/rec/ - Ex-NEET / Recovery

Just a heads up for next time: sage goes in the email field, not the name field.
As for the whole developing discipline and having more willpower/energy thing, what's your diet like? Do you exercise in any capacity? I know it might seem irrelevant but those were some of the factors that personally allowed me to escape NEETdom.
Also, there's nothing wrong with having "useless" hobbies (as long as you genuinely enjoy them). Life is already shitty enough on its own. Not everything you do has to be in the pursue of money.

>Not everything you do has to be in the pursue of money.

100%

>>656
What's this angel cat art from anon? Unique style I haven't seen before, would make a good game.

>>659
the low-res textures being contrasted with the high-fidelity uv maps is really cool. i've been wanting to get into modelling for a while. what do you guys think of my birba?

>>660
I'd say you're already pretty into modelling! You're birba looks great.

>>617
Congrats. You are at where I hope to be in a couple years.

>>617
congrats anon!

i never would have thought i'd become such a normie. soon to be working a full-time job in an open-office sort of space… then, next year i am going to start a new program to learn echocardiography…

I've had a work at home job for a bit now that I'm using to save money to go back to school. It feels like the only way for me to ever get a chance at socially integrating with the world again is to go back to college. I am nervous at the prospect of being 28 or even 29 by the time it finally happens though. What? I'll graduate at 32-33? Better late than never but sad to think about really even if everything goes well. The idea that others are done at 22 is insane to me, I'm filled with both envy and horror all at once when I let myself think about it.

>>648
My friend who I met going back is in the thick of it at 33. Another thing you probably don't want to think about is that we'll have much shorter lives than normies.

>>649
>we'll have much shorter lives than normies
says who

>>22
If u can do uni you dont need SSI. Your just lazy

>>604
about 30% through learning calculus. Predictably, trigonometry is tripping me up, so I need to spend more time studying the identities. I haven't studied for a minute because we've been moving. We moved somewhere a bit nicer, I've been on a couple walks, I need to try to make them daily. I will do one today. I'm also cooking more and baking for my family which feels really good to contribute / make people happy.

On a side note, I'm really reluctant to continue to study because I've been really consumed by self hate for a while, and I see working/being a provider as a way to kind of, redeem or create self worth. I really feel like this is the end of the line. I am a bad person in a lot of ways and I've made a lot of mistakes and I'm in one of those periods where I seem to make a mistake every day. If I can't make up for it by succeeding at this (and continuing to succeed at it, forever, until I die) then I really feel like I'm net-negative on those around me. In some ways living like this is more comfortable. Right now, I'm a terrible failure, but I have the potential to be something else. If I fail, then all I am is a terrible failure, worse than before. I know I have to push forward because time will make that decision for me, so I have to at least try, but it's so hard to risk, I guess, the last possible shred of self worth and hope.

>>605
I think of this comment when I am struggling, thank you. It helps.

hi uboachan, I am just here to announce i will be renouncing shitposting for at least one month do stave off insanity for a little bit longer

Cutted my wrist for the first time a few hours ago, now I just want to die more

My contract is ending soon and I'm having trouble finding new work for once it ends. It's making me incredibly scared I'll fall back into being a NEET/hikki. I know its probably irrational but does anyone else get that fear?

no you're not

Boo.

I'm an ex-NEET but I use the other board because there's more to talk about

>>636
Made in Abyss is one of my favorite series, I'm glad to hear you enjoyed it. Best of luck with everything dog.

Made in Abyss is one of my favorite series, I'm glad to hear you enjoyed it. Best of luck with everything dog.

> It was one of the most tragically gorgeous things I've ever seen…even when I get deeply depressed I know it could always be worse…I think it's just recovering from the past few years; not to get too personal on here but I was hospitalized and immobile for a good part of last year and early this year and living in an abandoned house with a few friends..we all made it on to another place and everyone I know from that time is doing relatively okay. The world at large is just a lot of suffering…daily I see my friends and strangers going through it as Im sure you've experienced yourself. We can't give up, can we? or we SHOULDN'T i'll say…

>>634
>>638
interesting thread and pardon my autism but can you please be mindful of the way you use arrows for any anon passing by's sake? and you're doing it backwards too
>arrows like this >>>
are normally just for quoting other people, this thread's been hard to follow the conversation in because you're switching the perspectives like crazy
also you don't have to include your email in the email field, just letting you know as well. good luck in your travels and lack of!

yeah i dont care about grammar im sorry its bugging you but if its confusing you idk, scroll elsewhere? im talking about how i nearly died and was hospitalized my spelling / punctuation / perspective is fragmented have a nice day

>>638
I'm interested in hearing more about your stay in the abandoned building. I have been close to entering that kind of life to escape a bad family. Any survival tips would be good. Also you should read / watch the anime of shoujo shuumatsu ryokou if you haven't.

>>640
Almost everyone here has a tragic story. Anon was politely trying to help you intergrate into board culture. If there's some reason you can't format things properly that's fine, but don't be rude about it.

Its difficult, but you can get used to going to the super duper mart and bakery by yourself. You just have to push yourself and have some sanity maintainance tactics. Its like taking a bath, you test the waters first and slowly get used to it through gradual exposure. Actually, going to the super duper mart is pretty easy because those places are faceless and transitory. The hard part is when you get a job or go to college and end up meeting people who know you on a day to day basis and trying not to mess that up, falling back into being a hiki or becoming paranoid schizo.

thank youu… i feel better with that. i think you're right. i should definitely find something to regulate my emotions… i'm scared of freaking out when i find a job, too. i need to stay focused on the reason i HAVE to work… thanks!

the social anxiety melts away when you're sleep deprived/intoxicated

>>628
just go on autismbux lol, neet out again. see if your parents will pay you to do jobs around the house for them. or maybe do onlyfans lol. if you're lonely at work anyhoo you're much better off neeting out. if you want some sense of companionship play some ttrpgs or tcgs. or use autismbux to hire some supportfags to hang out with you.

one day chris kempczinski will be in a gas chamber.

