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Reading this was just like looking myself in the mirror. I started to feel paranoid and this over-self awareness about many things; especially if I need to do things outside. Feeling this sensation of being watched or recorded for no rational reason. I even talk alone so much, to the point that I think the objects around me are listening and having their own opinion. Social isolation in his overdrive I suppose.

>is it possible for loneliness and prolonged social isolation to cause psychotic symptoms? am i losing my mind?
yes to both, humans are inherently social creatures despite our attempts to tell ourselves otherwise. If you have a friend you can confide in, I would suggest talking to them at least a little bit (it could be about anything, even an online friend could suffice). I'd also suggest maybe going for a walk outside or changing your surrounding for a bit so you aren't caught up in the subtle monotony that can drive yourself insane when isolate. Even something as simple as cleaning your room or changing the curtains can go a long way.

As for the feeling of being stalked, I've been there and the best thing you can do is to repeat to yourself "its not true" and reminder yourself that you are but one person in a sea of a billion of people. While it may be true that some data firm is collecting your voting records, nobody truly cares to constantly record and track you. If that were the case, many petty criminals especially cyber criminals would be caught by now, there would constantly be a social worker at your doorstep at any given time, and society would have cameras watching us in the home (and no amazon and google products people willing put in their homes doesn't count, i'm talking legit gov Orwellian shit). The truth of the matter is that not only is that shit massively expensive and impractical for a gov (I've worked in gov, I know trust me) but its also a violation of privacy laws (which despite gov repeatedly trying to break with shit like the Patriot act and Prism, it always comes back to bite them in the ass and still many things slip under the radar because of the impracticality of it all). You aren't being watched, except for cookies on sites designed to advertise you useless shit and chances are you already most of that blocked with browser extensions. Just don't go on shady sites and align with shady people and you should be good.

It might be worth it to tell your psychiatrist about these delusions. At worst you could be schizophrenic, at best you could just be very autistic. I'm not a therapist or a psych medicine person though, I'm just an anon with too much free time.

yess but it got better for me after stopping some meds and i think if i talk to people more itll get better. (idk if recommended for people here)

>>9539
op here, i have been on virtually every main antidepressant and nothing has ever worked

I finished Welcome to the NHK anime yesterday. Didn't make me cry like the book did, but it's peak kino nonetheless. I was a bit afraid because I heard they watered down the drug use and lolicon stuff, but they more than made up for it in the expanded arcs.
I might be inspired to tap into the ancient arts of AMV for this one.

>>28838
I liked the book a lot more than the anime too. I would love to see any AMV you make anon

>>28844
Thanks, but making an AMV is more work than I anticipated. Even a shitty one where I just switch scenes in sync with the song has me spending a lot of time choosing scenes and organizing them. Might take a few days for me to finish it.

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this topic gettin… bumpy!!!!

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>>26702
thoughts on the kobo kindle ?

Time to smoke em

>>16844
This looks cool :)

>>8113
came back to this thread reminiscing about old posts. many people have simply moved to spaces with more personal freedom like private discord servers and such. it's quite sad to think that through the way many imageboards were handled the chan culture has been thoroughly destroyed. i miss shouting into the anonymous nothingness.

Imageboards and chan culture is basically dead now. The only remotely active chan is 4chan, but that place is now a sad shell of its former self and populated entirely by newfag zooomers who never bothered lurking. I miss the pre-2016 internet ;_; everything is so boring now.

>>9600
I miss Pre-2016. Everything was just so much more hopeful. :(

>>9466
>>9600
A lot of people blame discord, and while I do agree that its apart of the equation, I think social media (such as twitter, instagram, etc) has played a bigger role in destroying online communities and niche websites. Why? Because outside of discord, those have become the de facto hub for internet discussion and are constantly devising a way to keep users on there algorithmically. Even places like youtube, once no more than simple video repository, has become algorithm hell dedicated to having you on there as long as humanly possible. Discord's main draw (and culprit responsible for destroying online communities) stems from its ability to have chatrooms with large amount of people and dedicated to communities, with utilities such as pins, announcements, dedicated channels for topics, etc. But it is only one part of the equation and doesn't explain the downfall of imageboards and niche forums in it's entirety. I genuinely believe social media has been much more destructive to the activity of niche sites, as it contains most of the problems of discord and more cancer to boot. Since the internet has been consolidated so much by social media, most normal people aren't willing to venture into the unknown that would've been mandatory to an internet user circa 2006 in order to find communities. Discord also functionally serves a different purpose as it is in more in line with a chatroom rather than a true discussion forum, which large scale chatrooms and applications have existed prior to discord without the decay of niche websites.

Couple this with mobile apps constantly trying to get a piece of the community pie circa 2010-2016 and what we've been witnessing is a slow death of the internet as we know it. It's why it is vital to promote the communities that still exist away from the big tech conglomerates.

>>9602
>Couple this with mobile apps constantly trying to get a piece of the community pie circa 2010-2016 and what we've been witnessing is a slow death of the internet as we know it.

I'll elaborate on the phone part if you don't mind because I think they are at least 50% of the problem. It's way harder to make OC on a phone than it is on a computer, so most people now gravitate to sites where you can "share"/repost or make minor image edits over imageboards which generally have a higher expectation of not repeating stale content. It's why basically the only meme that exists on 4chan anymore are wojacks - because those are easy to edit with a shitty paint tool on a phone for whatever circumstance. Of course you "could" create high quality OC on a phone, but the whole nature of it incentivizes you to get bored quickly and put it away in your pocket. It's a lot easier to just go on twitter and repost someone else's effortpost than to make your own, and the whole ecosystem of modern "social media" encourages that.

are u ok

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>>9515
Why would you install Linux Mint of all distros? All of Cinnamon's tool have caused random ass freezes on my laptop (which is modern and has 16gbs of ram), sure it is still usable but now I can't install things via a gui thanks to the fact it randomly freezes.

