No.10108[View All]
Since the old thread is deeply buried and seems to be auto-saged (I tried posting in it without sageing, but it didn't get bumped), I suppose I'll start up a new one.
Link to old thread:
http://uboachan.net/n/res/4186.htmlNEETs and non-NEETs alike, please share with us your experiences with drugs.
This weekend, I did another 300mg of DXM HBr after several months of sobriety. I originally intended to take 600mg, as that would push me up to the third plateau, but I decided against it for the time being. It was roughly as intense as my first trip, and lasted about as long. Here's the trip log, although it's a little sparse:
http://pastebin.com/57PjeVBGThis trip was different from the others; I didn't have nearly as many visions as before, nor did I have as many notably mind-warping experiences. I suspect this is because I was with two other people this time, and thus I opted to try and be as social as I could manage with them rather than isolating myself and floating amongst the hallucinations.
One thing that I found interesting was how I couldn't fall asleep despite the time of night (9:30 PM - 5:20 AM) and despite the intense feeling of sleepiness caused by the drug. Additionally, I confirmed that DXM makes my pupils dilate, although that wasn't terribly surprising.
I had a hangover again this time, but I seemed to expedite its passing by drinking lots of water, going on a slow-paced bike ride and exercising my balance (i.e. standing on one foot and sticking my other leg out), writing a short journal entry, and spending the rest of the day doing nothing mentally taxing.
The goal in doing all of that was to try and flush out the last bits of DXM in my system, to stimulate the parts of my brain that the DXM hit the hardest (muscle coordination, balance, and language processing), and to let my mind cool off after being pushed so hard. I don't know how much that helped to accelerate the passing of the hangover, but I'm feeling great today, so I suppose it didn't hurt.
No.11910
>>11908Same. I'd never do deliriants, but I frequented the board to read various posts.
P.S.
Uboachan need to fix their "automated post" checker.
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This post doesn't look automated at all. I'll even attach an image…
~If this post ever gets through it'd be a miracle.
~Maybe it'll let me post as a mod?
No.11912
Being drunk is great for about an hour, but a after that I just feel shitty the entire time. However, beer is all I can afford.
I saw a coworker sneakily reaching into his pocket, passing off something to another coworker in that handshake motion, then look both ways before going back to work. So I thought I might get in on this weed business if that's what he was all about.
TURNS OUT THEY WERE JUST BEING WAY TOO FUCKING CAUTIOUS ABOUT BUMMING CIGARETTES WHOOPS
I never smoked a lot of weed, but lately I have really been missing it. Wish I knew how to find some; dunno anybody who smokes.
No.11948
For 2 years I did cocaine.
I would waste 300US$ every weekend on it. As soon as I was fired from my job (for other reasons) I ended up dividing my money, "This is for food, this is for coke" I used to say; the first time it went well, but after the 2nd week the part that was going for food got smaller, and I started to bleed from the nose more often. I managed to stay awake for 3 days, doing nothing but coke, beer and cigarettes , every time I tried I would be sweating and not able to sleep but have nightmares while being awake, for example:
"I dream that I managed to sleep; my dealer comes to my home while I'm sleeping, he starts throwing rocks at my window so I wake up, the neighbors wake up too and ask him why he does that, he answers that I am a junkie, and that I have paid him with fake money".
"I dream that I die from a heart attack, and no one's there to help me." (This one is actually quite real, I actually felt that I had a heart attack).
"I start nose bleeding, and it doesn't stop, I choke".
All these dreams made me think about death and stuff, which would make think about suicide, about dying alone and if it was worth it to live.
After I wasted all my money, I spent a week at home, doing nothing but sleep, it was pure glory. My mother called me, she knew I was fired last month, a friend of mine told her, so she told me to stay at my parents' home, since I couldn't pay rent anymore.
This happened like last year, since then I've been playing videogames, watching animu and browsing the Internet. I stopped doing coke, since I don't leave the house, just to buy random stuff.
No.11950
Does anyone in this thread ever use "smart drugs"?
No.11951
>>11950What the hell is a "smart drug"?
