>>5623About the fictional character romace stuff: My immediate answer would be "go outside and meet some cool people" (as feelings for fictional characters WILL get you nowhere, and maybe even drag you deeper into the rabbit hole), but given the semi-hikki state you're in , I'd recommend you try to make some friends while doing something you like, be it playing games online or taking up some sort of hobby. I know, advices like mine probably have been said a million times on this board by people that don't really understand how a hikki lifestyle is like, but as someone who is a huge introvert and extremely shy when talking to most people outside a VERY small circle of close friends, that's the best advice I can give you.
Social interaction and making friends is like any other activity, if you practice - and fail - enough, you'll eventually succeed and get better at it. Don't fear failing, fear never learning due to never trying.