>>629
Is it so easy to "just" get some?

>>630
in oceania regions it is, the government is basically handing out retard diplomas. might be harder in america but if so i still think you should find a different job. as a kid i remember my sister working at mcdonalds and it seemed fucking awful. i genuinely do think you need a hobby and a job is really the only way into that. pokemon cards are expensive

Save up for your move & whatever education or certs you want to do as a career, otherwise you'll just get stuck in this Mcdonalds-esque situation over n over again and never have money or real experience. Now that u left ur n33tshit you need to figure out what you want to do, this is what u should be figuring out Right Now

obv dont quit your job unless you have another lined up. Also stop calling yourself autistic and you might stop acting autistic. Idc if you got diagnosed

>>302
Hi!

> What are you working as?
Software engineer in a local IT company. The coolest thing is that I'm writing code in the language I like, and that's why I even applied.

> Are you doing the same exercises as before?
Nope! I actually read up on it a bit and now are doing an amalgamation of exercises from this video. There are some other exercises as well (mostly for my buttocks) and I had to skip on some exercises after which my legs and my damaged arm hurt too much. But in general the idea is this. If you have some other exercises I might want to try, I would be very glad to hear them too, and I might try to incorporate them into my daily regimen!
https://youtu.be/vc1E5CfRfos
I'm not doing those too intensively though, as I don't really like exercises and do not plan or want to build any muscle, just want to keep my body in shape.

> Even though it is kinda strange to walk around with no idea what is going on.
I had no idea what was going on in my country for the most of my life. But now it is actually quite hard to miss on those, and I fail myself and do read them quite frequently anyway. Even though I do try to limit it.

> I am struggling lately.
What happened?

>>323
Sounds great, I am glad to hear that you like it. So you are working and going to university at the same time? Certainly a lot to do. I assume the degree you picked up again is programming engineering?

Interesting video, I never looked into all the things you can do without any tools at all. Just 3 weeks ago I decided not to go to the gym anymore, because I just couldn't stand the noise there any longer, radio running the entire time, a lot of people around, even a tv with sports turned on. I changed to working out at home again, but searched for new exercises as well. Right now I am trying out exercising with dumbbells, there is a lot of variety too.
Any reason why you are training buttocks especially hard? I do that too for my back, because I now it is not in a good shape.

This was exactly the other way around for me, I followed very closely what is going on but stopped somewhere in 2018 because it was always only negative, sad, frustrating and so on. I just didn't want to read all of that negativity anymore. I have to say that I do feel better since I don't know anything about all the happenings anymore.

Last time we talked I quit my job and was trying out new things like mailman. After all the different ideas didn't appeal to me at the end, I applied for accounting again. Unfortunately I landed the worst job I had so far. The organization and communication is equals zero, the traffic agonizing, the work boring and tedious, the industrial sector a lot of stress, the company owned by a larger one that dictated everything and doesn't listen to anything, the list goes on and on. My mental health once again went downhill very fast and so hard that I take antidepressants again. Luckily the job is dated to end on the 31.12.2021, they wanted to keep me but I said no.
I truly fear that I only can get better if I don't work in an office anymore, next year I will try out something else once again, I have a good feeling about it this time.

Kind of scary to read what I was writing here before. (But maybe I will find something in me to do it later).

>>334
Very-very-very-very-very sorry! For not responding. I knew that I should, but for some reason I was running away from many things (this one including), even though they were constantly on my mind!

Right now I am at a point (notwithstanding it being 4AM) where things are not very good. But I will manage, I will recover and hopefully I will share parts of it here.

>>621
Take your time, I am still here. Just glad to see that you are alive. Thought you went to a prostest and vanished because of that.

I'm working. On what might calling, a "Selfed Improvements". Im staredr Playing ultrakill, and now I keep trying to get an S Rank on Time for all the Things I Do. LLike. Showering Or Getting Dresed.. I need those points. Also trying TO computer and reading In 10 minute intervals. Maximising my knowledge of our earths Lore and worldbuilding by reading politics Book. You could Sqay Im LOcked IN !!!! ! Hello hi

>>425
I should mention, I was also really anxious on the first time I asked for a job at a computer store. Remember to collect yourselves before doing stuff like this, I got too excited and didn't think of it. Maybe I would've gotten the job perhaps? But that's not what I'll think of right now. I can't control everything and that's fine.

(also, correction I meant to reply to 424 on the second reply. to clear confusion)

>>417

>but we all get better with practice right?

Yes we do. I'm glad I know this first hand. I hope I've helped or motivated some of you to do so as well

>>250
Hope life is going well for you textile anon

>>571
It couldn't be going worse anon

>>606
Wanna talk about it friend?

Got a part time job that is very decent and things seem to be going in the right direction. I have to deal with my parents asking me to get started on my drivers license, not gonna do that until my mind is stable enough.

Months ago I fell in love with someone online but we cant date because of distance, it is quite difficult having to accept that i can only be friends with them but this relationship is too precious to lose and if I tried to get them out of my life I would lose my only my social circle.

While adult life is scary and the future feels unpredictable I encourauge all of you anons to keep going step by step, I promise you that we can find happiness.