No.8385
Man this imageboard used to be fucking cool.
This type of shit has only caused harm to the chan culture if you haven't figured already. Instead of giving us the right to say whatever the fuck we want, you'd always double down on every little thing we've complained about, and pussy out by banning the posts which contradict your brainwashed perspective.
Last thing I've ever wanted on imageboards was the alphabets taking over. These entitled, hypersensitive, silver-spooned terminally online mobs will do anything in their power to take down the meanies. And now it seems that nobody has the chance of stopping them, be it imageboards or elsewhere.
Gone are the days of people having the right to be repulsed by fags, telling them to fuck off back to the Pulp Fiction basement. Feels absurd to live in a world where anything said against the alphabet is considered a horrible, horrible thing now.
In fact, anything said about trannies in a remotely negative light in the present day is enough to make you enemy of the entire world. Anything anti-tranny is somehow "morally wrong" and "literally the devil". Well guess what, recommending your impressionable friends and kids to mutilate their fucking bodies in order to "achieve euphoria uwu" (or whatever other bullshit excuses you have) sure as fuck isn't the morally superior thing.
It makes me vomit. It physically makes me uncomfortable to think this is getting more accepted by the day, and you're contributing to this moral decline no less. Each and every fucking one of you mongrels.
If freaks of nature let freaks of nature openly discuss their fetishes, then only the most disgusting, rancid-smelling, grotesque herd of posters will soon be the only ones left here.
Not long until we see Uboachan become a minor-friendly hugbox using the most limited vocabulary possible, with anons sharing support left and right in the spirit of "YOU'RE ALL SO VALID AND EVERYONE LOVES YOU UWU :333"
Instead of taking care of the years-long pizza spam, we get shit like this. If you plan on turning this place into anonymous Reddit, then go ahead and make a fucking subforum on that shortbus site. You'll have millions of cumbrains agree with you without any compromise.
Either stop with this retardation or find someone sane enough to run this place instead. You're a 30+ year old man putting on skirts in public. Grow a fucking brain already(Yep gone are the days and all that, don't let the door hit your fragile butt on the way out.)
No.8386
>>8385>wordswordswordswordsthe left can't meme
No.8387
>>8385You are wasting your breath, I won't be swayed. But I am leaving this for now because I feel like there are things I ought to say but I don't have the time or energy at the moment. It is true that things used to be like that here, and maybe it bears making a statement about why I decided to change the formula. Because it wasn't an easy decision for me.
No.8388
>>8385i bless that you find some state of mind that doesnt involve you having to tear down others for your own self appeasement
No.8389
>>8385>moral declineInteresting language there buddy.
Nice essay, all because you're butthurt about some tranny or other living their life. And you call them the pussies. Grow up, cunt.
No.8391
does e sterilise you permanently? been considering feminising somewhat, for personal aesthetics and preferences.
No.8393
>>8391no, it doesn't. as long as you don't have any kind of permenant surgery, fertility effects of HRT are almost entirely reversable if you stop the medication. the only non-reversable effects are changes to bone structure/densisty and breast growth, but i believe there are procedures and surgeries that can help revert those to what they were pre-HRT.
No.8396
>>8380Ready to make some smores
Wanted to start the fire but I was too late, have my crappy opinion anyways.
Unless I wish to date or sex you I do not give a damn about which gender you want to present yourself as, how you look or even who you want to do lewd things with. Be yourself. That's the one thing that matters. Yet I would actually be happier if gender and sex wasn't the first thing certain people threw at me when I met them. For some reason it instantly raises a red flag for me. I have met too many people IRL with such traits that ended up being absurdly obnoxious. Even then, the majority of them is still cute and deserving of a hug.
>>8385>Not long until we see Uboachan become a minor-friendly hugbox using the most limited vocabulary possibleFuck off. Unless I get fired for this post that won't happen. This isn't a Redditor-owned Discord server for a spinoff of a niche RPG game released on the MSX in '91 that has somehow crossed the sea and sparked a whole franchise with the server having an actual artist blocklist posting the art of will get you banned and witch trials on anyone with opinions they don't like. Here you got banned for poking the wasp nest.
