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>>8066
i wasn't officially diagnosed but my therapist was suspecting that i might have it, autism or something along those lines

>>8066
>Avoidant Personality Disorder
I don't buy the theory that there are "mental disorders." You just develop patterns of behavior imprinted due to how your genetics react to the environment. You can't change your genetics, but you can change your environment. Of course, it's hard when you feel socially rejected and that then compounds itself into a self-fulfilling prophesy.

>>8071
I heard something similar but decided not to pursue a formal diagnosis because A) he said it was mild and B) I didn't want it to become a self-fulfilling prophecy

i refuse to entertain this unless youve been diagnosed by a doctor, cause otherwise i assume youre some underage kid larping.

>>8077

> underage kid larping

holy fuck omori playerbase reference?

>>8078
i dont know much of the fandom, although im aware of the reputation. regardless, sunny is cute.

>>8066
I always thought I did, but I tend not to put too much stock into diagnoses and stuff since I keep to myself anyway and it doesn't really affect the few other people in my life. From what I've heard getting things diagnosed sucks and forces you to talk to a lot of people which I don't care to do if I don't really have to lol

yeah ive been diagnosed with it

ive had severe social anxiety and related problems since i was at least 12-13, and all that has lead to intense social isolation and withdrawal for many years now. even when i was in school i never approached others and never made any actual close friends

ive maintained some connections through the internet though, and i really do appreciate my internet friends. im lucky i got them to be my friends at all, it was mostly through their initiation, as i am reluctant to initiate with others, and before they came along i was very desperate for connections and would idealize strangers from afar, fantasizing about them being my savior or something.

though i do have some close internet friends, its still not perfect, as i feel deep down i am unable to truly love and connect with others in a way that actually matters. i feel very detached. and i also do still long for deeper connections to some extent, such as a significant other, but i feel this is out of my reach, and thats my own fault ultimately. i am misanthropic and dislike both myself and other people, which is why i find online connections preferable. im also too afraid of ever letting myself change and get better at this point because my identity is ingrained in my own alienation and isolation and i fear anything new, which also makes making new internet friends hard too. i stick with the same few people.

all that being said, i dont put too much faith into diagnoses though, because they make me really anxious. i dont like being boxed in, and also psychiatric diagnosis in general is a very subjective thing without much actual scientific basis. i just view myself as someone with mental problems. this was a bit of a rant sesh, sorry, hopefully someone will see it and relate though. i just found this site recently and its nice to see a community full of fellow recluses and outcasts.

>>8175
that pictures fucking terrifying

>>8176
its from the manga oysaumi punpun, its a good read. has great art and lots of themes i think many people here will be able to relate to, to at least some extent

>>8177
… but

howe does it relate to the actual post content ?

>>8178
it doesnt i guess, i just wanted to add an image to my reply and i happen to like the manga so its just what i used.

>>8179
>>8179
Haeve you thought you might really creep someone out with thaT?

>>8177
>oysaumi punpun
By the way, it's oyasumi punpun not oysaumi. Typo s are not good please respect

Test. Nevermind.

Я индеец (бом-бом)

Idk what AvPD is exactly but I'm a diagnosed sperg and I just avoid all human contact. Anything that requires interaction with a person like emails or whatever. People stress me out.

>>8195
how do you keep a job or anything? i cant even keep a bank account they always call me to bring my ID every 2 years and i hate going outside so they just block it lol. fuck i just want to die