/hikki/ - NEET / Advice

updated pic of my bst, the other tv i had (posted here >>7971 ) was far too big so i traded it for a better sized tv, so i could put it beside me.

im hoping to get another thinkpad soon, i have a t470 but its docked and hooked into a monitor. so, now i want a t480.
been messing around on xitter a lot lately, indulging in odd fandoms and engaging with even more so odd people.
https://guns.lol/nama3

I bought a tea kettle.

i found some pics of my setup from when i first moved here last year.

im getting closer and closer to my ideal NEET set-up. to add to this post i made here: >>9388
soon, i will order a Thinkpad t480 so i can browse sites in bed and emulate old games, my t470 is pretty much docked. so its a bitch unplug everything to bring it outside.
it has an i-7 cpu so should be good for emulation.
a long time friend is also going to send me either a gaming laptop or another thinkpad, so thatll be nice.

What sort of music, anon?

>>9471
Anything that can hold my interest I have a guitar I forgot to mention

actually switching tactic a bit, I struggle to talk to people and manage very normal basic social situations, when I do it is severely draining and/or does not leave me with any significant positive feelings or experiences worth remembering, I struggle to find the point in doing anything, I constantly fall in to bad habits of neglecting myself, the one person i felt comfortable with turned out to be a a selfish prick and i still havent gotten over him, im a tranny oversly conscious about my appearance but lacking the same ability and drive to do anything about it that keeps me from pursuiting anything susbstantial with music, i live with my parents who are nice enough that I can't justify leaving my dead body somewhere for them to find but have/are still abusive and ignorant to be a significant reason for why i feel so low and hopeless, what do you do when you spend over a year in therapy not sure what to talk about wrt any of that and just seeing what happens and having no progress come from it. I want to feel good about something, I want to learn something that will help me connect to other people, give me a creative outlet, make me feel useful. What do I do?

>>19

>how long have you been a NEET?
2 years
>was there a reason for you becoming a NEET?
I got fired and got a nice compensation. Put it on crypto and made twice as much. Also got some money from having helped a project.
>what do you do all day?
Mostly watch documentaries and vtubers on youtube and chat with my internet friends, lol.
>what form of social interaction do you have, online and offline?
I do go out with my friends often. I also started a course which is kind of a hobby but I guess it'd count as "training". It's just a hobby for me, though, lol.
>how often do you get outside, if at all?
Twice a week, at least. I usually also go to a coffee shop to read. And visit my parents, too.
>do you live independently or with parents?
Independently.

>>19
>how long have you been a NEET?
I think a decade now. Or 9 years.
>was there a reason for you becoming a NEET?
I'm autistic, bullied/ostracised to some degree on and off and as I got near the end of primary education and entered secondary socialising and being perceived became increasingly anxiety inducing and difficult, I was constantly low, some family stuff happened, I did my best to really lock in to sixth form/college but failed everything and came to the conclusion I am worthless and can do nothing and enjoy little.
>what do you do all day?
on and off i try to take care of my body at the least, a lost of the time i'll just lay down lately.
>what form of social interaction do you have, online and offline?
I've known a couple people online for over a decade, and met a couple more a few years a go now, I mostly text talk with them.
>how often do you get outside, if at all?
a few times a month at most, for prescriptions and appointments, i can go months without going outside though.
>do you live independently or with parents
With parents unfortunately.

>>9453
Updating so soon after my post, I got an offer! It's for an assistant manager position at Subway. Unfortunately I have no choice since my phone bill, car insurance, and internet bill autopayed for this month and now I'm down to my last 100 dollars.
If this doesn't work out I don't know how much longer I can last.

>>9458
well I didn't get the job because I didn't have manager experience. How am I supposed to get experience for a job that requires the experience of that job to get?
Anyway, I HATE VIRTUAL INTERVIEWS. I HATE SETTING UP MY WEBCAM. I HATE SHOWING STRANGERS MY LIVING SPACE WHEN THEY WON'T EVEN SHOW THEIR FACE.

