I could write exactly the same question about me to a point where everyday that passes I ask myself whether I'm schizophrenic or some other shit.
Context, my situation has degraded a lot recently. It's not much compared to a lot of people but I've dropped out of a decent school because of procrastination plus inability to deal with both the amount of work piled up and the ensuing amount of stress. Haven't been doing anything for almost a year now.
People that were friend seem friendly at times but I keep interpreting things they say in a bad way, as if they were making fun of me or insinuating bad things.
When too far away to actually hear anything my brain will be able to just make shit up and be half convinced the muffled discussion were one word barely sounded like my name was about me.
>after someone bricks a portion of your mind
For me, it started gradually after I dropped out of school, at some point I was staying with them so often (since I had nothing better to do) that I realized "wtf am I doing here doing nothing smoking weed when I should be trying to figure out what to do with my fucking life", it was the tipping point where I started having anxiety>smoking weed>being with my friends
and I basically distanced myself from them more and more as time went by.
The paranoia peaked when smoking pretty dank shit with the closest friend later. That was the bricking part. I wondered if at some point earlier in life I hadn't smoked myself retarded, wondered if that may be related to me dropping out, wondered if I was made fun of much more than I thought and that I was just too stupid to notice. I realized that forever up until now I was "that kid" that just was lucky to never be bullied and whose weirdness went unnoticed because I was just normal enough to be on good terms with people. That lead to me wondering whether this friend of mine realized I was weird and actually way stupider than people made me out to be, and started subtly poking fun at my weirdness.
And this conclusion didn't go away when sobering up. It slowly went away, but it comes and goes, when I go see them and everything goes well, it's good and it fades even more, but if they say something that may be interpreted in favour of that conclusion it comes back atPost too long. Click here to view the full text.