/hikki/ - NEET / Advice

Welcome to real life, I hope you had fun.

There
is
no
escape

real life sucks

I stopped going to school as of this week. Back to the NEET.

Welcome to the rice fields, motherfucker

Do you really want to have absolutely nothing to accomplish? I get that on a larger perspective, life is essentially "meaningless" but while you're living it there are certain joys to accomplishing goals.

>>780
I didn't want to come off as attacking, by the way. I'm just trying to lay down a perspective for you to continue living your life. You may want right now to be a NEET, but I'm not sure it's really best for you in the long run.

Believe me, man… This part happens to everybody. Lasts longer for some than it does others, but it never lasts forever. Right now you're just going through the toughest part of going back into society. And it has nothing to do with you; it's just from being isolated for so long. Just remember to keep on telling yourself that the panic is normal, and that it won't last forever.

>>782
bingo. It's totally normal to feel a little panicky for the first few weeks of changing your lifestyle.

>>674
When I'm a neet the mental stress and pressure from my parents makes me want to work, then when I get work I want to be a neet again. But I can't, because I know that being a neet will be worse. I stare at the calendar multiple times a day counting down the weeks left until my contract ends, but I know that the moment it does I'll have to find work again. Life is absurd, but what can you do.

>>674
I get the feeling. I'm not a hikki anymore and haven't been for the past year and a half or so. I had gone from being a neet for four years living off my mom to still living off my mom but now in college. I'm doing very well in school especially since I taught myself to program while a neet as a way to feel like I'm not useless. I somehow got an internship last summer and am now working with a professor writing code for them.
To be honest, I don't know how I feel. I hated being a neet and it caused me constant stress so I'd work constantly at little projects hoping that it would get me somewhere in life. I guess it's working but I have this constant pressure to succeed and to be perfect so that I don't revert back to being a neet. It's also incredibly painful to still have to rely off my mother despite being in school.
I don't want to be a neet again. It made me feel depressed, shitty, and useless. Now that I'm not a neet, I feel an intense fear of failure in addition to depression and feelings of uselessness. I wanna wish for something but I don't know what… I guess I just want everything to stop.

>>782
your posting is quite accurate. I was neet for nearly 3 years. Mostly in isolation. Found a job again in september and I have been there for nearly half a year now. It still feels tedious sometimes to get up early and actually do something the entire day. Sometimes I also feel like quitting again because I am so weak. I mean, the job itself is comfy and the people are nice to me but I just feel like nothing matters anymore and I might die as well tomorrow and nothing would be different. Pay is also okay for me but I have nothing to spend it on as I lost joy in pretty much all my former hobbies.

I am not sure if this phase will end eventually just as you described. I mean, beeing neet has ruined me completely. It is like tasting a drug and then always longing for the feelings you felt on your first hit. Forever hoping you will experience it again. It was not that exciting to be neet but I really enjoyed the freedom and carelessness I had. I could oversleep and spend half a day in front of the screen and still have time to go for a walk in the park or work out. When you spend your entire day with work or work related stuff you never have the time for anything and even if you did, you would most likely be too tired. Then on weekends you sleep until 11am, go to a fast food place for lunch and half the day is already over.

NEET life just felt like one giantic vacation. Like when I was a kid and we had summer vacation just without ending after a few weeks. I would love to be neet again but I also understand that it would not be good for me so I will stick with this job at least for a few years. Might also save up money for my next neet vacation.