I’m not sure if this is what you wanted OP, but I’ll post it.
I have social anxiety, and even though I’ve been making progress I still feel held back on almost everything even remotely involving people, even though I really want to be able to be with people and overcome this. Since humans are social creatures, for most things humans do you will have to be around other people, so it’s really screwed if you can’t properly socialize. To start I would want to make new friends but how would people accept to be friends with someone like me, most eventually caught up on my awkwardness and dismiss it as me disliking them or that I’m too stupid. I want to play games online but just the thought of having to talk to other players scares me away from it. I wouldn’t mind meeting someone to love but being how I am most people will think I’m weird or an asshole. I would love to live in another country, or just change city, even if just for some months, but how can an awkward person survive outside of their comfort zone when they already are as they are in the comfort.
I was once invited to be part of an animal association here where I live but I refused, even though I’ve always wanted to be part of one, because I get cold sweats knowing I’d have to be around groups of people during the activities.
Right now I can’t even create an account on online places because that means talking to people with an identity, even if an online identity, so I just stay around places that let me talk in anonymous. There are so many things I would like to do.
I gave up playing violin because high season started and each class there were too many people for me to freely enjoy it. I really regret it. Playing violin felt like I finally had a voice, felt as if I was talking free of any impairment.
I know this is all stupid and I’m sorry to everyone that reads this, but I want to let anyone that is in a similar situation to mine know that it can get better. I was much, much worse. At least now I’m able to work even though it is in an office with very few people, and can participate in chitchat in a normal way long enough to avoid people immediately catching up that something is weird in me. If even I managed to become mildly functional, I believe others can too.>>4534
Maybe talking about needing camping buddies in sites about it can help you find other people that wouldn’t mind joining you. Isn’t there any place where you live that organizes activities for people to join? Where I live there are youth centers, and tourism posts, that sometimes organize travels, excursions and the like for anyone to join. Some camping establishments, hostels, travel agencies, and even bus companies sometimes put together things like camping trips to gain clients. Sure it wouldn’t be the same as with buddies, but maybe you would met cool people with whom to go with a next time. Good luck, OP.