/rec/ - Ex-NEET / Recovery

Great idea, good luck, anon.
Still struggle with holding on to a job too.

Hope it doesn't suck too hard.

OP here
First day was hard and long. I work at a textile plant and I spent the entire day cutting fabric with a laser machine thing. A lot of depressing thoughts found its way to me again, so it was hard to move around in a workplace that needs you to move around frequently, but I managed to pull it off when I thought of the instant noodles I could get when I get my paycheck. Although my boss is a really scary man. I don't want to get shouted at by him. My self esteem is already really bad. However so far I'm going good. This was the update of my first day, I will be paid every week so from now on I will update you guys every Saturday.
Do I regret getting this job? No, I don't think so right now. This might be a clean slate for me

Best of luck to you all, and see you on Saturday

>>253
have a good week anon. looking forward to hearing your updates going forward.

best of luck to you. we don't have textiles near where I live but it sounds more reasonable than working something like an amazon warehouse.

Just home from work!

I got my first paycheck in forever! I'm so very proud of myself. It's been only a week and I think I'm confident now(?) Obviously I'm not out of the shithole that is my life right now, but I sure am out of how my life was a week ago.

I wanted to quit on spot a lot of times, but I pulled through!! And with a bright face for the first time in months, I walked in my local supermarket and bought myself vegetable instant noodles. Enough to last me a week til I get paid again.

I'm very proud of myself for getting this job, I'm even more proud of myself for not quitting on the first week.

Am I going to make it Ubuu?

>>261
Proud of you anon, keep going!

>>261
>Am I going to make it Ubuu?

i have total faith in you, anon. congrats on making it through the first week!

Thats great anon, keep going!

>>261
>Am i going to make it?
You're doing way better than i am. Great job, anon. I'm pretty proud of you tbh

Ubuu looking at anon in pic

>>267

I was about to quit until I read this. Thank you so much :)

Hi all. Very sorry I missed a day to update

I got paid again, and I was feeling really good about myself while I was going home, so I thought I could celebrate by ordering a small pizza from Dominos. (which was awesome)

I don't have work on Sunday, so I just spent the day online, but I'm even more motivated to work more

Changing the optimistic tone of this post, bad stuff also happened this week. I had a panic attack while at work, so I was allowed to take a breather outside for a while. But I also had another panic attack outside. I'm still hoping my boss doesn't think I faked it to slack off, but I also think he's understanding to some extent.

Here's to another week. Feeling good without suicidal thoughts for once in a long time.

>>276
anon im so happy for you! looking forward to your updates.

>>276

hang in there. keeping that positive energy after the pitfalls in a week is pretty top tier, anon.

what pizza?

>>273
i'm glad it helped you keep going. It really warms my heart.

I like to think that bosses, nowadays, (especially of this generation) are getting really good at understanding stuff like panic attacks and the likes. You know, "being human beans".

If you feel like it, you can try talking about it to your boss. He's just another coworker if you disregard the role hierarchy.

I'm rooting for you, anon =w=

Back from work again, this week was boring but I got paid! :D

I can't believe it's nearly been a month since I started working. I did have it in me after all…
Speaking of, I didn't have another panic attack this week. Some male coworkers told me if I got anxious again I could just go outside for a while and they would try to do without me (they're using irons to "stick" these paper-y things to fabric. I don't know the name) basically I cut those paper-y things for them when my boss tells me to.

I had some depressive thoughts again, but they weren't as frequent as they were on my first 2 weeks, so I pulled through easier. I'm still sort of scared I will slip up.
Anyway I actually do have some money now! I guess it wouldn't be considered much by other people but for me it's a lot. I bought myself a can of beer with it. Tastes so much better when you buy it with money you worked for :-)

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You people all prevented me from quitting thank you all so much!!!!!
(and yes the pizza was good)

Here's to another week!

>>292

pour one out for TextilesAnon, boys. looking forward to hearing from you in a week. keep at it!

>>292
That's some great news, anon. Sounds like you have some great co-workers!
Inspiring me to get up and try my hands at working. Thanks for keeping us up to date. Makes me happy to come here and see what you're up to.

I keep forgetting to update sorry!!!

