>>6375>If you do not desire a normalfag life why bother trying to gain one and if you do ask yourself why.
its getting hard to live a quiet life as i get older and make more connections and get more friends, i'm always rationally geared toward taking every opportunity but it drives my feelings further into a corner and i'm left with regret
more than anything, it feels like i'm starting to become not me
I believe that society enforces ideas that being asocial is bad, or that killing yourself is bad, because that would be detrimental to society. The way this whole system works is that people have to be conditioned to fit into it, and once those ideas are internalized since childhood everyone will repeat them "contribute to society" "dont kill yourself" etc.
Everyone wants us to put our own desires aside for the sake of society, and say that it is because of altruism, but really it is nothing more than their need to enforce conformity.
I should note that I don't think killing yourself is always the right choice, but that choice should be your own and it should be respected.
Perhaps being hikki makes us more aware of these things because when we socially isolate ourselves we are not under the constant barrage of inculturation that people usually are.