>>9472
You don't, you show them the wall, picrel.
> How am I supposed to get experience for a job that requires the experience of that job to get?
Don't worry, sooner or later they will realize they won't have anybody qualified for the job since they haven't trained anybody. It will all burn in hell.

born to die

must be overthinking


im thinking most people who are well adjusted wouldnt even think 3 microseconds for a fucker

my antennas fried long time ago. i think im crazy sorry

>>9440
>feelking like a real dunce this should be the easiest industry in the fucking world yet i cant keep it because im a retard
How in the actual fuck is IT an "easy" industry? You're just saying that because you were blessed with a big brain with plenty of grey matter.
I can't help you with being a better people pleaser but I'd like to know how to learn server admin stuff. I'd like to run my own things on my own server but have no idea where to start learning this stuff

>>9468
Thanks.

try taking a structured approach. I would suggest comptia core + infrastructure then red hat (RHCSA). Find additional background material on your own

>>9413
> I was just feeling like garbage last night. There's something about doing all this work without even having a job that has started to bother me.
I know that feeling all too well. ;_; I often feel like that when it comes to self-improvement, _especially_ with anything that required me to use my brain. I'd like to start learning German again or maybe some Baltic language for the memes, but the thought of having to use my brain for something that doesn't give me immediate dopamine reward just puts me in a daze.
> I often think about how I'm definitely going to be homeless in the future if I keep this up, but right now my life is too comfortable for me to make any massive changes in it. I know, tale as old as time. Honestly, I think what I really need is to make friends again.
Definitely. There's no greater motivator to improve oneself than other people. Whether it's support or scorn, the people around you can change you into a completely different person in a very short amount of time. I would recommend finding a buddy you could "compete" with to see who can improve themselves the most within a certain amount of time. Set goals, compare results, support each other, etc.. The people who tell you that you should just do it for yourself are either egoists or liars; it's infinitely easier to work for the sake of someone else than it is for yourself.
>Years ago I ghosted everyone I knew online and I've never been able to recover the communication skills I'd built up, as poor as they were.
Me too anon, me too (;x;). Ever since I had my six month depressive episode I've just not felt the same. It feels like a part of me was permanently extinguished, like I've had the creative juice squeezed out of me. But I think we can both recover from it if we earnestly try to.
>it feels so worthless knowing how many native speakers there are in the US. I like the language and that's it. That used to be enough for me.
Is there any chance you could afford to visit Spain or one of it's former colonies anytime soon? That might be a great motivator, even if the flights are unreasonably expensive.
>As someone who has never worked before, I likely have an unrealistic understanding of it, but I can't imagine I'd Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

I wanna say thanks, these replies helped me think. I think self-actualization is my number one need. I love to draw, friends are so easy to make and relate to when I do. So, I want to be the best artist I can. It kinda fills out the whole pyramid of needs stuff in my life. Something like that gives you purpose to go on y'know?

School and work is no issue for me, it's the problem of actually continuing to go on, day after day… for what reason? Just to do it again and again. I understand how people do it, how people live. They have purpose and friends. If I think I'm deserving of having those things, I understand that I have to work for it. Some people have it easier than others, but when people see my art, and like what I do. I instantly feel like a person again.

After ghosting my friends and not posting anything for months, I moved to Newgrounds. Man, it's so nice to see people like the stuff you make again. It doesn't feel like I lost anything.

Thank you for your experiences, when I see other artists who are more successful than me, I kinda just, get upset and lose faith in myself. Even though I go in and out of believing myself, trying to improve my art and who I am. My art skills never fade when I get sad, they never go away when I'm not "feeling it". I wanna be an artist, I wanna be loved…

Aww man, I love you guys…!! Anyways, you should check out this artist called NokoJuice! Seeing their art again on Danbooru, I remember how good of a friend they are. They never stopped supporting me and wishing me the best. I feel confident again.

>>9426
>it's the problem of actually continuing to go on, day after day… for what reason? Just to do it again and again. I understand how people do it, how people live. They have purpose and friends.
Eh? Not really. Not with things like work and school. I just tell myself to do it because I have to and have no other choice, and that usually does the trick. But having an actual purpose in life would help a lot, that's true :P
>when people see my art, and like what I do. I instantly feel like a person again.
That sounds wonderful, anon :). I'm glad your resolve to draw is coming back, little by little. I hope you will show the world many beautiful things that can only come from the depths of your soul.
And share your Newgrounds account with us! I'm curious to see what you draw.