I got paid again and now I have enough money to buy a nendoroid I wanted and still have leftover money for essential things :) I feel really ecstatic

This week went about the same, but now they put me in charge of a pressing machine of some sort, basically I put a piece of fabric on a pedestal(i think?) then I put beads on it, then the machine squeezes(i had brain fog right now as i wrote this so idk if this is the right word) the beads into the fabric with heat and pressure, It's very dangerous though but added like 2 dollars more to my pay haha so It's all good

Anyway It's tuesday now but I got a bit of a cold so I was allowed to take the day off since I never took one off before obviously I won't let this pull me back into NEETdom. I will fight my will for another day

Again sorry for the very late update. Hope you all are doing well and see you next saturday

>>295
I'm really glad the thread is motivating you, makes me very glad and happy I still go to work despite my anxieties. These anxieties will pass completely too hopefully

>>298
Nice to hear they pay you well.
>These anxieties will pass completely too hopefully
I hope so! That's great that you can push thru like that

>>298
Good job moving up OP. Please keep us updated on your labor adventures!
(Please take care of yourself at work so you don't get injured with the dangerous machines. All it takes is one mistake to end up in a gore compilation)

Hello again!

Late update as always, been feeling down really bad

I came close to quitting a lot of times this week, I guess I burnt out finally. No I didn't actually quit, I still go everyday

But it's a scary thought because I don't want to be NEET again, but again it's really hard to keep up now. Not to mention the new machine they put me on gets really hot so when I'm off work my shirt is almost always wet, I don't have a lot of shirts so I may have to go to a neighborhood market (not sure what theyre called in english, theyre basically rows of stalls people set up to sell their stuff) Hope I find some really cheap shirts.

Anyway I've been thinking maybe I should take a day off, but I don't want to push too hard since I already took 2 days off from work. I also learned there's a depressed(?) coworker near me, so at least he makes the days more bearable. He's relateable to talk to. (Yes I can hold short talks now.)


>>303
Yeah I had the gore complitation thing in my mind when I started to work with the machine, but I'm more used to it now, nearly lost the tip of my middle finger though. That really scared me


I don't know why I burnt out so suddenly, but I won't be NEET again, and I promise you Ubuu I will make another update. Sayonara!

>>304
That's good news that you can do small talks now. Like you said, it helps to keep going thru the day.
Take it easy at work, anon. Take your time on the machines and keep on trucking. You've come this far, no point in quitting now

update anon !

how are you man ?

I'm sorry to disappoint everyone but I had to quit… That's why I haven't been able to update, I did not know what to say.

But the saga of textile anon is not over yet!! I will take some time to collect myself, since this was really hard to do for me, but even more rewarding. I'm going to do what I want for about a week, collect my thoughts and I'll look for another textile plant. (my country lives off of clothing industries so I'm good) Honestly it's kind of hard to want to work, especially now I have some money but I will look for a job anyway.

Also the word I was trying to remember at >>304 was flea market, just to clear any confusion

Anyway I guess I'll be playing Stardew Valley for a few days…. til then.. I hope I will update this thread again.

>>315
No shame. You did well to get and hold down a job for any amount of time. Good luck in the future, I hope we all get to hear from you with your new job soon.

>>315
I'm not disappointed. Don't stop trying! That's great that you held onto that job for so long. I don't imagine it's easy working in a textile factory.

Keep a record of how long you've held your last job and try to beat it on the next one. That should give you motivation onto the next round.

Thank you for updating us regardless of the outcome. Glad to see you post around every week

>>315
You have gained working experience, which is worth a lot.
Now you can do even better on your next job, because you have already learned stuff and can show experience on your cv when you apply for a new job. Overall you are in a better position than before, anon, you have accomplished something valuable!

Hey guys, I found another very small textile place. There's a hiring sign on the window so I'll try going there on Monday. Just wanted to tell you all.

>>328
Go for it, anon!

>>328
Good luck! Glad to see you picking yourself up this quickly.

>>328
That's great anon! Let's do even better this time!

>>328
I've just read through this thread and I wanted to say I am proud of you! Well done on not giving up and carrying on even if it feels difficult sometimes. I'll be rooting for you!

OP of this thread.

