/hikki/ - NEET / Advice

>>8927
Talking from experience? Maybe, probably. I just had the thoughts similar to yours 10+ years ago, and I'm glad they were just thoughts that later left in the dust, because I had more important things in mind such as work or hobbies.

>>8929
It's certainly not to be taken lightly, but how is it financially irresponsible? A years worth of hrt is like, $100

sine according to government policy i was female at conception then i am female now so this makes me trans. I need help and guidnace now. Should I crossdress or what? how do i even explore my gender?

>>8930
Surgery + subsequent visits/antibiotics to keep the axe wound from closing or getting infected, HRT, new clothes, new licenses/cards, name change, plus the rope.

Also giving money to the Pritzker family isn't responsible either (since they heavily profit from reassignment surgery). Just isn't worth it.

>>8929
i'm trans and i've never watched porn in my life

>>8912
If it's just your face bothering you, there's a specific cream you can get that you can put on your face to estrogenize it, nothing else will become feminine (no tits or whatever). I think it's either an E1 or E3 cream. It makes you look younger and less masculine plus you don't have to trans urself

>>8933
Everything is superficial in the 21st century. You also don't have to identify or present as a woman to take hrt lmao

And why not? Some people would rather have a different appearance and we have cheap, accessible means to do that. I mean yeah, people should probably be educated on the skullpill before trooning out so they can make an educated choice.

I agree that it's kinda fucked up that people are motivated to change their appearance to be liked, but the conversation is never about that! It's never about how sad misandry is, it's never about how patriarchal norms hurt men and women and drive them to look or act in certain ways to be accepted. It's always just "ewwww! icky tranny with axe wound!! gross!!! except if you look like my idealized nerd gf, hit me up so i can fantasize about putting my micropenis inside you ;)))"

You guys are so transparent and act on pure disgust and repulsion

>>8940
Honestly can't argue against this, not because you're right but because per site rules: discussion is forbidden in this thread. I'm pretty sure Reddit has looser moderation than this thread.

I'm not trans but as I age I've started losing my boyish androgynous features. But I've noticed that people taking HRT and transition stuff keep many of the soft features I like. Is it possible to use these meds and techniques to combat aging? What do you recommend?

>>8942
Most of all I recommend not taking any of the supportive posts for granted

>>8934
>axe wound
you don't have to get bottom surgery
>new clothes
thrift + you can sell your old clothes
>new licenses/cards, name change
please

5 years
5 years of castrating myself for nothing. i really believed that it would work. that i would come out on the other side living the life i want under my own terms. i really believed that there would be an other side and not just a perpetuity of tedium just to not lose ``progress''. as if i've seen any progress. literally in the span of those 5 years i've seen ZERO changes apart from some low-t induced male gyno, and ofc getting old and fat compared to when i was younger. i really believed that there would be some form of change; i can't believe i was so naive. now i've ruined my life and it's over. trooned too late to pass, trooned to early to have my shit figured out and a proper career before i made myself unemployable. if i could go back i would just ack and put myself out of my misery instead of postponing the inevitable. it would have saved me so much time, effort, and money. i tried to spit in the face of god and became a genetic abomination. for what? what have i gotten out of this? i'm still unsure that i have gotten ANYTHING out of this. instead i've lost count of the things and people i have lost. for what? it seems like for nothing. now it's too late. i'm in too deep. it's not even a matter of swallowing my pride an admitting that i fucked up. my documents are changed and i wouldn't be able to change them back even if i tried. others have tried and it's not possible anymore. everyone knows me as this abomination now and it'd feel like a complete betrayal if i took it all back now. at this point all i can do is distract myself daily until i eventually grow the resolve to finally end this farce of a life.
i've lost 5 years, my slenderness, my youth, my job prospects, etc.
there's nothing left
picrel it's what i have to show for after 5 years of transitioning (fuckall)

>>9250
Don't give this anon replies. She has spent years farming pity this way on 4/lgbt/. When you tell her she passes she will double down endlessly. It's either highly vampiric behaviour or a cruel demoralization campaign.

>>9251
i don't pass and i don't want pity
what good would pity do?
it wouldn't make me pass, it wouldn't make me happy, it wouldn't fix my life, etc.
i don't understand why i get hugboxed so much

>>9251
Oh dear god they're coming

>>9254
if it's any consolation i didn't come here via 4ch

>>9255
Would it be too offtopic to ask how you found this imageboard?

>>8376
a single trans thread???? this is 9/11 for losers!11!!

>>9251
psyop desu

>>9259
via a textboard's irc
>>9280
i'm real
what about me makes you think i'm not??

>>9283
Surprisingly cool answer for a 4chan user, you can stay.

>>8470
it's an old reference. here, let me get the sauce…
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=--YRjvBsGcc

>>8470
>>8473
that's pretty low tbh
my stylist charges $80 before tips but it's well worth it
it includes a wash and styling at the end too although the latter is complimentary likely only due to my rapport with her
been seeing her for 8 years almost
she offers free bang trims too
>>9284
i'm not that cool

>>9286
"before tips" is wild

>>9283
Wait I recognize you
You've been posting on /fa/, haven't you?

