/hikki/ - NEET / Advice

I'm not a hikki anymore since I started college (again) but even then I'm a loner on campus.

I was always a bit reclusive and very shy and this society isn't especially welcoming for people like that. So you get stuck in that corner and that's your whole life. The social skills and speaking got worse as I became more and more of a loner.

Society is basically dead now anyway. Every interaction is so impersonal that unless you already have friends or go out of your way to insert yourself into people's lives, you will just end up alone and nobody will notice. Its very easy to end up a hikki.

In old movies, you'll see people talk on street corners or interact with waiters and stuff. Do people do that anymore? No. We use electronic service machines, social media, and order stuff online. So how do people not turn into hikkis? If you're reclusive, mentally ill, shy, or odd you will end up hikki adjacent because your connection to the social world is already weak.

1. I'm autistic and have a brain injury, both diagnosed. The demon psych professionals put me on every pill they could as a child, if it was given to children in the 2000s I was on it. They also put me in solitary confinement and severely traumatized me. My self-isolating behaviors are all rooted in responses to my childhood environment being overwhelming and then recoiling from the education/prison systems attempts at forcefully reintegrating me instead of just letting me hang out in a park and read books or something. Children aren't meant to be locked in sterile rooms where they sit still and listen for 8 hours, not just autists like us.
I digress, I feel safe and can think when I'm alone. I mask in most social situations and it builds stress all through my body when I have to do it. There are a few 10+ years online friends I have where I don't have to mask and I really enjoy their company. I have PTSD, depression, anxiety, ahedonia, insomnia, and misophonia. Everything but the misophonia and the ahedonia are "officially" diagnosed but I know myself well enough to apply the other two at this point.
2. I've been hikki or hikki adjacent since I was a child. These past few years I've really tried my absolute best to get out of it recently. Somethings are better others are the same, I think my sleep is worse than its ever been. I went out with my cousins for new years which was really nice yesterday.

Nice datamining thread. I'm not a hikki anymore, but there were definitely 6 month plus stretches of time where I did not go outside during my on again/off again NEETing days from 2015-2023. Hikkis tend to be pissy when it you let it be known you don't number among them anymore. It's the same kind of reaction you'd get from admitting you don't walk the the path of the wizard anymore. Perhaps it's an unpleasant reminder that their own days are numbered.

I had a bad (to me) childhood that I suspect caused CPTSD (self-diagnosed). I've been formally diagnosed with Avoidant Personality Disorder and Major Depressive Disorder. Basically I grew up poor and had a mental breakdown over performing academically and never recovered.

Hikki lifestyle ain't bad when it's someone else paying for it. The early years are sweet notwithstanding the spell of anhedonia I had. I think having been a hikki for a few years is enough that you will carry that experience with you the rest of your life. I don't think working a dead-end job to survive is that different in the grand scheme of things in terms of who you are as a person.

1. I have a schizo-spectrum disorder, one symptom is that being around people causes me to lose grip of the world and drains all my mental energy, another is anhedonia, so no motivation. I was also raised with the intention of making me helpless.

2. Several years, briefly interrupted by some attempts that didn't work out. I would be ok with hikikomoriism if I could live alone, but living with my family removes too much agency and privacy.
A cure might require magical intervention or an apocalypse scenario, nevertheless I have hope that these things are possible. I also might be able to make myself money online somehow (I am beginning to write a blog, which can't make money on it's own but maybe it could lead into something). I would like for one of these three things to happen soon, before I end up on the bad route.

>>8805
1. I dropped out of college two times already, i don't have anything diagnosed but i wouldn't be surprised if there was something wrong with my brain. Other than that i have type 1 diabetes which comes in play when im at a job and my sugars low or some situation relating to it.

2. For almost 1 year. The first seven months were some of my most miserable because all i did was play league of legends or some other f2p shitty game but later i started focusing on drawing so it can become my main job one day. I really desire to live of with my illustrations because it's what i love, what gives me meaning and im willing to do the impossible to live as an artist. My biggest fear is being stuck in a shitty job, always daydreaming about doing something more enjoyable,deeply fear that my life would start only at friday or the moment my turn ends.

Drinking rn

i am 19
i don't have any goals in life. i have no direction.
i just wanna be good and skilled. i just wanna write cuda and make things parallel.
i want to see my machines solve sudoku and do meaningless work.

>>8857
Melpomene appreciation

>>254
22 since February. Too old if you ask me, but there's not much I can do about it so I just have to accept it

>>9424
also 22 since feb, whats up birthday buddy

>>8838
no unless you turn into fish do it become fish

>>7606
>>7605
>>7344
>>7077
>>6741
Your Cat is nice, otherwise wrong board jackass. You're not a hikki, you're not even a NEET. And I don't want to see your face either.