I have no excuses. I've been doing the same thing I've done the past years again. 2 months I just spent playing video games all day. I'm sorry I let this thread down, I want to try again but I have no motivation to do so. I nearly spent the money I made and I'm back in square one. Also update on the new textile place I found, I actually got too scared to enter it for some reason. Probably just me being dumb. Coincidentally police raided it a few days later and the textile is now empty collecting dust, don't know what happened.

I suppose you could say that at least I tried, and you would be right, but I haven't felt this bad in my life. I feel like I messed up a huge opportunity to restart everything. I also feel bad for ghosting all the anons I motivated.

Should I even try again?

You have the right to be mad at me.

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Thank you for cheering me on, even if It didn't amount to anything in the end probably. I don't know. Thank you

>>349
dont just get a new job but also a new lifestyle. good luck

>>349
It's okay - don't put extra pressure on yourself, I'm sure we're all still rooting for you!

Make progress in any way you can. Setbacks happen to everyone so don't beat yourself up over it.

Happy new year, anon. You've got this!

Are you still playing videogames all day? Any potential jobs in sight?

>>349
It's alright. I guess a lil guilt never hurts the motivation, but don't beat yourself over it. You don't owe use alot and I appreciate that you came back to post news, even if they are bleak. Just get back into the rhythm once you're ready again.

Hope things go better for you OP. I recently just got a job and am hoping to keep it for a while. I’m a cashier at a home depot and I haven’t actually started doing actual work yet just watching training videos so I’ve barely started. And I actually need to keep this job so I can save up to move out of my parents place. I was NEET for two years with two jobs in between both added up only lasting 3 months, it was fun and I was able to sleep in but now I’m likely gonna be working at 6 in the morning til noon.
I’m not nervous with the people as much as I’d expect but I am nervous that I’m gonna fuck up like I did the other jobs and get fired because I already know I’d NEET again right after instead of looking for work

OP again.

>>362
Hi 362! How are you doing? I've read your post around the time you shared it and today It randomly came to my mind. How are things going? Hope all is well. Remember that if you mess up you can always try again. I've failed as well, and nothing wrong with that, i think.

To quote >>361,
>Just get back into the rhythm once you're ready again.

>>361
Thank you for your words anon, I think I'm way too compulsive about beating myself over this, but you're right I believe.

>>360
Yes, as much as I wouldn't like to admit so to myself. Recently a relative of mine sold some parts of his old gaming computer and gave me the GPU as a late birthday gift, so while that's nice, it obviously hasn't really done me much good. However I am fully aware that is in my own decision. Which makes it sting more.

I really want to start working again because it gave me something to look forward to other than new Yotsubato volumes. But one day Yotsubato will end as well and I will really need something that I can look forward to my whole life and will help me in my life as well

But! As long as I WANT to work. I can, and I will. Because as shitty as the situations I may be putting myself in my life can be, there is still that one, one tiny, microscopic spark that tells me to just move forward, because some days I just have nothing better to do, some days I really do have a reason to. Both are different reasons to a good solution, I believe.

Hope all is well for everyone that reads this thread, and has participated in it.

Mental illness pulls me underwater for now. Some days even deeper, but as long as I have that tiny spark, I have a chance at pulling myself out of water, and that keeps me going.

>>368
Things aren’t too bad thanks for asking. It is pretty rough for someone like me to be working a socially oriented job but I’m managing pretty well, usually in the early morning most customers don’t even talk. The last jobs I had were full time and this one is only part time so it’s quite a bit easier and gives me more time in the day so I’m working on getting back to eating well and lifting weights.
All in all, so far so good. I’m planning on keeping this job til I’ve saved up a decent amount and I even calculated the amount I have to set aside for nicotine, caffeine, supplements, gas, and food. The rest goes to saving, once I’ve saved the amount I want I think I’ll switch to a less social job and maybe get an apartment around that time

