/hikki/ - NEET / Advice

>>9849
>If someone thinks you're not, it must be your voice or something.
i get clocked without speaking or even moving
>Are you sure they can even tell?
they can always tell
>>9821
notes from the underground - dostoevsky

Yes, but I actually like it this way. Imagining having any form of friends (online or offline) or social contacts makes me feel uncomfortable. I wish I was the only person on this planet. My only form of social contact is imageboards, but this is already demanding for me. I'd love to be anonymous in real life too, just a mere ghost.

>>9812
I once thought I was that alone, but it turned out that I'd also neglected some people I could've been closer with. I reached out and some people just ghosted me, but I made some new old friends too.
What people's phone numbers do you have saved?
Would you call any of them?
My cousin often gets drunk and calls me when he's in need of some kind words. I'm worried about his drinking but I'm glad he calls.

>>9851
>What people's phone numbers do you have saved?
I don't have a phone.

>>9852
without a phone you will get absolutely nowhere in terms of socializing these days anon

Slight headache but I think I'm better. Tomorrow I may see my social worker and hopefully she will have some time to do stuff with me. I talked to her on the phone and she said that she wanted to show me here Halloween costume. She said it in a professional voice so I wouldn't be confused and get the wrong idea. Even though she is my crush I know that anything but a formal relationship is impossible. It is just nice to not be alone and feel something for someone sometimes.

>>9843
nigga i hope you get cut off your tardbux and get depressed as fuck and cry yourself to sleep fuck u(USER WAS SPANKED FOR THIS POST)

>>9830
lmao nigga outright saying you're old as fuck. fucking stupid ass reddit ass millenial. you probably say shit like hecking chonker doggos dumbass old ass bitch ass nigga(USER WAS BLACKED FOR THIS POST)

based neet anon making normies seethe

>>9843
>It is just nice to not be alone and feel something for someone sometimes.
Aww… I'd love to hug you if I could, neetfriend.
>>9834
I totally get that, it's so easy to get crushes when someone is so kind to you, although I've personally found crushes difficult to tell apart from just wanting to hug and be with someone… Can't even use sexual attraction to make the distinction cuz I'm asexual…
>>9830
>15 years
That's such a long time…
I've dissociated for a long time too (dissociation stuff really is difficult to describe, for me it was often the "freeze" in a "fight-flight-freeze-or-fawn" type of situation) and it took me some years to work through the worst of the trauma and C-PTSD stuff. Like, I got emotional flashbacks in a hyperarousal kind of way (I think it's called an acute stress response, I also read psychology stuff to try to figure out how to describe my feelings, it felt so impossible) so I forced some sort of dissociation with self-harm to get out of that (hyperarousal is the worst) and my therapist gave me advice on alternatives to get out of it without injury, like shocking my senses for a bit by eating something sour or spicy and stuff like that. Idk if you ever get stuff like that, but in case you do, it can get better. I only had these symptoms years after the fact when I was in a safer place and able to just process the trauma emotionally and it was pretty rough. It really got a lot better though, I don't even remember when I last had any sort of flashback but it was more than a year ago and despite my AvPD, I managed to make and keep friends as well (I'm still not the best at initiating contact, but I'm working on it).
Sorry for rambling, I hope this didn't disturb your journal thread…
Idk what your coping strategies are or what kind of things are affecting you, but I wish you the best for your journey!

>>9636
Realistically, how much could I make from this?

>>9649
Not much really. Depends on your strategy though, it would probably be hard to make serious money with it *now*, but if you circumvent stock agencies and go directly to buyers… maybe in the low hundreds (of dollars)

I do surveys. Five Surveys and Prime Opinion are all from the same company. they're legit and even gave ACH if you prefer that.

I've recently also been trying out those "Play Games and Earn Money" apps. I use Prizeplay and it's easy to make over a dollar on there within its 3 hour limit. I'd say just pick a mindless game from their catalogue, download it, and play it. It offers prepaid cards, gift cards and PayPal payments. I haven't cashed out my 1 dollar yet but I should to see if it even works. They said they'll just email your earnings.

Anything else remote and isolating requires some skill, like coding or knowing how to draw. But anyone can do that if they put their time and effort into it.

>>9652
did you manage to earn anything yet?