>>7607
I was for 7 years and this is my thread fuck off

I ran out of my vitamin D supplements not long ago and I'm beginning to face the effects without it. Being a hikki especially one who's been inside for 6 months now I know it won't go well without it - going to reup soon.

so much to update in the last year jesus christ

long story short im very much NEET again, i pick up my first dole/unemployment payment in ireland tomorrow

meanwhile cafe went to shit and i lost everything, but its pushed me to accept im going to have to back to school which ill most likely be doing from this september

i moved back to america for a month but nope'd the fuck out, im 32 in a month and without a degree the job prospects were shit but its really the same in most first world countries so may as well be somewhere im happy and has a better welfare state

in ireland im going to be able to get paid to go to school, potentially get a medical card for free healthcare, all that jazz which is great

>>7606
you look like stampylonghead if he just went cold turkey on a heroin addiction <3

>>7891
>>7897
I was here long before I was 18 and I always got the impression that other people were too. Also your "we are not the same" shit is stupid. They weren't claiming to be le tortured soul, self harm just means harming yourself.

>>7898
1. literally the first rule on the rules page is that you have to be an adult
2. this is a forum for NEETs/hikikomori. Not only has the user we are discussing admitted to not being that >>7863 but last I checked in most countries it's illegal to be a NEET when under eighteen.
This is a place for NEETs and hikikomori. It should be common sense that anyone who does not fit this criteria should leave.
Even if you think rules are retarded, people who aren't NEETs should be allowed in a community specifically dedicated to NEETs etc. do you think a minor SHOULD be here? I sure as hell don't want anyone to grow up to be like me. I get the feeling that this minor romanticises this sort of lifestyle and joining in with communities dedicated to it will likely do more harm than good.
Also I'm not even just talking about their one post here, I'm talking about their participation in this community as a whole.

>>7899
I honestly don't agree with most of what your saying, legality doesn't really have bearing on whether a person can be a hikki or not, my school just lied about attendance to keep their stats up when I was that age. But this user obviously isn't a neet or hikki and should hang out on any other board on this site instead of this one.

>>7842
I forgot to mention that the scars lasted for 3 or 4 years.

>>7297
>>7289
Replying to myself just to randomly vent / blog I guess, there's a weird comfort in just saying my thoughts on this board every once in a while. It feels like a lot has changed while nothing has changed in two years. I still go to gym, and I work at that job still and got a small promotion, so I've been able to save up money and visited another country for the first time ever.

I wasn't self harming since this post, until a friend commit suicide in 2023, so I started again. Part of me thought I grew out of it, but I feel like at this point my way of dealing with my emotions has been so unhealthy for so long that I'll never stop doing it, I feel like my emotions are much stronger and linger longer than normal peoples' do, but maybe they don't, and I'm just making excuses. It doesn't help that I think a part of me really likes my scars, like they're a significant part of my history like tattoos or something.

I also recently got very close with a girl, but my insecurities started showing, and I think this made her lose interest in me, so I started cutting again while at work today. I couldn't find anything sharp, so I snapped my plastic ID badge in half and used that, if there's a will there's a way I guess. I need to go to therapy or go on antidepressants or something, but I'm so emotionally closed off from most people that it feels scary to ever be open.

>>8561
Together with you or together with each other?

>>8313
What’s the image in your post from uboanon?

I used to think that I was unwell for being a loner that did not want to integrate into a larger society. Everyone else is thinking about capital, marriage and retirement, don't they? What kind of man does not strive for wealth and children? I will tell you what kind of man: the same kind that can see the illusions of this world for what they are.

Why do you people live for? Do you live for the sake of living, or do you seek something beyond our rotten world? Because those who live in order to live will perish, while those who want to reach for the stars will reach them! Everyone will see the suffering of the Earth at some point in their journey, and when they do they will either accept the world and seek its comfort or rebel against the world because it is wicked. You can see how all wars are unjust, all states are illegitimate and all rulers are robbers. Then why do you wish to live for the king and his kingdom when you can live for your own salvation? Leave the master alone to rule over his slaves, and seek comfort elsewhere.

They will call me mad for rejecting the world, but they cannot see that they are mad themselves. We are all broken by the world around us, nobody is left unscarred. Some will realize this, others will not. We live to be understood by our peers, but they can never understand us. There are no words that can fully convey what bothers the soul, and no one can peer into our minds to see our thoughts naked. That is why you are condemned to live and die on this Earth alone.

What am I going to do now? What are you going to do? I don't know, but we must seek our salvation independently. No two lives can be the same, as such no solutions can be either.

