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fear of never becoming valuable Anonymous 08/17/24 (Sat) 11:05:37 No.608

I'm a bit embarrassed to make this post, but I've been lurking for a long time and was hoping to hear from other people who have had the same issue, or know how to get out of it and stuff.

My issue is is that I use the computer too much, and I've been using it for 10+ hours a day nearly every day for the past 6 years. I've been a NEET and a hikki for most of that time, and I really really hate that I do that. I feel like I've not grown much as a person, and I feel as though I've become boring and hollow and skill-less as a direct result of my overuse of the internet/computer. I rarely do anything I can feel proud of, and the anxiety of having wasted my life permeates every waking second. I have terrible time management skills. Currently, I'm doing a course thats the equivalent of highschool in my country as I dropped out after completing year 10 due to issues around social anxiety and depression. I'm only just barely managing to pass because I wait until the last second to do anything, and I'm terrified I've permanently fucked my brain through habitual overuse of the computer. I'm currently 21. I'm also scared I'll never be able to learn the social skills needed to make close friends, which is absolutely terrifying, as my main motivation for getting out of neet-dom the past few years has been deep loneliness.

I'm sorry for throwing a pity-party, I really want to be proud of myself and turn myself into someone I can be happy being. I'd really love to hear from someone else who has dealt with a similar-ish issue (and hopefully solved it!), I've been feeling a lot of self doubt and fear recently, and I'd love to find someone to relate to. If this post is too self centered and just shitting up the board, feel free to delete it.

Another question for people who've got hobbies: what might be a good one with a low skill ceiling to take up for someone who freaks out over being bad at everything? I've heard a hobby is a really good way to kickstart self esteem.

Anonymous 08/17/24 (Sat) 13:59:10 No.609

The brain can be is a master in let you think you suck on everything you tried to do (because is tend to happen to me.. A LOT). Even on dumb things like videogames, I feel everyone play anything way better than me effortless, or in case of drawing, everyone draw just perfectly with almost no practice but me. Don't know if your experienced similar thoughs.

What you mayorily consume on those 10+ hours while being in the computer? There you may find a hobby on things you feel interested. But remember to not burnout yourself and know when to rest and slowdown.

nama3!i4ggqOCXfI 08/18/24 (Sun) 19:23:31 No.610

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try not to define yourself on normalfag terms, or let your sense of self-worth be defined by their backwards "standards".

-keep a journal
-write stories
-anything art related is not only productive but gives one a sense of accomplishment
-learn more about computers
-research the human condition philosophy, psychology
-do what you love

Anonymous 08/20/24 (Tue) 23:37:37 No.612

I have this overwhelming feeling that to be loved and appreciated you need to have value. In today's capitalist economy value means having a productive skill useful to employers or having some kind of talent or charm that makes people like you. The only things I'm good at are not productive and don't impress people. So I am worthless and I cannot compete. Why would anyone waste their time on me? Why would anyone want to be my friend or hold me and comfort me? I want to learn something and be talented so people will be impressed and respect me. I wonder if that's a really selfish and stupid reason to learn anything. Can I really master an instrument or a sport when I'm nearly 30 and behind everyone in skill and experience? Yet if I don't do this I feel like I'll die alone.

Anonymous 09/20/24 (Fri) 22:37:27 No.614

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>>610
I really recommend the journal thing.
Being on the internet is so dopamine rushing, just doomscrolling an all, but only you can break this cycle.
What stuff do you used to like to do that now you don't do anymore? I'm really picking up into drawing again, and i want to learn how to grow some plants.
You're 21, but you're never to late to keep learning and growing.
Personally high school for me was pure hell, but to this day i'm glad i'm not seeing those fuckers anymore, currently surivivng college, even with my poor ass social skills, i've managed to find people who understand me and i realized people are more than what the internet or social media paints it to be. Humans are meant to socialize, you'll be ok. You'll find lots of good people.

Anonymous 09/20/24 (Fri) 22:42:37 No.615

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>>612
>Why would anyone waste their time on me? Why would anyone want to be my friend or hold me and comfort me?

Because you also deserve happiness and to enjoy life.
Because you can also still learning and expand your horizons, because you can do things some people may be unable to do.
You're not behind everyone, that is what nowadays social media wants you to believe, even if, in the case that you are. The only thing you can do is keep moving foward, right?
Enjoy human life in the way you like