>Instead of taking care of the years-long pizza spam, we get shit like this.There are still minor things to finalize but otherwise the spam is mostly gone. If you are such a smart butt, maybe you should have applied for the position to help implement the spam filters.
>>8388Now this applies to me as well and I surely hope so as well.
No.8397
>>8396tru
i think i get what you're saying. character defines you, but i don't think you mean that in a way that eclipses other traits or personal struggles.
No.8399
>>8376Good luck… hopefully this will go better than the previous attempts
No.8403
>>8385>don't let the door hit your fragile butt on the way outSays the man who's shamelessly talked about getting fucked in the ass "more times than he'd like to admit". The prisoner ass syndrome dude projecting like mad here.
>>8387>maybe it bears making a statement about why I decided to change the formulaI just wanna fucking be my true self on this site again, without causing you trannies to seethe and dilate.
>>8388Being calm about this bullshit has never worked. You mongrels never stop yourself from doubling down on the bratty shit you've done. There's ultimately a limit to stopping people from breeding, so I bet this only makes you rush to that point.
>>8396>Here you got banned for poking the wasp nestThat's funny. I'm betting that's a metaphor for poking your victims with estrogen-filled syringes.
>If you are such a smart butt, maybe you should have applied for the position to help implement the spam filtersWell too bad I'd rather not wanna associate with pinkpilled jannies, or become one of them god forbid.
(USER WAS BANNED FOR THIS POST) No.8405
>>8403I lol'd at "poking your victims with estrogen-filled syringes", I hope you stay with us anon, just chill out.
>I just wanna fucking be my true self on this site againIs this really such a big part of your-self that you're so fiery about this whole thing?
No.8406
>>8403
> Says the man who's shamelessly talked about getting fucked in the ass "more times than he'd like to admit".You are mistaken. It's not more than I'd like to admit, it's more than I can remember lmao. It's awesome you should try it. :3
> I just wanna fucking be my true self on this site again, without causing you trannies to seethe and dilate.What a coincidence, I also want to be my true self on this site without making you nazi terrorists froth at the mouth and scream about wanting me to kill myself and shit. It used to be jokes, you know, back in the beginning. You could see the humor in the rude comments. They sometimes sounded like malice at a glance but often it was really all in good fun, or at least it seemed that way at the time. What's changed since then is the hate and vitriol is very real. The world has changed. Or, maybe it was always real and we just stopped pretending.
> Being calm about this bullshit has never worked. You mongrels never stop yourself from doubling down on the bratty shit you've done.:333
> There's ultimately a limit to stopping people from breeding, so I bet this only makes you rush to that point.idk I get bred all the time lol
> That's funny. I'm betting that's a metaphor for poking your victims with estrogen-filled syringes.ngl that's kinda funny I don't have a comeback for that one
> Well too bad I'd rather not wanna associate with pinkpilled jannies, or become one of them god forbid.It's fucking hilarious to imagine hujle being pinkpilled lol. I'm not actually sure if any of the jannies
are trans, I just took everyone who applied and told them what to do. They mostly handled the CP spam but I killed 90% of that with a custom vichan mod the other week.
Anyway it kinda seems like you don't wanna be here anymore, and I'm afraid you have embarked on a quixotic quest to return the site to some perceived better days. But those days are gone. Shit's just not funny anymore, not when y'all are actually backing real plans in real life to make me and my kind disappear from this world. People like you make us actually terrified to be here because we know what you actually stand for. But I haven't asked for much, just for the users here to not be complete asswipes to each other, and for trans conversation to literally be confined to a single thread. Shouldn't you be happy about that?
If being who you really are means going out of your way to make other people feel bad, maybe you should be looking inward at that instead of distracting yourself from your own self-growth by projecting your despair and self-hatred outward onto other people who just want to have a good time.
No.8407
>>8403This is not a free speech extremism website, go to bird site for that. This is a walking simulator forum.