>>9631
>small source of income
Idk about online income, but my first thoughts are
- Donating blood and plasma
- Pet care (Dog-walking, cat-sitting, fish-feeding)
- Tutoring
- Commissions
>Realized
Cat sitting. I do it every now and then and it's pretty neat.
I use the app Cat in a Flat https://catinaflat.com/ which makes you use Stripe for payment which I initially thought was a bit annoying but it does make the transactions feel more secure. The cat sitting app itself also takes a fee from what you earn. Overall, you'll lose 20% percent of the money you earn to a service charge, which you have to keep in mind when you set your prices. (Once you have a client, you could theoretically also do business without the app, although it's against terms of service I think).
>alone
>from home
You have to meet up with the cats' owners ofc and also send them regular updates (via WhatsApp where I'm from) with photos of the cats and you also won't be in your home but in theirs… But for me, it was really relaxing, it was basically just me going to someone's home nearby, meeting them once and then getting to chill at their place with the cats. You only have to be there for like an hour (or was it 40 minutes? it's in the contract) for every visit and do all of the cat care duties ofc, but I often stayed a bit longer. My regular client pays me to stay the night, so it's just me chilling with these adorable cats all day, taking photos, doing cat care but mostly doing unrelated stuff on my laptop while petting the cats. My regular client has a nice kitchen, shower and really comfy bed and also leaves snacks for me, I just gotta vacuum in return before they get back and it's cool, they also pay pretty well.
>All day? No way
You can also just do the 40 minute visits, you decide on the times with the pet owners afterall.
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>>9680
hI SKS I LOVE YOU PLEASE SAY HELLO BACK

>>9681
Hello

>>9681
hi

>>9689
hello please marry me sks i love you and then we can commit jihad against the other mods please respond

OP here, he has confessed to me, im very happy

>>9832
esl

>>9732
omg sks haiiiiiiiii

yeah i'm not expecting much but the guy that the government pays to tolerate me because they think im retarded said that he would play danganronpa trigger happy havoc if i stuck to the job for 3 weeks so i really got to do it

it might be marginally less excruciating than what you're describing because im going to be a delivery driver, i already mountain bike and ride my bike around so hopefully it's not too different from that. but i am kind of worried that it won't even do me any good on the resume in the future. honestly between being miserable generally, repping, and having literally no actual friends, it's really hard to parse the idea that i will basically never be happy, like, ever. sopranos_smoking.gif

>>9733
Honestly, while delivery driver isn't necessarily the most experience filled job, you can basically put on your resume that you have customer service experience and willingness to travel for work. You can also fluff it up a bit and say you have experience driving for a work place environment and you know your way around the town/city. Employers like with you phrase it like that. Hell one of things that got me my current job was experience with DoorDash of all things.

>>9749
what is your current job sks????? iwanna know… also which danganronpa character is your favourite

ok update ive started delivering piss a… its nice having money i guess. depending on what sks thinks i should get ill either get a tsr box or the doctor who precons. or maybe i'll save my money. who knows.

but honestly having some semblance of routine back in my life has only served to make things feel by contrast more depressing and banal than before. its really scary to think that i'll never actually be happy. i think things would be a lot easier if i had some friends, but i don't really like socialising outside of card games all that much anyway, and i have a really hard time connecting with people if i don't a) have a common interest or b) i can't talk to them one-on-one. honestly i think having a girlfriend or boyfriend or whatever would really help but i think real people are kind of icky and there would automatically be the expectation of romantic or sexual escalation. plus outside of anime, doctor who, or danganronpa fanfiction, having a waifu or hasubando seems really corny and not actually at all fulfilling

i'll try going back to school or college next year, even if i will stick out like a sore thumb. but seeing how little difference having a job has made, i doubt learning or socialising will do much, either.

any advice? i would really love to know if there's literally any point in keeping my hopes up or if everything is just gonna be this shit forever.

>>9822
i also just genuinely really hate my life and i don't like myself enough to fix it

i found some pleasure playing the piano, but idk, is just me, tomorrow who knows, maybe i will hate myself once again

>>9772

There really isn't anything that I enjoy, to be perfectly honest.

Move to the countryside and live off the land as a hermit. Be helpful to your neighbors and be happy. That's my dream ay least. Minimal interactions, just people to think of me and say "Oh yeah, that guy. He's alright."

>>9791
Elite level reaction image

I really wish i had a big sister someone to care for me and help me get out of the rut im in i do basically do the exact same thing everyday i need to learn to have motivation but i dont have any if i did i feel like i could actually have a life i want someone to help me and give me a push to finally start my life

i feel like some posts here are aimed at me but i cant tell why. its racking my brains as i try to understand the possible reasons obvious or not. most likely giving too much importanse
>>9791

wish i had a big sister someone to care for me and help me get out of the rut im in i do basically do the exact same thing everyday i need to learn to have motivation but i dont have any if i did i feel like i could actually have a life i want someone to help me and give me a push to finally start my life

sisters suck, but the friends of your sister are fun, theyd spoon with me, and hug and kiss me.