No.10386
despite all of this, i am fine, actually. if it wasn't for this then i could live like this for the rest of my life, unfortunately. i'm afraid, anxious, uncertain, and every horrible feeling you can experience in a situation like this. i've never lived before, and i'm about to head into a life that normies would consider unfortunate and tragic. but for me it is the first time i will be something. and for that i am optimistic.
i'm going to spend my final days of hikkidom at my computer, cherishing it all. sitting at my computer brings me a type of joy that i haven't had anywhere else. i love it the very second i turn it on. protruding forward in the chair has caused anterior pelvic tilt, round shoulders, and possibly a thyroid condition, but that seems like a bargain after all i've got out of it. i could correct my posture but it wouldn't be the same.
i have a rough plan. it's probably a very retarded plan.
there is a bus that goes all the way to the capital city.
it's a seven hour ride and a ticket costs $70.
i have $600 saved and hopefully i can sell my setup for some extra money before i leave.
there are homeless shelters for youth in the city.
i am 22 but the cutoff for these shelters is 24.
if i call and there's a bed available then they legally have to take me.
they have resources and opportunities once you get a bed here.
they help you and such and i am indeed in need of help.
apologies for the long and self indulgent post. i don't have any friends. i want to hear from ppl who have recovered and have any insight. i want to hear from ppl who dream of recovering. i want to hear from ppl who don't dream of recovering. i want to hear from ppl who think that i'm retarded.