continued from >>1876
I somehow knew that the police were after me but I don't remember hearing any signs of it, I must have been breaking a lot of driving laws I wasn't paying very much attention. This was the first time operating anything in a dream and it went smoothly other than my cars brakes not working properly, which is oddly one of my dream signs for lucid dreaming which is really weird to have but has not triggered anything yet. I ditched the vehicle and went on foot to the neighborhood with the nicest houses.
I remember being bugged by someone on the street at this time but in a neutral way but I don't remember the details. I also remember dicking around with dream powers a bit but I can't seem to remember those details much right anymore. I eventually found a house I felt comfortable going inside and I than went inside. It didn't occur to me to knock on the dream door which I now released was a huuuuuuuuge mistake.
Inside was a girl who reminded me much of myself but as a 14-18 year old. I believed her to be the right brain half of my personality as I was noticed I was in a very logical and slightly sociopathic state of mind. Too much control is probably what makes me feel that way the most but I feel a bit the same in real life. The girl was extremely frightened by me barging in and she thought I was going to rob them but I managed to convince her I was a friend somehow(?__?). Luckily this was now when her dad showed up so he wouldn't know I just broke in. He seemed mean and didn't seem to care much for my presence here, perhaps my appearance was friendly and comforting, I should look at a mirror in a lucid dream sometime but I slightly feel like that would make me insane but I could use that kind of mental therapy.
We hung out for a bit and had some decent conversation which i wished I could have recalled more. I suddenly started smelling her and it started to give me some strong feelings for her. She gave me this odd attempt at philosophy in by stating "If I've never seen or believed anyone has reached the level of enlightenment I seek, does it exist?". This was an incredibly heavy statement coming from my right brain half because she used to believe really strongly in seeking enlightenment and other philosophical gains. I noticed she was starting to get really scared at this point. Her dad than came into the room and she freaked out harder and than ran away. It seemed like she was having some kind of emotional breakdown so I went and chased after her. A bunch of my friends in a van showed up and yelled supportive things at me and I eventually caught up to her and got her to calm down. This was a very exhilaration experience but I woke up at the emotional climax an couldn't remember much of the final details.
Its interesting to finally experience a fuller feeling lucid dream. I typically have movie quality dreams with plots and some minor lucidity but it wasn't happening as hard in my lucid dream. Lucid dreams tend to feel kind of short or perhaps I get too excited and wake up a lot so this is my longest lucid dream so far. I think this dream had a theme of fears and bad memories relating to past and current fears and how I have handled them literally and metaphorically. Unless something grabs my attention in my next lucid dream or I lack the right god powers I will channel myself through multiple layers of ground and/or meditate. Having a conversation with my self is also something I would like to achieve, I should focus on conversational memory in dreams more from now on.