There is hopefully not a single trans metaphor in my statements. You fucked around and found out.
I would not stop anybody from legally breeding or even suggest that they should hurt themselves in any way. Thus I am not to prescribe others medical treatments or not. I am not a doctor and neither are you. That's their whole job. In addition, are you blind to the fact that much of the movement is purely social and doesn't involve the medicinal fields at all?
No.8408
At some point these tards should just have their replies wiped, it's shitting up the thread, and /hikki/ as a whole. If that causes "controversy", fuck it, they will bitch and moan either way. The beatings will continue until morale improves.
Now onto the real shit…
How can so many people (at least, people I went to HS with) come out to their parents after like a week of knowing? Most of the time it goes well, but you can never be too sure. With me it's 50/50 chance of acceptance/disownment, and I do not like to take chances, especially knowing that something like this could absolutely fuck up your life if you don't have a safety net to fall back on.
Personally, I'll try and hold out until I can actually hold down a place to live, or at least perma-crash at someone else's. Unfortuntately a job is almost certainly required. Fuuuggg. It's tough but… what can ya do.
No.8409
>>8408
> At some point these tards should just have their replies wiped, it's shitting up the thread, and /hikki/ as a whole.I agree. It felt cathartic to argue with that guy for a bit, but ultimately it was a distraction from what I want the thread to be. We'll start deleting posts like that in this thread going forward.
> How can so many people (at least, people I went to HS with) come out to their parents after like a week of knowing? Most of the time it goes well, but you can never be too sure. With me it's 50/50 chance of acceptance/disownment, and I do not like to take chances, especially knowing that something like this could absolutely fuck up your life if you don't have a safety net to fall back on.> Personally, I'll try and hold out until I can actually hold down a place to live, or at least perma-crash at someone else's. Unfortuntately a job is almost certainly required. Fuuuggg. It's tough but… what can ya do.There's a bit to unpack here. Firstly, trans people often know for a long time before they tell anyone. So it might seem like it happened suddenly and then they are telling their parents right away, but more likely they had been mulling over it for a long time, and finally found the power inside themselves to live it outwardly.
I think that sometimes when someone has not been living as their true self for a long time, when they finally embrace it, becoming themselves is more important to them than even feeling safe in their own home or having a clear future. It depends on the person, and how much they have been suffering by holding it in or denying it to themselves all this time.
For me personally, I had been living on my own for some years before I figured it out, and even then I was terrified to tell my parents. I told my mom first, I thought she would take it well and she really did. My dad didn't react badly but he seems like he tries not to think about it too much. (He lives far away so I haven't seen him in years though.)
I was lucky to be surrounded by supportive people as I figured myself out; coming out to my own social circles was easy. I definitely waited a while to start dropping hints on my imageboards though because I knew it could be a mess. It's harder for me to speculate about the people who had to come out in hostile environments, but many of my friends were that way.
No.8410
>>8408i don't know about you, but for me being true to myself was far more importnat to me than anything else. i didn't have anything to live for at the time anyway so i figured if they kicked me out i'd just kill myself and that'd be the end of it.
that being said, it's not like i came out right after realizing it either. i first knew when i was 10 or 11 and i didn't come out to my parents til i was 15.
it's not like they reacted particularly well or poorly though, they didn't believe me at all. i wasn't able to start transitioning til i was an adult.
my biggest regret, honestly, is not telling them earlier. i don't think it would have changed anything at the time, but maybe they'd believe me now.
No.8420
>>8376yo thanks for this thread sei
whatever the hell's been happening here is dumb and fucking cringeworthy, uboa was never 4chan anyway
not that we couldn't have seen it coming, but looks like everything's alright now, people can be real irrational nowadays
better keep this thread going i guess, i hope this thread stays normal from now on
all we need is a place to talk peacefully without any danger of idiots invading
why's that so difficult?
No.8425
>>8402he was probably an edgy neet ben shapiro fan as a youth, so i reckon he browsed a lot of chans
No.8428
>>8425I cannot argue with that, which is a shame because he’s one of my favourite p5 characters.
