well, i shower, for one. 2024 was the year i showered the most in my entire life. we don't have a hot-tub anymore, though, which saddens me. maybe a hot-spring would fill the jacuzzi-shaped void.
i used to be severely underweight and anorexic. my 'feminine' features are returning, and my face is no longer gaunt. i can stand up to fry an egg without fainting. i can dress down without freezing to death in late spring/summer.
and i'm about to start going to therapy again. i don't know if i'll get much out of it. best that could come out of that is something that'd lessen my lethargy, or another reason to get up in the morning.
we've significantly downsized on pets. now, we only have four. there's a black cat we've had since childhood who walks into my room and nuzzles me. very soft and warm.
i now have obligations outside of the internet, too; however, i still struggle to socialize. i speak too slow, and too quiet, and nobody notices me when i'm talking to them. my interests are too obscure and/or technical to discuss with others without them getting bored, and my speech is monotone. despite this, people still put up with me. i don't know how.
i struggle to socialize with my parents, too. not as much as strangers, but there's nonetheless a frequency difference. i have a girlfriend, but ever since we moved it's been long-distance. she's the most i've ever clicked with someone – we're both on a different frequency than everyone around us, barring each other – she's still a full-on NEET, though, so i can't just mooch off of her (she also skipped high school completely).
i like to read. i think 2024-2025 have been the years i've read the most. i'm also horribly inattentive in my reading, and will typically alternate between ~5 books at once, but that's all good, i think..? i also want to invest in an e-reader for all my legitimately obtained PDFs.
and i'm brushing up on various programming languages (rust in particular is very fun). i think i'll work a temp job at a local antique shop, then try to find a more long-term job. my primary ikigai is that i want to further the field of meteorology. it's grandiose, but it keeps me alive.
where we grew up, it was very hot and wet (however landlocked it was). we got lots of T-storms, and, since we lived right at the western edge of dixie alley, even a few tornadoes. now that we've moved up north, it's all cold and dry – we just don't get events like december 10th (
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9NIp62BBfzM) anymore. i want to move somewhere more humid, maybe even seismically active?
now, i'm also curious about shrimp husbandry. i was never into aquatic creatures, but the hawaiian volcano shrimp is apparently quite hardy. they're also brightly colored, and would be easier to see with my worsening eyesight. they only need to be fed a couple of times a month at most, which would be ideal given my fatigue.
so, yeah, my game plan? work, volunteer for SKYWARN, get an apartment, move in with girlfriend, try to get a PHD or two, shrimp! good night, /rec/.