>>9289
i haven't posted there in years
are you seeing my pics there??

>>9292
Yea, just recently I think

>>9293
do you remember which threads??

>>9294
Not at the moment, but I'll let you know right here in this thread, if I come across them again

>>9250
you are kinda cute. how much were the transition related bills over the year?

>>9298
i get estrogen for free
the experimental peptides and meds cost a few hundred total
same with injection supplies though i usually get those for free, but not enough as i need; i also just like to have a stockpile too just in case
some diy vials i have as a stockpile also ran me a couple hundred
srs is going to really cost me

>>9283
why do you look like a white iraqi

>>9310
i'm hispanic

>>9250
in ancient times you would be considered a seer
you need to realize your potential by starting a war in macedonia

Does it get any better?

>>9313
"no"

>>9250
This probably isn't what you want to hear, but you are not a hon. I don't know if your voice passes or not but you physically pass, at least in the photos you've posted. Not all girls have big boobs. You've got a mostly fem face though and your fat distribution looks like a girls. I feel neurotic even typing this all out, point is, it may not have been being trans that is the issue, it might just be self-esteem and autism, there are a lot of tgirls that would kill to look like you. Also check your bloodwork and make sure your E and T levels are consistent with a cis-womens, it can fuck mood up real bad if they're off. And don't listen to the anons on /TTT/ they tend to tear each other down and be self-destructive.

>>9316
>This probably isn't what you want to hear, but you are not a hon.
yes i am
>I don't know if your voice passes or not
not anymore
>but you physically pass, at least in the photos you've posted.
i don't; i get clocked without doing anything or speaking
>Also check your bloodwork and make sure your E and T levels are consistent with a cis-womens, it can fuck mood up real bad if they're off.
my levels are fine as of last check
>And don't listen to the anons on /TTT/ they tend to tear each other down and be self-destructive.
/tttt/ hugboxes me

>>9317
They hugbox you because you're not a hon. Even the most passing trans women still get clocked sometimes, regardless, not everyone looking at you is clocking you. Like many here I have autism and can't stand when people look me in the eye and hate eye contact. You might be interpreting normal human eye contact or social cues in general as hostile when they're not. I'm not saying it's all that, but with how fem you look I highly doubt random strangers are clocking you constantly. (Family notwithstanding ofc, they can be dicks.) You look fine, try to stop obsessing over it.

>>9322
>Even the most passing trans women still get clocked sometimes
not true, otherwise stealth wouldn't be a thing
>I highly doubt random strangers are clocking you constantly.
but that's exactly the case; it happens regardless of what i do

>>9317
stop whining and accept you look good already jesus fucking christ, literally just open your eyes and look???

>>9331
>you look good
except i don't; if i did i'd pass
i don't pass, which means that i look like an abomination

>>9332
I don't even know what to say to you anymore, you wailing faggot. You're so desperate for sympathy it's laughable.

So, yeah, sure, you're a hideous freak of nature who deserves to be shot, kill yourself, etc.

I fucking hate passoids so fucking much(USER WAS WARNED FOR THIS POST)

>>9333
>You're so desperate for sympathy it's laughable.
i'm not; i don't deserve any
i absolutely despise myself
>you're a hideous freak of nature who deserves to be shot, kill yourself, etc.
i know
>I fucking hate passoids so fucking much
i do too

>>9333
Warned for this post because it's way too much but also

>>9334
Knock it off, this is derailing the thread.

i get off to shitting my pants and i blame the tranny genes for it. i'm 5'9 and will never be a cute passoid so i'm genuinely just a freak of nature. why oh why did god give me this retarded fucking fetish? i don't even know if i would be able to have real sex at this point.

>>9379
are you retarded? are you one of those miserable fucks from discord that thinks anything you find out of place is bait?

I think it's incredibly funny how much chan users whine about board quality. It's a constant complaint fest about either mods or other users swamping boards with total trash and a lack of ability to understand why that is. I've found several obscure altchans in the past, some with a lot of activity despite being in hidden places… do you know which always required the least amount of moderation and had the highest post quality?

The trans focused ones.

Sure, you can warp your view to think that incredibly overzealous mods are omnipresent in those kinds of spaces, saying "of course, they have trannies for jannies" except that's completely untrue - find a space without the occasional offsite troll and moderating the board is barely a concern, even with n words enabled. Trans people and most women simply have a desire to be nice to each other and will do it when nobody is looking. The reason 4chan went to shit isn't because of some grand invasion in 2016 that destroyed an idealized past and infested everything with degeneracy, it's because the female lurkers on /a/, /cgl/, /mu/, etc left and never came back, leaving the now 99% male userbase to give into their urges to degrade everything.

Of course, over long periods of time this simply isn't the natural state of things. Haven't you noticed the increased presence of self described femcels on the boards recently? You can tell yourself all you want that they're just dumb foids shitting up your website with their cringe, yet upon being scorned by them for acting like an uncaged animal suddenly you feel the need to be a good boy and behave

>>9381
>suddenly you feel the need to be a good boy and behave

i'm splooging