for what they are.

Why do you people live for? Do you live for the sake of living, or do you seek something beyond our rotten world? Because those who live in order to live will perish, while those who want to reach for the stars will reach them! Everyone will see the suffering of the Earth at some point in their journey, and when they do they will either accept the world and seek its comfort or rebel against the world because it is wicked. You can see how all wars are unjust, all states are illegitimate and all rulers are robbers. Then why do you wish to live for the king and his kingdom when you can live for your own salvation? Leave the master alone to rule over his slaves, and seek comfort elsewhere.

They will call me mad for rejecting the world, but they cannot see that they are mad themselves. We are all broken by the world around us, nobody is left unscarred. Some will realize this, others will not. We live to be understood by our peers, but they can never understand us. There are no words that can fully convey what bothers the soul, and no one can peer into our minds to see our thoughts naked. That is why you are condemned to live and die on this Earth alone.

What am I going to do now? What are you going to do? I don't know, but we must seek our salvation independently. No two lives can be the same, as such no solutions can be either.

(also sorry for the schizopost lolo)

>>8591
Looks like that Sims game made for a younger audience, MySims I think it was called. Played the shit out of it back in the day

>>8575
I do haved some similar experiencies like that years ago. As someone with Asperger Syndrome, I just fall to the conclusion that being mute 99,9% of the time is my best option to not bother others or bother me, and just enjoying doing my things. May not be the most healthy thing, but whatever.

I'm pretty stoic and quiet. I'd rather not say anything than risk offending people or rubbing them up the wrong way.

>>8568
Sounds like a good memory. I would have liked to grow up in the rose coloured echo of it I'm imagining.

I never go a day without speaking a word, but I say absolutely as little as I can. A few one word answers and ritual nothings, and I hate even that. The solitude I'm given is already far more than I deserve though.

For some reason, people really don't like you if your quiet. It didn't feel so bad in the past but these days people seem to really hate you if your quiet and lonesome. They think you are bad person or a pervert. It seems to really disgust them.

My professor in college once told us about his time in rural China. He used to sit alone and eat because he was the only Westerner and his Chinese wasn't that good. When people saw this they'd go out of their way to sit with him because they felt bad. They'd try and talk in English even if they didn't understand it. In Western society, if a person is sat by themselves they usually get stigmatized. Makes you wonder what old world values we''ve lost.

I don't really like talking, but there's this thing that "people don't know what i want to communicate if i don't speak it"
I just like being in the vibe, yk. I don't like being questioned of what am i doing when it is clear as fuck what i'm doing
Even in VC's is the same thing, but most of the times i can go non-verbal and friends would go 'OK :)' and keep going
>>8598 You're so right and reading it it justs… hurts.

>>8515
Discord demography

>>8488
Gehhh, I dislike so much negativity but I can't help but agree. Public discords r such a cesspit but there's no real good way to browse and see a shit ton of discords. The only thing I really know is disboards and not once have I had anything fulfilling from that.

The only good servers I've ever been on are random private ones that have some link placed somewhere, and then from those getting invited to an ultra priv one. It's weird to think how far my experience of discord is to the median one, especially when I think of my early days on it and how normie the servers I was stuck in were

Same unfunny trends, same circlejerking, same 10 people only ever speaking, same fucking conversations. Nothing new, nothing special

this happens to me all the time. I get randomly obsessed with people I don't even know and stalk them through the internet, never interacting with them

I've taken a liking to this lurker girl on a server that I'm in and holy fuck… I'm afraid my feelings toward her aren't platonic anymore. She has no real friends it seems, or at least no server mutuals. Her total posts haven't gone up to triple digits (and she's been here for a while), she almost always stops typing before giving up, and you can spot her name in a bunch of message reactions.

Her reaction to one of my very personal messages is what piqued my interest. I've never been so moved by a simple heart emoji before, even though she wasn't the only one reacting.

