I've browsed this site for a while now and it seems like I've seriously found a community that shares my thoughts and feelings.
I hate posting something like this here though when I'm not officially a NEET and don't have plans to become one… unless circumstances are a bitch and it happens anyway.
Feel free to remove this post if it seems out of place or unnecessary or whatever…
But I really have no where else to turn or anyone else to speak to personally about my issues so I go to random people on the internet who probably have better things to do!
Anyways, I'm going to be moving soon from the US to Canada and I'm really nervous about it. I there's not a great cultural shock difference between the two countries (and free health care is very nice) but I have never lived independently before in my life. I just recently graduated high school and am attempting to recover from years of mental abuse I've received from my mom.
Point is I feel very worried and I feel as though nothing will turn out right - I'm scared of leaving my mom even though she's been downright horrible to me during all my years of living. She's pretty much just been an existence that I only rely on for food since she only really cares to buy things for herself.
I've never had a job before and my social skills are shit. I'm so nervous and I find myself preferring "comfortable abuse" over "necessary change."
I feel like I'll never get a job or accomplish anything. I don't care if the job is in retail or if it barely pays - I just want a small taste of independence but at the same time I'm terrified of it!Post too long. Click here to view the full text.