Compare that to MX Linux and shit just works, even the tools maintained by the devs work well even on "old" hardware. Only downside is I can't play pirated Linux games as the cracker I rely on has GTK3 dependency.

>>9595
>Why would you install Linux Mint
it was recommended to me by someone i trust, since they know im not very well versed in linux.

ive gone through tons of distros since, and now use mint on an older mini-pc.

my t470 runs kde plasma, x280 runs popOS and after much trial and error im using manjaro on my desktop.

>>9596
Linu

if anyone is interested, ive been documenting my trip down the Linux rabbit hole:
https://youtu.be/NmuYQnQGCgI
also, the x60 arrived, as did the charger.
tommorow my ThinkCentre monitor will arrive so i can match the ThinkCentre mini-pc, full sized ThinkCentre PC and IBM+Lenovo ThinkPads.
next im either going to get another mini-pc or another x200 era ThinkPad.
>>9596
i uninstalled popOS and switched to Manjaro KDE like on my main desktop.

>>9603
Cool cheatsheet, very elegant.

>>9587
>hobby to really lose yourself into
that's what i'm working on

>>9590
r u ok?

I deleted my discord and haven't looked back

>>9598
why. why why why why why

>>28829
lol

>>28815
Hey, can't say I didn't try to help. But honestly when learning about religions its best to just go to the source then read interpretations instead of basing your knowledge off other's interpretations alone.

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>>28825
Uh dude, I only made one post regarding this issue, outside of the jesus hina I just posted. I wasn't trying to do anything other than give helpful advice.

Any chance that you could archive Collective Unconscious 0.3.0? Thanks

>>16490
100% chance, don't worry.

This reminds me that I should sort out all the fangames that I saved and look up if I missed anything, because I haven't touched the archive for a really long time and haven't really been keeping an eye on fangames.

>>16491
I've checked the homepage, it says it was last updated on July 17, 2024. If you do mind updating that's great to hear from you

>>16495
I was thinking to update it after Dream Diary Jam actually, since it's should take place pretty soon.

I did not yet forget about the archive, and with the new update I'll bring a better UI with adaptation for mobile devices.

It's been another year so I may as well give another update.
After my contract ended in April 2023 I was a NEET again until last February. I somehow managed to get a bunch of interviews at some incredibly high-profile places but I think I was too autistic in the interview for all of them. Eventually I found another part-time research job in February, which has been pretty comfy (and way, way below the skillset they were asking for - a PhD was preferred for a role that has just been printing things off and proofing things for other people). So I can't really complain too much.
I've also been offered a spot on two doctoral programs. One is 4 years and offers a full scholarship with just enough of a stiped to live off but I'd have to move to Asia for it. I've not heard back on funding from the other one yet but it's only 3 years and has a (much) better reputation, so I'd prefer to go there. Either way I'm making progress. For the first time in a very long time I'm not worried about the future.

>>574
As someone who's considering doing a PhD, your post fills me with hope, anon

>>575
I'm glad you found this useful. If nothing else I want this thread to show that you can do stuff with enough ability, effort and patience.
Best of luck with your applications, and consider applying internationally, especially if you need the money. Anecdotally, I had two interviews for PhDs in the Netherlands last year and both paid very well. I understand Switzerland pays very well, too. The University of [spoler]Hong Kong[/spoiler] offers funding with every place but it's barely enough to live off, unless you get the big fellowship, in which case it pays very well.

Update doko

>>693
I was meaning to give an update but I don't have all that much to say. I ended up getting the big stipend for my PhD, which I've been doing that for the last year, so I've been very comfortable.
Things sucked for a while, but I guess everything worked out in the end. I'm not sure if there's a message here but I hope that people can draw some comfort from this thread.

play music that contains ringing throughout it. there's a bunch of these on youtube that run 10+ hours.

I need to start again. Dream journal isn't needed, just a clear mind and intention. It takes a few days to get into it.

Lucid dreaming is generally not worth the effort after experiencing it once or twice. The best part of dreams is letting your unconscious create an experience for you, letting you surprise yourself. Then again it could be interesting to try working in your dreams, like Aphex Twin lol.

Honest question.
Is there anything lucid dreaming can do that plain mid-day imagination can't?

>>2009
Daydreaming/imagination can come up with some cool concepts, but I find lucid dreams an experience entirely of their own and often very much ethereal in experience that no drug I've ever taken has ever gotten close to. Dreams themselves are a cycle of your mind dumping random information for deletion but instead cause vivid imagination the likes of which can't be described accurately. When in control of these in a lucid state (or seemingly in control), things can get very interesting incredibly fast. I have had dreams of corrupted skyscrapers and exploring their confines, drowning in an abstract pool of water situated in the orange, sunset sky next to random abstractions and buildings, large mazes of urban decay and mall-like structures that seem endless explored next to my closest friends, and terrifying lucid nightmares where I was vivisected repeated and cleaved in the head with a machete, splitting my brain in half. I suffer from vivid dreams and night terrors constantly that have only subsided once I was adequately taking my prescribed PTSD medication every night. I have also had bouts of sleep paralysis as well. The things our minds come up with when we sleep are several times more amplified than what we can think of when we are awake.

jeff the killer

been meaning to get into thecatamites series of games

I got mad at Space Funeral and quit at the part where you're avoiding skulls in the desert. Maybe I'll give it another shot soon…