>>371
Well since I talked about the job I got a few months ago guess an update is an order with what’s going on now. I was going to call out earlier this week on Sunday, just felt shitty and didn’t want to go knowing the place would be bad and they’d make me wait way too long for someone to cover me to use bathroom or leave. I also knew it would be busy and I’d be stretched thin so I just really did not want to work but nobody answered my call to call out. In my months of working there I’ve only called out one time in the first month.
Monday though, Monday I really just said fuck it didn’t even try to call. So now I’ve fallen into an old habit. A rough one at that considering it’s how I went from working my first job after graduating into a full NEET after faking a whole month after only one month of actual work.
I did already plan to quit, I know this isn’t the way to go about it and the fact I didn’t actually *want* to be a cashier again I just needed a job so I wouldn’t get kicked out after being NEET for the second time in my life. It should also be said I think they took my no call as quit cause a coworker told the supervisor I said I was gonna quit if they keep taking forever to get someone to cover me to use bathroom and leave, not even just frequently but everyday. I didn’t actually tell him I would quit but that was the last day I actually worked so maybe that’s how they took it. My schedule on the app emptied out this weeks and the next two weeks are normal then the third is empty as well. So I don’t think I’m going back. I’ll basically do what I did before even if I have to fake a month again.
That’s really it, I’m probably gonna end up NEET again and I quit in the worst possible way. I’ll update again sometime

As a NEET I can't say this is very encouraging. After highschool I went to work in various factories and warehouses for at least 4 years so I know what it's like. None of them went anywhere. You spend 8-12 hours a day in a hot, filthy, noisy environment often lifting heavy objects for minimum wage, no benefits, no chance of a promotion or raise, and only the bare minimum legally required break time.

Sometimes I regret becoming a NEET but reading these posts has just done the opposite for me. It's reminded me of why I became NEET in the first place.

I hate being a NEET also though, I don't mean to encourage NEETdom. But if you can get a job in an office then please be grateful. I would love an office job of any kind. No matter how boring it is, as long as I am not breathing in toxic dust and sweating my ass off next to ex-convicts.

>>383
Honestly fuck amazon and all the other similar shitty warehouses, everything about that short part of my life was the most soul draining thing I've yet encountered. I'd get near run over almost daily and breaks were a total joke, I wouldn't even consider myself lazy.
I think I still developed a nostalgia for it though since I did get lucky enough to meet two people my age into otaku culture, I'm still sad sometimes that I accidentally ghosted them lol. The ex-convicts thing was also a kind of fun part for me though, there were at least lots of weird people you'd never see again to get talking experience or stories from.

>>250
Hey guys! Its me OP. Huge update in an hour hopefully

Okay so not so good news…

Basically Ive mustered up the courage to ask for a job at a local computer store. I went there today and anxiously asked for a job but I didnt get the job :(. Im really distraught and demotivated byt still I wanted to work there a lot for some time I guess Its not meant to be oh well. Im gonna try another store nearby I hope it works this time. I dont want to let this thread down a second time. Try and try until it works

>>416
Hope you make it. Failed a job interview a few months ago because I couldnt look the guy in the eyes…but we all get better with practice right?

>>416
>Basically Ive mustered up the courage to ask for a job at a local computer store.
it's for the better, sales jobs are brutal unless you're a sociopath / psychopath since your job is literally to lie all day

>>416
you aren't letting us down. I'm very proud of you for challenging yourself and trying

>>423
Thanks. I told the owner that I would prefer having a job in the back where I'd fix and build computers but I think he needed someone on the front desk. I'm not good at talking to people at all and obviously he picked up on that. I asked two other stores the day after I wrote 416 and both told me that they weren't hiring. I found 2 more stores (and one far away but seems promising. Might have to learn to take the bus for that but I'm willing) hope I update with good news next time!

>>423
Thank you, I really do appreciate still having this thread supporting me. On top of not being able to hold a convo for long I also didn't want to trick people and sell them junk. In a way I'm glad I didn't get hired over working to lie to people.

Have a good day guys. Slowly but surely we're making it.

>>425
I should mention, I was also really anxious on the first time I asked for a job at a computer store. Remember to collect yourselves before doing stuff like this, I got too excited and didn't think of it. Maybe I would've gotten the job perhaps? But that's not what I'll think of right now. I can't control everything and that's fine.

(also, correction I meant to reply to 424 on the second reply. to clear confusion)

>>417

>but we all get better with practice right?

Yes we do. I'm glad I know this first hand. I hope I've helped or motivated some of you to do so as well

>>250
Hope life is going well for you textile anon