I think you're exceptional in that regard. For the most part people seem to need to pursue something to find meaning in life, and even then contentment is very temporary. That's part of why most NEETs are so depressed: very few people seem genuinely happy living that way. I myself grew up a shutin that didn't have any goals and just contented myself by playing games, watching movies and doing other stuff that doesn't really have much significance to me now. I've hated myself for years for not having done more to improve myself early on, and for not getting out and living. I know that if I spend much more of my life like that it would just make me more disappointed in myself and make my existence seem like even more of a waste of the opportunities life has a afforded.
That isn't to say that the OP is like me either, but he's obviously miserable living like he is, and it's clear he should try and change and improve his own conditions, and that can only really be done by trying to live differently. He might try and get some help with that, but nobody can rely on someone else to change their life to the point it seems worth living. I sincerely hope he's able to do that.
Anyway, life is chaotic and absurd. Bad things happen all the time to both good and bad people and they're rarely justified in a moral sense. Good and bad in the sense you and I mean are abstract concepts that only really exist in the human mind, it doesn't seem like there's much of a point using them to judge the chaotic events of existence, except when it comes to how people treat other people. And people treat other people badly in a lot of cases, out of ignorance or apathy or selfishness or maliciousness, but it seems like most people at least hope to or try to treat those they judge as good well, which is more than you can say for most other animals or natural events. It's hard for some to treat those who live passively and quietly well though, because they're harder to understand and harder to get to know, even harder to empathize with. I think if you reached out to your family or caring people outside of it people would try to help, or at least sympathize with you.
… Sorry if that was kind of a mess.