No.11953
>>10359Lemme set you straight bro. You cannot snort hydrocodone, especially when mixed with acetaminophen. The acetominophen is the biggest problem because you have 750mg per 7.5mg active drug. So in essence what youre snorting is 1% drug, decreasing the already seriously low bioavailability of hydrocodone. And then you have the fact that hydrocodone needs to go through first-pass metabolism to transform into its more active metabolite, which at the peak of your high is pretty much all thats in your blood crossing the BBB.
No.11954
>>11945>When I moved to another town I visited a few flat-sharing communities that looked for
a new roommate. There is always some apartment full of lazy 20 year olds smoking pot.
No.11973
>>11970I smoke about a pack a year. So dunno if that counts. I also have a vape, but it needs cleaned or upgraded or something, everything tastes burnt.
No.11978
Amphetamines + cleaning your room is fucking awesome!
No.11982
>>11973What kind of vape do you have? If you have a volcano all you need to do is replace the ceramic piece. If you have a box vape, get a new hose and clean the heating element with some brillo pad.
No.11984
>>11982Joyetech eGo-T. Swapped the cartridge a couple weeks ago and worked fine for like a day, now back to the "burnt", for lack of a better term, feel to the vapor.
No.12052
Are there any legal prescription drugs that work like psychedelics?
I've been wanting to experience these stuff so much but I'm afraid the coppers are gonna bang on my front door.
No.12096
>>12092Neither of those are psychedelics though :/
>>12084>out of weed for real this timeThis has been an update
No.12099
>>12097I heard that a wild growing grass has dmt in it, but i didnt think that people would actually use it for extracting dmt.
This is certainly interesting.
No.12880
>>12096>Neither of those are psychedelics though :/Psychedelic dissociatives tho. Have you tried them?
No.12889
A fun thing I often do when going to bed is trying to keep conscious by forcing my eyes open. After a while your body will go stiff. Then your brain will slowly go to sleep mode. The sense of feeling won't work properly anymore which is funny. Also you'll start to see colours flashing around the room and if everything goes right the room will change into a bizarre dream version. It is freaky at first so you might wake up a few times and have to start anew.
No.12918
I've taken shrooms only two times in my life.
The last time, I experienced ego death and it was the most scary, yet wonderful thing I've ever experienced. I felt like I was everything, but nothing (as although I could feel my connection with the world around me, there was no "I" to be found. I was the couch, the table, that human-shaped piece of meat looking really stunned from shock and awe, but I wasn't "me" and the sum of my genetic traits and experiences that make me, me in an ordinary, sober viewpoint.) It was like being taken by an amazingly powerful being for a tour of the Universe, where I could cleanly see everything working as a huge piece of machinery as well as the causes and effects of everything.
This got me interested in determinism and after reading on the subject, I do not believe that we as a species have any free will at all. Just like any other animal, it's our genes and environment that condition us. A great lie has been fed to us as a species, that we're unique and amazing because we are intelligent enough to make tools and master fire and farm, that we're not the stewards of the world but owners, pure and simple, in that everything there is and ever will be belongs to us to be used as we see fit. We transform our environment for our own immediate pleasure without realizing that entire generations of our species will in turn be shaped by the environment they live in. It's literally human exceptionalism.
Although I am very much a loner, since that experience, I cannot help but feel intimately connected to my reality, not as a boss or master but as just another one of the tiny cogs that make it work.
I swore off hallucinogens since that experience as I want to carry it with me, always. Now I just smoke pot.
No.13099
>>13075"Ibogaine catalyzes an altered state of consciousness reminiscent of dreaming while fully conscious and aware so that memories, life experiences, and issues of trauma can be processed."
This sounds great. Makes one wonder why psychedelic therapy still doesn't get the recognition it seems to deserve.
Maybe it is not that easy like it sounds. Every time I read something about Psychedelic therapy it is some kind of magical substance the patient takes and sudden recovery. Leaving behind 5 Years of Therapy.
No.13104
>>13099Using drugs, especially psys, still has a strong stigma behind them. Because, yknow, hippies and lowlifes are the only ones that use them. R-right?