(also sorry for the schizopost lolo)

>>8591
Looks like that Sims game made for a younger audience, MySims I think it was called. Played the shit out of it back in the day

>>8639
nieztche is that you?

>>7197
>How's your day going anon?
I recently unlocked my Playstation 3 with HEN. And I'm very depressed, it's totally unstable, the applications won't open forcing me to restart by unplugging it. And while I'm downloading games, XMD simply freezes, forcing me to do the same process as mentioned. It's horrible, I should have used CFW, they say it's better. Anyway, I feel like my PS3 is going to die a few weeks ago seeing its condition.

Sometimes it happens that HEN doesn't enable it either.

>When was the last time you went outside?
It's been 4 months. I just went out for a job interview.

>>8741
Which PS3 model do you have? The newer ones aren't capable of CFW unfortunately

>>8767
It's a PS3 Slim, I don't remember the date when I bought it, but it was over 10 years ago, it was around the time the Playstation 3 was released. It's horrible, it's very unstable, I think I should have formatted it before modifying it. it. It runs games normally, but it happens that it seems like it's going to break at any moment. I think it's because he's extremely old.

I chose HEN because they said it was the easiest way to unlock.

>>8780
You can check the model name on the back of your system. There's a little barcode with CECH right below it, numbers/letters after CECH specify your model name. There's a guide on YT that shows the models compatible with CFW
> It's horrible, it's very unstable, I think I should have formatted it before modifying it.
Cleaning up your console of stuff like PSN accounts and disabling certain online settings is a must for avoiding problems. It's recommended to follow a guide verbatim to avoid headaches later on
>I chose HEN because they said it was the easiest way to unlock.
Easy doesn't always mean good, especially in homebrew communities. PS3 jailbreaking is often very convoluted

It's nearly 2025, and there isn't a good active NEET board. Sad.
>>7224
I'm there with you. Each board has its own unique feel to it. Can't really main any of them though because they're not active enough. I only care about /so/ on Tohno.

are you the neet life magazine guy?

>>8549
nah, just a guy who used to post here. decided to revive my old blog from years ago as just something to do.

>>8550
oh ok, good that guy was annoying.

Bumping to shill my blog again

https://ineedhelp.home.blog/

You reminded me of my favorite NEET blog. I wish it was still updating.

if you want to shill your server once its made there's a designated shilling thread on >>>/ot/

I'd potentially be interested. It'd be nice to talk to people about common interests and other things besides the incel stuff. I hope you don't mind but I sent you a discord friend request just in case you decide to make one so I can keep informed.

>>8697
Thanks friend, maybe I'll check out the discords on there and see if I can find any people to talk to.

>>8701
agreed.
>>8703
no problem.

>>8696
hey i play magic on monday nights at vault games in cbd if you send me a photo of the tshirt you'll be wearing on the day i'll be able to spot you and we can play commander

try listening to music, and focus on that.

I hope it went okay if you've already gone. Calming ost from a favourite game/movue/show/whatever helps me when I go outside. Or a podcast or something, can help to have something else to focus on.
Take things slow and be kind to yourself as best you can

>>8698
How'd it go OP? Hope you're doing well.

>>8699
>>8700
>>8710
heart emojis for all of u !
i didn't go because the teacher wasn't going to be in class for the rest of the week. i go in tomorrow on monday. i've had more time to think about it than i would've like to have. maybe i'm making this a bigger deal than what it is. a new kind of stress i'm experiencing maybe. the stress of responsibility that everyone feels. or maybe i'm not making a bigger deal than what this is because it is that big of a deal… i mean this is a pivotal moment that'll help me become a true person rather than the myth i am. i'm engulfed in this nervousness but maybe that will disappear when i'm there. some advice i've got was to pretend that it's a dream or to pretend that i'm invisible. i thought that would be a feeling to fight than to embrace. perhaps i'll try that.
sorry for the yap idk i'm like soooooo anxious but thank u three for the replies

>>8698
don't worry about the acne OP. that's entirely going to go away in a few weeks, what won't go away is the payoff from the efforts you're putting in right now to better yourself. do your best!! if you're still freaking out while outside tomorrow just remember to ground yourself and be as in the moment as you can. try just listening and observing whatever sounds are around you in the world outside to keep the thoughts at bay, and remember to keep yourself hydrated and as physically comfortable as you can be because you'll undoubtedly have a lot of mental stuff to deal with already. physical is more than half the battle ok!! I've been there, you get better at this stuff the more often you do it and you'll feel so proud that you did. if you don't, there's always the next time but don't think like that yet! you can do this!
also if you have trouble sleeping tonight just remember that it's better to at least lay around in bed to let your body rest even if you don't manage to get a lot of sleep. try to think positively and how cool it'll be to get the GED in the future! sincerely rooting for you anon