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I know, IA generated content is controversial and many don't consider it to be art, but i feel depressed just by looking at this one.

Prompt is embedded in the picture if needed.

I'm starting college very soon. It's past midnight, so right now, on my birthday, I'm now 18 years old. I still feel 16 though. I know all of you here have jobs, have it 'functioning'. Though I know a lot of you have it very tough. I don't know where to go or who to voice my concerns to. I feel like I'm not in the right place right now to use discord much, I never had much privacy in my life. But at the very least, I can post here, on this board. I can do at least that much, right?

God what do I even say? I keep typing something and removing it after. I'm just so scared. I don't know what to do. If I think to deeply on this, my heart sinks and I start to cry like a wimp. I never really talked to people. It's not even hard irl, I just feel like I don't have the space.

In high school I was always daydreaming of escaping and having complete control over my life by the time I was 18. I could drive around in my own car, work my own job, get my own money, and live for MYSELF. I don't know what to think or what to do anymore. I'm staring at the website of the College I'll be going to in a few months and all the bad memories from high school come flooding back. Nothing bad happened at all in high school. I got by and had friends. But the state I was in. I was falling apart. I remember crying myself to sleep each night. I didn't know what was going to happen in the future. I didn't want to live for someone else. I wanted to live for me. High school ended, and I was at home. Not alone, people still expected stuff of me, but it's fine. I would learn to drive, get a job, get money, and go to college. And just a few months later it's already time. I don't even have a drivers license, only a graduated permit or whatever. Jobs are not easy to get. So I'm just wasting away. All the time I'm just panicking looking at my screen. I don't want life to be like this. For how long does life have to be like this?

Even typing this now, I'm trying not to cry for a second because I don't want anyone to see me. I just want to live for myself only. With no one expecting anything of me. I wish some other kid could take my place and live in my stead, making my family proud and my friends happier. It's not even a desire to not exist. It's the desire to do things that make me happy, and for people to love me for it.

I took a glance at this board below, and I see so many people scared like me. It just makes me sadder. On discord my friends tell me howPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

opinion on thighs?

Anyone here like these guys?

ive been on here since like 2017 to 2019 where id just browse the boards and sometimes ask about random things since it was like the lowest point of my life, but now i only see posts from years ago? what happened, why is this web so slow now? where are you all? if youve gotten better, good for you ^_^ !

I always hear that people here and there struggle with mental illiness but not me, I am a normal guy with no mental problems whatsoever, I have very normal reactions to people praising me or insulting me. I feel like an outcast due to how normal my life is.

I'm an accountant and I work at my dad's insurance company, I play basketball on the weekends and I have a car and I rent an apartment close to my job until I can afford to buy a house, I do my taxes in time and I have a girlfriend and a dog.

What is wrong with me?

i'm nearing unemployment 2 years, i've tried to upskill with certificates, still barely get any interviews. is it hopeless? thank you

How do you deal with an embarrassing past?
Also, share your embarrassing past. None will beat mine.

Humiliation is hard to overcome because I feel like I'm a trash human being, I'm constantly afraid that people will see my past in the afterlife and see all the humiliating things that happened to me and cringe. I can't be friends with them because I feel unworthy of their friendship.

I was a special ed student at 5 years old, spent all my youth with disabled people, they would lock me up in a padded room with no light when I misbehaved anyhow or didn't listen to the teacher.
I went to normal school after that and the teacher refused to let me use the bathroom, I peed my pants in front of the whole class and was bullied for 3 years over it.
I was bullied in 3 different schools because I had been sheltered and spoiled by my parents who thought they had a "special son".
I was beaten by bullies, isolated, humiliated, and had no friends for years.
I became bitter and angry and joined the chans, which fucked me up even more with gore videos and whatnot.
My parents left me to rot as a NEET for years to take care of my sisters and never paid attention to me.
I know my dad and mom hate me secretly and prefer my two sisters who are neurotypical.
I was an autistic retard, my whole youth. I can't overcome that and become someone I'm not. I will always be a retard.

What causes people to become neets? Is it social anxiety, depression or something else i watched the anime welcome to the nhk and it got me interested into neets i myself am not one but i would like to learn i mean no disrespect i feel bad for neets i just wanna know for morbid curiosity

Kasuga is connected to Baudelaire not just by his obsession with the latter's primary work, but in a deeper more symbolic sense, he represents Baudelaire himself.
His attraction to Saeki as an "ideal love". The traditional muse, the "angel". In the way he narcissisticaly imposes these preconceived notions onto her, a normal girl. Refusing to see her true self
In his relationship with Nakamura we see Baudelaire's attraction to the darker, perverse love that Baudelaire often wrote about. Mising feelings of desire, passion, fear and annihilation.
"There are women who inspire you with the desire to conquer them and to take your pleasure of them; but this one fills you only with the desire to die slowly beneath her gaze."
-Charles Baudelaire
Kasuga's feelings mirror many of Baudelaire's. The feeling of alienation from his peers, the persistent desire to go someplace far away, the constant, overpowering feeling of guilt and self hatred. But the most meaningful is his connection to the Flower of Evil.
Nakamura is the titular Flower of Evil. For Kasuga, the desire for meaning outside of normalcy. Finding beauty in the perverse and "ugly". Extracting art from sin and suffering. She awakens all of this within Kasuga, mirroring how the Femme Fatale muses of Baudelaire would awaken new eras inside of Baudelaire and his poetry.
How will his Baudelairean journey end? For Baudelaire himself, he felt that he was damned for all eternity the moment he was born. He died an early death, destitute and unaknowledged…
Read the manga to find out.

So, sometimes this happens. This is the second time someone from a Chinese domain name registrar has contacted me this way about a domain name I own. Maybe some day there will be a bar of soap called "Uboachan" or something.

I am now officially retired as owner. The site has been transferred to Bal/Seagal's server, and the domain will be transferred next week.

That doesn't mean I'll never come around; I will stay on as an admin and tech consultant. But I am going to try to be a little more distant and focus on other things. Day to day operations and policy have been left up to Seagal and the modmin team. See the news post.

Goodbye friendos, it's been a fun 14 years.

I didn't know that there were people in the same situation as me out there. It makes me feel better.
I've been having trouble finding my way out of this due to my own personality. I tend to overshare, and can't read social situations, so my interactions are weird most of the time. It's like I can't help it XD
And that's also a reason I haven't been able to stay in any job. My akwardness just floats to the surface and makes me ruin everything.

And now my body hurts due to some medical complications. So, it sucks.

But at least programming is cool, and cyberpunk, and I'm learning a new language! So it's not so bad I guess.

Anyway, I'm happy to know that I'm not alone. I mean, it's not the best place to be in, but… At least is less bad when you're not alone.

I will never have a job.

I will never move out of my parents' house.

I will never have sex.

I will never have a girlfriend.

I will never have any friends.

Hi, I'm the one who made the original Junko v 1.02 post (and who helped search for it on reddit). Since I haven't seen anyone comment on it, I recently went to the YNOnline page and saw that a mysterious door appears at the top and if you click on it, it takes you to a semi-mysterious image.

It turns out that this is about a new project called "Collective Unconscious" and of which I took some images on Twitter. What do you think?