Onto my original point, I’m actually FTM, and I’ve been thinking of going on T for a while. However, some of the effects are things I really don’t want, but I want the other effects so bad it makes it a tough decision. Doesn’t help that my entire countries going up against trans hormones at the moment so my opportunity is slipping away quickly.
So, as I said, blegh. Decisions.
No.8430
>>8428what effects are you for/against anon? let me see if i can reddit armchair therapist a little
No.8434
>>8430I mainly don’t want bottom growth, which I know is one of the first things to happen when you get on T. I’ve mentally checked myself and I’ve confirmed it’s not for any weird psychological reasons, I’m just content with everything there and things changing would probably just make me dysphoric in a different way.
However, I really want more facial hair and a deeper voice. I say ‘more’ because I actually already have an inflated level of T due to a hormonal condition, so I’ve actually grown a bit of facial hair naturally. However, because of my body, I kind of just look like shaggy in that one scene in the live action scooby doo movie where he says ‘I’ve got a chicks body!!’. Same facial hair and all.
I also want top surgery, obviously, but again I doubt that’s a possibility for me right now.
It’s just…agh, rough. I’ve never been good with decisions like this.
No.8435
>>8434I'm a different anon but I must say this…
You should do it anyway if you know that it will give you more things that you want than things you don't. The wanted changes may have a bigger effect on you than the unwanted ones and you're wasting your time wondering if it's worth it or not. Minoxidil could be a temporary solution for facial hair but there's no other way around when it comes to a deeper voice.
This goes for anyone else on the fence about it. Whether it's feminization or masculinization that you're seeking, if you have the access to hormones and you're certain that the effects of HRT are going to improve your life, quit wondering if it's worth it and just do it.
Otherwise dysphoria will only eat you away slowly until you're completely destroyed as a person, assuming that there's still anything inside of you at all. It's too late for me and literally inaccessible, but it may not be too late for many other trans anons. The people who hate us are never going to understand the feeling of watching yourself grow into something you never thought you would become or never wanted to be, and many of us don't understand the cause of the feeling until it's too late or we understand it but didn't get the support we needed.
They call us delusional when we tend to know more about human anatomy than them, they're trapped in the cage that is bioessentialism with no true understanding of their own hormones or reproductive anatomy, yet they believe we don't know the obvious — or else how would gender dysphoria manifestate? They know that many of their beliefs contradict each other but they do not care as long as they get to hate on people who are seen as less than humans.
Those are things we all know.
It's why you must stop hesitating, if you know something is going to help you feel better and closer to what makes you an individual, stop wondering and start injecting.
No.8436
>>8435I know this is really hypocritical of me to say anon, but….
>It's too late for meI don’t think it is. If you’re able to give this advice to me and say it with such heart, I think you need to hear it as well. Even if HRT is inaccessible to you (diy is always an option but I don’t know how easy it is for you), you can still live socially or even privately as who you are. It’s never too late until you quite literally stop existing. Again, super hypocritical as the guy who can’t decide if they want to start T or not, but, sometimes the best advice is the stuff you give others but not yourself.
>Minoxidil could be a temporary solution for facial hairWay ahead of you, I’ve actually been using it for a few weeks now. Not really any results yet, but, this stuff apparently needs like three months so I’m not complaining. I’ve noticed tiny changes so I’m happy.
You might’ve helped me become more firm in my choice anon. I’m still undecided, and my country reeeaallly doesn’t like hrt at the moment (waiting lists are god knows how long and i definitely can’t afford private). But I’ll at the very least start considering it more. It’s not too late for me, nor is it for any of you. As long as we exist, it’s not too late.
No.8439
>>8391>>8393So something about this, my best friend is trans, I've been on hrt before myself for almost a year, not anymore, more non-binary than trans-fem but that's neither here nor there. Point is, yes, it can effect your fertility permanently if you're taking estrogen. Less than a year and you're likely fine, I've had fertility tests since and don't have any issues. Many years on estrogen and fertility can take a long time to come back or may not come back.
