honestly I just feel awful, I just want some friends to hang out with and some money to live decently, nothing too crazy
Very very similar situation to you anon in almost every way, except for doing well in college. I'm just trying to devote the frustration to art as much as I can because I find that the short moments where I'm fully immersed in making things is where I'm happiest.
Same here.>No friends>no bf>a part of my family left the country years ago and the only person I can talk to is one of them.
She doesn't really read my messages so I'm stuck like this until I off myself or recieve a miracle. The latter is not going to happen.
My only chance for a 'social life' was ruined by this shitty attempt to destroy the economy.
So what do I do?
I can't bear this crap anymore, I just want to rest.
Can't you follow that part of the family who left the country? You would be reunited with that person and could have a fresh start.
Sorry to ask, but I'm curious (feel free to ignore the question if you don't want to reply). How are you trying to get friends on the internet? What problems did you face when trying to bond with people?
Perhaps if you explain your situations people can give you some insightful advice.
I've had problems talking with people and making friends IRL but I always had an easier time talking with people online (and made my first friends on the internet). Most of the time it seems to me like people who don't "fit in with others" usually look in the wrong places, but it's not limited to that.