She had her IG profile linked in the bio for a short time… Females nowadays don't have to present themselves anymore in order to get attention, and there's always a mob of thirsty people drooling over everything they say. But she's nothing like that. No apparent friends to her name, no ego, nothing to appeal to horny degens. She's not trying to look good on selfies, rarely talks about herself, doesn't care how stupid some of her posts might be, all that with only a few followers. She's so unfiltered and honest, and holy shit is she adorable.

I hate myself

>>8783
Please tell me this is a copypasta. Anyways new copypasta just dropped

>>8364
autists do you thinkan retard is a slur

>>8363
This is actually pretty good advice. I've been trying to get myself out there more by going to shows that my fave bands are playing in, and I recently went to a convention for the first time, but it's really scary putting myself out there.

I often drink at those events and try to spark conversation with a stranger, but I find myself eventually clamming up and walking away, telling myself I'm being annoying or weird when there's any pauses and the like. I don't know.

I'll definitely look at online communities relating to my interests, I somehow didn't really think of that

>>8343
I've honestly felt that way myself many times, and I've realized that we all simply have a select niche that we would fit you. I'm sorry your friends don't make the effort to include you, but in my eyes, you shouldn't beat yourself up over it or try to change yourself to fit in with them.

Instead, I feel its more important to accept the person you are, flaws and all, and be confident in that person. Be confident in your interests and hobbies or mannerisms, no matter how "weird" or "niche" you might imagine them to be, and look for like minded people.

Interact with communities of your favorite games or animes, go to conventions and compliment someone's costume and spark up a convo about the series their dressed up as, compliment someone's cool t shirt you recognize, etc. Every little effort counts and builds to a greater whole.

You got this, even if it doesn't seem that way. You'll find the people you want and deserve.

I don’t feel comfortable around other humans. I used to have that feeling of being left out, that fear, and so I’d do my best to impress people and I would end up coming off as weird and arrogant. So then I retreated from people. I guess it’s easier to run away from the fear than fight it and overcome it. I went through a 5 year period of shutting myself off from others. It’s been so long I don’t even think I’m capable of making friends. Like whatever hardware is in the brain for socializing has all rusted away now and it’s hopeless.

Now I like being the background character. It does upset me when I think about it, but I don’t think there’s any other way anymore. I wish I could be professionally successful but I don’t feel a need to be connected to other humans anymore.

>>8343
God I feel you OP. I like to think that despite it all, I've done well enough for myself irl wise with masking that even if I drop out of shit, I have irl friends who seem to like me, have had relationships etc, but I cannot shake this feeling of not belonging. I still will feel like an alien, and the loneliness of having achieved a friend group and still feeling like an outcast is unbearable.
Esp on the topic of having one friend that you really connect with but not finding it easy to just hang out with them. I hate feeling like such a jealous piece of shit when I see him hang out with others and not choose me constantly. He's a very friendly and popular person so I just remind myself to have faith in our friendship, but often times I hate having to hang out with him and then others who I don't really find any fulfillment in interacting with.
At some fundamental level there's always a disconnect, and I hate when the seemingly one beam of light is constantly stolen. I really don't want him to hate me though, I hate thoughts like these

>>7903
I think its pretty easy to forget that. I'm not the aforementioned anon, but shit is easy to fall into. when you believe its just better to be accepted your own independence. The crowd is a huge influence.

Shit I feel like half the people I'm close would abandon me if they knew anything about what I feel beyond a surface level

>>7904
Then those people are not worth your time and effort. Unless you have to deal with them, for example parents that let you live with them or co-workers that need to tolerate you somewhat. I do understand what you mean with the crowd, but group pressure, society, or however you want to call it, is always worth questioning. Should you give in or not? Is it necessary for you that they accept you? Do you gain something you need from that? How far do you relent? It may get lonely like that, but in my opinion it is better to be lonely alone than lonely among others that don't really know you.

>>7903
That's not the main point I was making. Regardless of if I should forgive myself or not for who I am and accept that there isn't a rulebook to have been properly human, I maybe could understand myself better if I know what SzPD is. Not that I'm privy to explaining away human behavior through quantification and materialism.

