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/rec/ - Ex-NEET / Recovery

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For five years I've been slowly decaying: I've lost my health, dropped University, twice, and my relationships with my family is in shatters. Also what bothers me is that people I knew (I don't have any contacts left) now have good jobs, some of them their own families, while I still simply just run away from all problems I encounter.

I tried to do something with it so many times, but it never really worked out. I'm not sure whether anything can be done now, but I can try one more time.

To change the pace I will go to a local library tomorrow, so I can be closer to other people, will spend some time learning (or doing) something actually useful and will try to build up courage to make up with my family.


Right now is probably not the best time to go out, with the virus and everything. I am cheering you on though. Things will turn out ok.


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Yes, you are right, however it just can't go on like this. I skipped the library today exactly because of this, and now the moon is out and I haven't done anything useful, again. So maybe I can at least go to a nearby park? We don't have a mandatory quarantine, and I don't contact with other people to begin with, so it shouldn't really matter in the end.

I did however read these 3 wonderful papers, they were easy to follow, and it was sooo enjoyable - but it's not what I should have been doing! That's the problem.

I will try again tomorrow!


Good to hear, just be sure to stay safe and healthy. You probably won't be happy if you're in the hospital with sickness.


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It was a little bit better today. I managed to start my project - I want to write a simple torrent tracker, so when I finally try to apply for a job I can show at least something.
And writing code turned out to be really hard - you just can't compare it to reading papers or books.
Thank you, yes, you are right, especially now.
Stay safe too.


Well the library isn't going to help you…


Going out and doing anything could help OP, even if it's just a few interactions with library workers or random people. I find my confidence is like a snowball that builds up with repeated positive social experiences.


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Thank you.

My project is underway, though it is still a total mess. I would try to finish it by the end of this month and try to find a job afterwards. It's been quite hard so far, but at least I'm making progress.


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I don't really have much to say other than I am rooting for you, OP. Things are crazy in the world right now, with the quarantine and everything, so I hope that if you're going out, you're staying safe. I genuinely am hoping that you find the happiness that you desire, build up that positive energy.


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It's been kinda bad recently, the project hit a snag by the end of the previous month and nothing has changed ever since.
But I'm still trying, libraries are open now, so at least this problem has solved itself, I also found a small homey group of three people where we try to learn a new language.
I just hope it isn't too late.

I also have severe headaches and nightmares, which destroyed my daily regimen completely, and I always feel groggy and cloudy.
But I try to (and will!) stay positive regardless.


Good luck, OP. I'm rooting for you!
Very nice images of Rakka btw.


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Thank you! The second day in library was even more productive than the first one, well it is still a long way from what other people call "Productive", but I'm happy anyway.

I also found a nice job place I would try to apply for, right after I finish writing this torrent-client, or at least writing its core logic.

Headaches are a little bit worrying though - I also started having side-effects from the drag I'm taking to ease up the pain, so I think I should make a break from them, maybe even visit a doctor, I'm not sure.

How was your day?


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This sounds great, keep it up!
Slow and steady improvement, take your time, quality over quantity.
Please take your health seriously, visit a doctor. The headaches surely hamper you.

My day was alright, thanks for asking. Got a few negative e-mails but had some other pleasant things.
Especially the fact that my cat recovered, I was so afraid she would die.


> Got a few negative e-mails
It seems hard to have many social contacts, unless I misunderstand something. Why not simply block those people?

> my cat

How old is she, if I'm not intruding too much!

Today I had to leave my library too early for silly reasons when I convinced myself that I left the water running, which I didn't, and at home I wasn't able to continue focusing on studying, even though I really tried to not get distracted, which is just impossible. I wonder how other people can do it.


> It seems hard to have many social contacts, unless I misunderstand something.
They are no social contacts, unfortunately I have zero of those.
I tried to apply for a different job because I dislike my current one but all of the mentioned negative e-mails were rejections.

> How old is she, if I'm not intruding too much!

It's fine :3
She is 16, quite old for a cat.
The vet told me she would most likely die but thanks to some pills she is doing fine now.
I have to feed her those every morning from now on, else she is getting sick again.

> I wonder how other people can do it.

Do you need any devices to study?
Else I would try to turn them off and put them away.
Furthermore when I had to study I usually rewarded myself with something afterwards and didn't do anything fun before.

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