>>9422
>>9412
>jobs
I've been trying to figure this shit out for the last couple days and I guess I might be a bit dumber than I thought. I don't know how to apply for a job. Also don't really know how I'd go to and from a job when I don't have a car. Could try to get something super close to me, but again… I'm so lost.

>>9462
Applying for a job is deceptively easy, you "just" need to get lucky.
As for the technical process itself, you need to send then a CV(curiculum vitae) and a copy(you can get these certified at any post office if you're a Euro like me, I have no idea how Americans do it) of the diploma from your highest level of education. In practice that means either a highschool diploma or a university diploma. If you have them, send them copies of any certificates you have as well. It doesn't have to be related to the job, you're just showing off your competence.
As for your resume, just open a word document and write out your basic info plus some bullet points about yourself.
- Social security number
- healthcare provider
- driving level (whether you can only drive cars, or heavier vehicles as well)
- where you went to school and what you studied
- what languages can you speak and on what level
…. etc.
Keep it brief, keep it simple. You shouldn't need more than a page or two. Graphical flourishes are optional. Templates are dogshit.

As for where to look for jobs near you, well… you 'can' just walk in and ask. They can't stop you from doing that. Places near you might have a website listed on Google maps and you can figure out the owner/manager's e-mail or phone number from there if you don't want to embarrass yourself for little gain. Beyond that, you can try finding some job listing sites. That's about it though.

>>8113
Ever since I began seeking out NEETspaces in 2018, I've noticed that they've been increasingly populated by personalities which you could find in any school or work environment only less successful and more bitter or apathetic. I've noticed less people who totally reject or due to peculiar paranoias, hysterias, complexes, or heterodox spiritual beliefs live outside of regular decorum so as to totally shock you with their expectations. I encounter less bold people who assert themselves transgressively and then grapple with their intrinsic neet outsider identities. And more people who wallow into calling themselves neet and half-heartedly laugh at and repeat old memes with a sense of accomplishment. More people who speak about their mental health to convince themselves of their ineptitude and with the fear that someone in a worse position will reveal how embarrassingly fine they are. More standard bullies who mock their half-friends by measuring them up against standard societal norms. On top of that since 2020 NEET aesthetics, bedroom-hermits, hiki's etc have been totally co-opted by flatly normal people who would never settle these spaces anyway, so there's no longer much of a basis for NEET culture as it once was. Though there are definitely a lot of discords filled with NEETS, I don't think many people are hanging out in NEET discords.

Let's just say… I didn't stick around with the right people…

Im so fucking tireddddddddddAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i speedram yume nikki in 8 minutes and had been laying dowm for 3 days straight. Pls.help.me.

>>8166
I'll take the tea freak over the sheer nothingness that plagues most smaller imageboards nowadays. At least by posting something, no matter how inane it might seem, there's a chance a conversation could be started.

>>8113
came back to this thread reminiscing about old posts. many people have simply moved to spaces with more personal freedom like private discord servers and such. it's quite sad to think that through the way many imageboards were handled the chan culture has been thoroughly destroyed. i miss shouting into the anonymous nothingness.

>>7904
Then those people are not worth your time and effort. Unless you have to deal with them, for example parents that let you live with them or co-workers that need to tolerate you somewhat. I do understand what you mean with the crowd, but group pressure, society, or however you want to call it, is always worth questioning. Should you give in or not? Is it necessary for you that they accept you? Do you gain something you need from that? How far do you relent? It may get lonely like that, but in my opinion it is better to be lonely alone than lonely among others that don't really know you.

>>7903
That's not the main point I was making. Regardless of if I should forgive myself or not for who I am and accept that there isn't a rulebook to have been properly human, I maybe could understand myself better if I know what SzPD is. Not that I'm privy to explaining away human behavior through quantification and materialism.

This video is interesting: https://youtube.com/watch?v=QjhB33SNJQc

I made a forum for schizoids as an experiment, come make some posts if that interests you:
https://schizoid.boards.net

I know about the chats and communities thread but I'd like people in THIS thread to see, and that one's mostly spam containment anyway.

>>8558
Womp womp.

Danganronpa maxxing

>>9417
what in the actual fuck are you even saying

>>9423
he wants to be like a video game character.

what the ._.

Btw, i hope Balatro rlly good game