My best friend started when she was 16 and has been trying to become fertile again for nearly a year now. She's taking clomid to help regain fertility after just letting T work on its own for a while. She probably will be okay, her metrics are looking better than they were some months ago, but she's outright despondent over the whole process with dysphoria.
I'm saying all this because you absolutely should sperm bank before starting HRT if you are able to. If this is prohibitive for you it's safe to start for a few months just to see how you emotionally feel but keep in mind if you really like how estrogen feels you might hate having to go off to sperm bank in the future.
I personally feel kind of cursed myself, I would rather be on e and feel way better on e but I value my fertility too much unfortunately. It's either I feel depressed about one thing or I feel depressed about another.
Also to anyone here taking HRT please try estrogen monotherapy first! You might not need and androgen blocker and if you do you probably don't need such a high dosage. Everyone needs some testosterone in their bodies and when dumb endocrinologists nuke your T levels to zero with a high dose of spironolactone or something it can make you feel very weird, depressive, dissociative, etc.
I took spiro + e for a few months and felt like utter shit the entire time and had blunted emotional affect. When I switched to estrogen monotherapy I felt amazing and more like myself than ever really, and became very in touch with my emotions. Estrogen alone in high enough levels will regulate your T without destroying it completely. Ideally you want your T levels to be what a cis-women's healthy levels would be to get good results, not just physically, but also emotionally, in my experience
Some people do well with high-dose androgen blockers and it's not impossible that a small dose might be beneficial. But I've met more people that don't do well with them and some doctors can be really clueless about slowly ramping up dosage or trying monotherapy alone first.
No.8440
>>8439>>8391>>8393to add to what you said about monotherapy and testosterone!
low t levels can actually be extremely dangerous! the average cisgender woman has between 20 and 40 ng/dl of testosterone naturally in their body. this is a necessary baseline to function properly, as testosterone isn't just a sex hormone, it's an intermediary hormone that helps regulate many of your body's normal functions. having a t level that's too low can actually be physically dangerous for you! anecdotally, my hormone provider had me on a fairly high blocker dose (100mg spiro/day), and when i went to go start prog they didn't cut my blocker dose at all. as a result, my t dipped to extremely low levels and i became severely anemic, causing me to nearly have a heart attack. generally speaking, the lower limit for what is safe in regards to t levels is 10 ng/dl. mine was around 4.
i'm currently still not on prog, but my spiro dose has been lowered to 25mg/day. while there are some negative side effects, such as a dramatic increase to my body/facial hair growth and much worse acne outbreaks, on the whole i feel much better and my anemia is completely gone. in a couple weeks, i'm going to try to get back on the progesterone.
No.8441
>>8439ah got it, so it can permanently sterilise you in… some cases? are there any specific studies?
No.8442
>>8441I'm
>>8439It's a medical unknown right now I think. Some people have HRT for over a decade and regain fertility or even remain fertile while on HRT while others have lost their fertility seemingly permanently after only a few years. Researchers haven't effectively studied this enough to clear answers yet.
Part of the paperwork I signed to get HRT was acknowledging potential permanent fertility effects but it generally takes over a year for that risk to be present. The wording was, "There is a risk you may lose fertility permanently undergoing HRT treatment."
You can read about the effects of various treatments here, including more experimental stuff.
https://transfemscience.org/articles/transfem-intro/
>Estrogens, progestogens, and androgens also have antigonadotropic effects. That is, they inhibit the gonadotropin-releasing hormone (GnRH)-induced secretion of the gonadotropins, luteinizing hormone (LH) and follicle-stimulating hormone (FSH), from the pituitary gland in the brain. The gonadotropins signal the gonads to make sex hormones and to supply the sperm and egg cells necessary for fertility. Hence, lower levels of the gonadotropins will result in reduced gonadal sex hormone production and diminished fertility. If gonadotropin levels are sufficiently suppressed, the gonads will no longer make sex hormones at all and fertility will cease. The vast majorities of the quantities of estradiol, testosterone, and progesterone in the body are produced by the gonads. Most of the small remaining amounts of these hormones are produced via the adrenal glands of the kidneys. No.8443
>>8442ah got it. not like im going to be some nordic patriarch, sleeping around with my 12 stolen wives and 30 children, so fertility banking is fine. just curious. Thanks for the study
No.8446
>>8445based department? what discord server's reeking uterus birthed you faggot
No.8447
>>8445My last resort got v&, so I'm still trying to figure out a way
No.8449
>>8445Eternal September frogposters go back. This really shows me the people complaining about this thread weren’t even on this site a decade ago.
