>>10015hi, thank you for the post. it helps
I work in IT basic admin work. Live free with parents. in the past 5 years I've had 5 jobs, only one of them around a year and a half, the rest were short and with small gaps in between. so I think my CV looks chaotic without even this huge gap.
I got certified in some cloud around this year, trying to present my current gap as some sort of upskilling. But no energy/willpower to do demo projects
Still I barely got one interview in the past half year so far.
I'm panicking alot all day ruminating all day, have this increasingly all encompassing sinking, very suffocating feeling I've dug myself a permanent hole basically. I could've and should've not quit jobs so often, I chose to quit my last place when I could've stayed put, cant believe how stupid I am lol. Amazing.
all I'm thinking of is the likely chance I'll remain stuck in a low-level job like some sort of divine punishment (I try not to be an asshole with others but its hard). it's terrifying like I'm losing my mind
Soon I will try find any work with help from the state, better than doing nothing like you said I just really hope it's not forever. It's very hard for me to accept the potential embarassment but there's nothing I can do about it better accept it
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