What's even the point anymore? I've basically given up. I've lost so many opportunities; some of them my fault, a lot of them pure circumstance. But how much more do I have left to give?People are unfriendly. All of those that share my interests are ei

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Anonymous 03/15/25 (Sat) 11:02:07 No.9338

What's even the point anymore? I've basically given up. I've lost so many opportunities; some of them my fault, a lot of them pure circumstance. But how much more do I have left to give?

People are unfriendly. All of those that share my interests are either autistics or just plain rude. I got called "terminally online" for asking for some normfag's discord handle (a site that I hate).

There's nothing to do around the city. Everything costs money. The streets are grimy and filled with the homeless. Housing costs keep going up. Nobody cares. The footpaths are choked with hideous invasive flowering weeds. The concrete is cracked and dirty. The infrastructure is accessible only to cars.

Why bother? There's not much point in leaving the house. But it's not much better inside than out. I try using mainstream socials, but everybody there is either unable to take criticism unless it goes with the flow of the community's zeitgeist, or is an American retard. And decent sites move too slowly to keep me occupied.

Why try? I'm enrolled for a once-a-week college course, starting this following week. But I don't see why I should care. I'll either do something stupid and get myself kicked out, or somebody else will.

I remember getting really sad a few years ago about the realisation that everything is ephemeral. Everything will eventually decay into entropy. I try to think about it every so often, but it's hardly motivating. What difference does it make if I try or not? Nobody will ever remember me either way.

It rained for a few days a little while ago.

I miss the petrichor.

Anonymous 03/16/25 (Sun) 02:12:29 No.9339

>>9338
If you don't mind me asking… what country are you from? I assume you're from Europe because of the "American retard" comment. I could be wrong though.

Your environment is a really big factor in your mental health. The everyone around you being unfriendly and living in dilapidated infrastructure part are telltale signs of poverty. That's probably where your depression comes from.

Remember if you ever want to get out your situation, it can only be through education. Education is what seperates people on the socioeconomic scale. You have to take greater pride in education, it serves a purpose in society. Think about what you want to do in life. When you find your focus, you'll start doing better in life. It's better than just rotting in imageboard threads.

Also, it helps to find a hobby or something. Good luck!

Anonymous 03/16/25 (Sun) 04:12:21 No.9340

>>9339
I live in Australia (England but hot and somehow even more miserable). I live in suburbia with my parents. It's not that I live in poverty, it's just that all of the public infrastructure (footpaths, parking spaces, parks) is grey and miserable after years of economic austerity.

I've tried going through educations systems, but, as I've said, what's the point? How much harder can I try?

The only hobbies I have are playing osu! and Minecraft, as well as drawing fat furries. I've tried socialising, but everybody is just so unfriendly, and I'm not outgoing enough to attract them to me.

Anonymous 03/18/25 (Tue) 02:43:31 No.9346

>>9340
>osu! and Minecraft
Are those the interests where people were unfriendly?
>grey and miserable after years of economic austerity
Yeah… I used to have a small terrarium to remind me what green looked like, it was nice

Anonymous 03/18/25 (Tue) 12:57:29 No.9348

>>9346
No. Card games

Anonymous 03/19/25 (Wed) 13:55:48 No.9351

I'm so alone.

There's no reprieve. I'm so alone. I want to cry. I'm a terrible person. We're all going to fade away into ash. I'm so alone. I hate myself. I'm useless. I'm so alone.

I wish I could find a rip of Persona 3 Reload online. Going to a normal high school is an experience I've never had and never will have.

I want a friend. I miss her.

Anonymous 03/19/25 (Wed) 22:11:59 No.9352

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>>9351
dw man we'll get a rip of reload eventually, much like every good thing in life, it is inevitable and worth surviving tomorrow for.

Anonymous 03/20/25 (Thu) 02:46:41 No.9353

>>9352
There's something so beautiful about the samples used by the music. I tried Portable, but the washed-out colours and lake of overworld models for the hero made it feel surreal and hard to connect with. Same with FES. But Reload feels real. And the theming of the water, the feeling of endlessly falling upwards, is beautiful.

Anonymous 03/24/25 (Mon) 04:25:18 No.9370

Dropped out of uni AGAIN

Anonymous 03/24/25 (Mon) 05:44:08 No.9371

>>9370
i feel for you… do you want to talk about it?

t. persona 3 guy

Anonymous 03/24/25 (Mon) 07:09:10 No.9372

>>9351
It's hard. Sometimes I'm strangled by loneliness. I understand where you're coming from, and if there was a remedy I'd be all for it. I guess we just need to bank on the hope that everything washes out eventually.

Things are looking quiet this month. Another morning slouching toward Gomorrah.