>Most of the time even the simplest messages contain grammar errors, are unfinished, and sometimes even completely unrelated to previous ones. As for the real life conversations, they share most of the same problems but it's accompanied by stuttering and similar speech impediments.If this is something relatively recent, you might want to consider doing a blood and hormone test. Certain vitamin and other chemical deficiencies will take a huge toll on your concentration, memory and general-well being in a simple and straightforward way that no amount of conversing with a therapist will be able to fix.
I'm saying this because I had (still have, actually) the exact same symptoms that you describe. While trying to write quickly during any live chat my mind just randomly blanks out every now and then, and I end up writing any word that mechanically comes to me instead of what I was actually planning to, leading to a constant streak of mistakes. For example, I'm talking about a theatrical play, but instead I automatically write 'player' because, obviously, I play video games and use that word incredibly often when talking about other people who do the same. Same thing happens with grammatical lexemes, writing 'ed' instead of 's', even with nouns.
Anyway, other than that I'd also noticed that my short-term memory and cognitive, as well as motor skills had gone to shit in the past two years, did a test and lo and behold - I have thyroid problems. My case is pretty mild, but going through some testimonies online people in a more critical state get actual blanks in memory. Letting it get to that point seems like a terrifying proposition.
>>5219>I am as well. I researched this a little and I think that people like us naturally become what I call "autistoid" because of bad parenting, bad genetics and bad environment. We adopt habits and self desfense mechanisms that resemble autism but in reality we are just too afraid to get hurt or do something stupid and get laughed at. Keep in mind that legit autism begins in childhood already. If you were "normal" back then, you probably are not autistic.Hm, I think about this a lot. My social skills are pretty sad, I miss a lot of nuances in conversation, things that I always notice a few moments too late, I fail in controlling the tone and colour of my voice, leading to monotone questions and questioning answers, etc. etc. But then again, I DO pick up on clues that aren't as obvious, just often choose to ignore them, I like speaking metaphorically rather than literally and I read too much into shallow things. It feels like most of the negative aspects weren't there during my childhood. It makes me think I'd simply not had enough practice, that I could've learned to socialize better if only I'd actually socialized.
But it's also entirely possible that I've forgotten about the autistic things I did as a child because I had barely any self-awareness. After seeing some old home videos and thinking long and hard, I can see that there somehow was something odd in my conduct, some kind of social stupidity and weird body movements, and I can recall certain embarrassing tantrums, but I have no idea if this was normal behaviour, considering my age.