No.8452
Why not make a new board or something? I really don't understand what this topic has to do with this board.
No.8455
>>8452They're really presuming trans folks to be unemployed, huh
No.8456
>>8452probs cause there were a few off topic posts about trans stuff that got derailed, specifically in hikki. they also tried an lgbt board a few years ago in 2021, but it went as well as you would expect
No.8459
>>8452A board might eventually make more sense. Last time I tried that the backlash was so swift and impressive that I rolled it back the same day. But, maybe I should have stood my ground at that time. I didn't have the same resolve about a lot of things back then that I do now, so I was pushed over easily.
Right now I am seeing if the mod staff can handle keeping a single thread alive for an extended period, before I consider a huge undertaking like that. We might even need additional staff in order to maintain an entire controversial (ugh) board against raiders and shitposters. It's placed here because /hikki/ is where trans topics were coming up most often.
So yeah it will be a while before I think about it.
No.8463
I moved into a new apartment and one of the people I have to share with is trans. I'm a mentally ill hikineet with no social skills and I'm scared of trans people even though I've never really known one. She bumped into me by accident in the kitchen 3 days ago and I freaked out. I don't like people physically touching me but she probably took it as an anti-trans thing. I said some hurtful things. I've noticed her presence has been stressing me out and I've been behaving more erratically. Like how cats act out when they are feeling anxious. I feel really guilty about it. Like I'm making her life worse. Its impolite and it must suck dealing with hostilty out there. I don't mean to attack her or anything and I want us to be nice to each other and get along so she feels comfy. Should I apologize or minimize the damage by just avoiding her? What's the best way to apologize without accidentally offending her? I'm worried I'll say something stupid. Is it possible I'm actually attracted to her? Do you think she can tell?
Also if I'm a traditionalist who's generally anti-LGBT is this violation of site rules? Am I okay to post unrelated stuff here? Do you consider not liking trans people to be transphobia? As in "I don't personally agree with these people but I don't hate them or anything." Just curious. I've zero interest in political discussions or attacking trans people for no reason.
No.8464
>>8463if you're pragmatic and just apologise in a direct way she should be alright.
No.8465
>>8463Eh, you should be fine. Most people don't like trans-folk generally. Just do what everyone else is doing, be passive and wait for the reckoning.
No.8466
>>8463Maybe apologizing and then telling a half-truth could work. Something around the lines of saying you are stressed because you aren't used to socializing with a roommate yet and that you freaked out the other day because you greatly dislike physical contact in general.
No.8467
>>8463Since you two would have to live together for prolonged period of time, I think it's the best to explain and apologize. I'm sure that trans folk of yours is as
mentally ill as you are and you two might be able to find a common language.
> Also if I'm a traditionalist who's generally anti-LGBT is this violation of site rules?Only if you're gonna display it in an aggressive manner. Believe it or not, I'm not too fond on gay people myself, but as long as they're not trying to lecture me with their $30 haircut - I'm cool with them.
No.8468
>>8463What do you mean you "said some hurtful things"?
No.8469
im not trans, but my gf is. so i consider myself an ally.
No.8470
>>8467I never understood the '30$ haircut' thing, is 30 dollars for a haircut considered comically little in America?
No.8471
>>8465>be passive and wait for the reckoning.WHAAA what are you people planning?! The revolution is gonna come from Uboa?