This video is interesting: https://youtube.com/watch?v=QjhB33SNJQc

I made a forum for schizoids as an experiment, come make some posts if that interests you:
https://schizoid.boards.net

I know about the chats and communities thread but I'd like people in THIS thread to see, and that one's mostly spam containment anyway.

>>8277
>i always wanted to have a more avid collection of figures, standees, and games.

This reminds a short but decent collection of games and some figures I had years ago that one day dissapear cuz family doens't give a nasu… Still mad about it. Hopefully you can get a good collection

and welcome anon

>>8277
Henlo!!! I'm also really new here, I never really interact with the communities of my interests, but I want to try getting more into them to try to crawl out of my shell little by little. I totally feel you on trying to maintain hobbies with a healthier relationship to it. I often find myself ignoring socialization to play video games and the like,,,,,,

Btw whats a gba repo?

>>8538
I tried to interact with communities of similar personal interests, but it seems like I lost literal any social skill, ended up doing the "ignoring socialization to play video games" or watching things I find on Internet.

How people do it?

>>8539
I totally get that, it is really difficult to even get started on building those skills, and even now I struggle to consistently socialize, but I think at a certain point you just need to push yourself. Say what comes to mind, figure out the other person's interests and boundaries as you speak to them.

Honestly, its going to be unpleasant and scary, but the only way you can really learn is through exposure. I notice I tend to ignore interactions cause Im afraid of awkward situations and hurt feelings, but both of those are merely a consequence of being alive that we can recover from.

You got this, just talk and talk and don't let your thoughts get to you.

>>8383
body pillow sounds nice… and plush is good.
anybody have any sewing patterns for sabitsuki plush?

I sleep with this. Feels good.

>>8394
Yumay Neekee

>>8300
i like to pretend I'm dry humping my gf when I miss her
I do it a lot because I miss her a lot

>>8526
First post in this thread to actually make me sad

15/f/cali(USER WAS BANNED FOR THIS POST)

crusty and old despite being 21 wao, now i will witness as every person older wants to beat me to death.

27 reporting in, this thread was posted when I was still lurking as an 18 year old, it's kind of sad that I used to be too chronically shy to post even anonymously. Would have been cool to see a time capsule of myself. For my future self's sake though, I think I'll blogpost a bit. Sorry if it comes off as annoying, this thread's neat and I didn't expect uboa to have survived this long. What if it survives for much longer still?
It's funny skimming through the thread, one second you've reached the point you can finally post as haphazardly as you want on any imageboard/site, the next you're basically ancient on the internet. I realize 27 isn't that much still but damn, I used to be the one thinking "omg 20's how oldddd". Things do get better as you get older even if they don't really, and that only makes sense as you develop yourself it turns out. I honestly used to think that thought was just a platitude. I'm learning more about myself every year even if so far nearly 3/4s of my adult life have been eaten up by repeated or long cycles NEETdom. I'm slowly finding my way through things, in and out of society. I can say I feel capable of being more human now, and I've even found a way to start over in a new country (it's not Japan lol) which is a lot for the way I used to be not too long ago. It's going to be so freeing even if I still hate every second that I'm not distracted right now. Real life's not nearly as stressful to interact with as it was when I was 22 and barely starting to do anything, I'm thankful for that. I still wish I had gone to school at all for the experience or something though. Maybe I'll go in my new country once I'm integrated enough and get good enough at the native language.
Maybe I'll also find a way to make a proper life for myself even online still, more social and in a healthier way than I've been before. It almost kind of sucks now being anonymous everywhere I go, it feels like I'm the only person without a proper handle, like I shouldn't exist most of the time; but I'm building up the courage in all facets of myself, and I know one day I'll be able to share what I like to do or my interests and what I make and meet a lot of cool people once I do. I'm excited to see where my life keeps going.

Good luck to you starting 20s. Good luck to you now mid-upper 30s if any of the older anons from back then still check here.

Twelve(USER WAS BANNED FOR THIS POST)

yotsuba age 5