This sort of therapy is in no way easy, it lasts up to 4 days and you face your burried fears and harmful thought patterns which can be very agonizing. Its effectiveness is part exposure therapy [a very sudden and high dose] and part behavioral pattern reset.
No.13297
>>10108To any long-term DXM users, if you haven't tried it yet, I'd really suggest splitting up your dosage. For example, if you're taking 8oz, take the first 4oz, wait 45 minutes, then take the second. For me it makes a huge difference in the character of the experience, and has helped with the loss of strength due to tolerance.
If you split any dose higher than 720, sometimes the load can be a little too much at peak
No.13300
>>13075I'm kind of upset with myself because I did a thing like this with another very strong psy and after a few months it wore off and I was back to where I was. Makes me wonder about shamans and how different their lives would be without drinking plant medicine so often.
I really don't like having a crutch. Psys were kind of like my last resort and you could imagine my disappointment when I relapsed back into my old ways. I became completely hopeless, convinced nothing in this world could cure this disease.
All of this lead me into the paranormal and metaphysical realm, where I did research for a period of time and now I suspect that I may be possessed. I got a call from a medium a few years back out of the blue who knew my family and she said that someone a few generation back put a curse on our bloodline. Do I believe it? Hard to say. What if I go to a psychic and they exorcise me, but I stay the same? I cannot deal with that disappointment. I must maintain that there is a reason as to why things remain exactly the same for a decade despite actively trying to fix myself in every way possible.
Oh, another theory I read up on is something called soul loss… it is exactly that. It is said that a piece of a person's soul leaves them as a result of trauma, rendering the them devoid of their essence, something that is needed for a person to thrive in life and feel whole.
Are all of these just excuses? Am I doing something wrong. I'm inclined to believe this too.
No.13301
>>13300We can all lose our passion for life, I would assume many of us have and hence have become NEET, but it's an energy that is out there that we are able to recapture.. But we have to go in search of it..
>The journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step No.13302
>>13301I don't feel like my post was understood properly. The problem was not taking the first step, I actually took many, many steps. The disappointment comes from seeing absolutely no change as a result.
No.13480
So i bought so syrup and tripped after wanting to for a year. though i threw up about 45 minutes into it. I did however not drink the whole bottle and kept down the rest of it. It was a first plateau trip and was really fun.
http://pastebin.com/dKG31pNEhere's the log from it. my thoughts are all at the end.
No.13515
>>13075I know people who have used ibogaine to quit their heroin addictions. One of them relapsed and was back to daily use within 6 months (she ended up dying of an overdose), and the other has been clean for over three years now.
I've kind of considered doing it myself, being a long time user of opioids and as of a year ago a daily IV user; now with methadone daily on top. I'm in a corner. Trapped by my own choices of dependence.
but hey, at least I get a disability benefit for my addiction issues
No.13657
>>13649>>10279you see patterns where they are there. like I had LSD and I was walking past this old fort. (rockclimber here) I could see every foothold like it was painted with light. best analogy would be like eagle vision.
and then instead of moving freely through spaces, it's like you enter loading screens and suddenly appear on a new map.
No.14015
>>13965My friend got me stoned for my birthday and I ended up seeing fractals. Maybe it was my meds or something causing interactions, but it was actually pretty cool. Nothing unnecessarily bad happened to me (outside of derealization and such, but I'm talking pain or illness) and it actually kind of changed the state of my overall mood. That's something that's hard to achieve with BPD.
That said, even in the days I considered myself a stoner, my friends always would tease me about how much of an easy bake I was. I always was just a little higher than my friends, excluding the ones that actually had mental disorders. I also had a tendency to be really quiet and weird.
No.14027
How did you all find your dealers? It seems like it'd be such an awkward experience
No.14039
>>14027My brother. Kind of lucked out, I suppose. You can buy drugs online too.
No.14040
>>14027I hung out with the kind of people who did the drugs I wanted, and eventually I met the dealers. Most of the dealers I met were cool friendly people who just wanted to share a drug they liked.