>>8468>What do you mean you "said some hurtful things"?I don't remember exactly. Schizo babble. I ramble incoherent thoughts when I'm upset. I screamed some random shit at her. I do remember saying "I won't let you people fuck mw." Stuff like that.
>>8459Your site Sei but I don't get why this thread is pinned.
No.8472
>>8471>The revolution is gonna come from Uboa?Yes. We are coming for you and your grandmother's dinner.
>why this thread is pinned.People kept derailing other threads. The pin is here to prevent further chaos. Which is weird considering sei's obsessions with the chaotic and mysterious.
No.8474
>>8471>I won't let you people fuck meYeah, sounds like sexual repression, maybe Sei can help you deal with it? ;)
No.8475
>>8471My friend the “I won’t let you people fuck me” comment is some kind of repressed thing for sure, and you saying, “is it possible I’m actually attracted to her?” People who aren’t attracted to trans people don’t say stuff like that. That said I don’t think you should try to bone your roommate. But you should totally take this as an opportunity to get better social skills and maybe make a friend. A lot of trans folk are super autistic and super online you might have more in common than you think.
Go apologize, not in a schizo way just a simple, “i’m sorry for freaking out I really don’t like being touched but i’ll try not scream again.” If you can’t do that in person leave a letter at her door. Maybe a few days or weeks later strike up a conversation.
I promise you trans folk are people like any other people. Whatever internet demons your afraid of try to let them go at least with people actually living with you.
No.8476
Sex with Sei!
No.8477
I slipped a note under her door apologizing. Its probably not as polite but a safer way of doing things and way less stressful. I kept it short and simple "I'm sorry for what I said and I want to apologize for hurting your feelings" etc I hope that's acceptable to humans.
>>8475>My friend the “I won’t let you people fuck me” comment is some kind of repressed thing for sure, and you saying, “is it possible I’m actually attracted to her?” People who aren’t attracted to trans people don’t say stuff like that. I say that kind of stuff a lot though. The rest of it was drooling incoherent schizobabble. And "am I attracted to this person" is a recurring anxious obsession of mine. I'm so paranoid I'm paranoid about myself. Probably not attracted since I hate sex. But sometimes when I'm interested in a person I tend to want to say a lot of stuff to them and I get stressed out and just ramble schizo shit to them. By interest I mean like when your landlord installs a new vent in the hallway and you spend hours inspecting it, leaving, goimg back to inspect it, worrying about what it means or why its there or why its shaped that way or if its hiding something. Like there's some hidden truth I just need to discover when its just new fucking vent cover. That kind of schizo interest/fear/curiousity/OMG I'm gonna fucking die if I don't keep looking at this terror. Like a braindamaged puppy that can't think straight. I guess I could be interested in her in that kind of way. Idk what I'm saying anymore. I need help.
I guess I'll just avoid them for a while and learn to calm down. Just learn to get used to them.
No.8480
>>8477Have you tried recreational drug usage? Even if it's just placebo, I've found that the idea of "If I take this drug, it makes me normal for a bit" works well.
No.8481
>>8480Let's just not recommend using drugs here.
No.8483
Because of where I live, the waiting times are insane, so I just live as I am. It's getting pretty tough to do things like take a shower, and because I'm hikki, I have no support… I'm not very social, so imageboards are ideal. It's nice having a place to discuss these issues that isn't full of derailing.
>>8434Anonymous, I have a similar problem to you, with the hormonal issue. For that reason I'm worried about facial hair growth on testosterone. I think we will both cross the bridge when we get close to it.
No.8484
>>8478Wait, isn't that normal behavior for when you are in a stressful situation?
No.8487
>>8483Do we have the same hormonal issue by any chance? I have Hyperandrogenism due to PCOS, which causes hirsutism. My inflated level of T actually makes me question what’ll happen if I do go on T, since that’s just even more on top of what I already have. If it’ll have any negative affect on me, what all the extra T will do, etc.
(Just gonna keep using Aoi to identify myself. she’s cute)
No.8494
>>8478I'm schizophrenic.
>>8480Bad idea for schizos.
