/hikki/ - NEET / Advice

That sounds fucking horrible.

No, this doesn't happen to me because I'm a very skeptical and grounded person. I like to think about why everything happens. I also like to believe that everything fell into the place that it did for some kind of explainable reason. Sometimes though, I do feel alienated from reality for a few seconds. I can't help but look at the mirror and see a stranger. It just seems so strange that I am who I am. Basic things like human anatomy seem so bizarre when I think about them. I'll look at my thumb and think, "what the fuck is this stuby thing". It's a pretty scary thought. I'd rather just be a disembodied consciousness. Thinking and looking at things are the only two things that I really like to do and wouldn't want to give up.

Stop being a fag

All the time.
Nothing is real for me.

It's called being lazy.

1) - If you feel so detached from life, how come you feel interested in doing anything minimally related to entertainment, namely browsing imageboards and even posting threads such as this? How come you feel interest in knowing what other people think about this/if they're experiencing something similar?
2) - Supposing I'm a person with extreme feelings of detachment, what makes you think I'd be willing to actually post, or even interact at all with others through threads such as this?

>>3705
Its not constant, it usually only happens for a few minutes at a time for me.

>>3703
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>>3703
I feel really disassociated and I am starting a small business

>>3705
When you don't like or are worried about part of yourself, you will naturally want to be understood and reassured by people who can understand you. No matter how dissociated you may be, everybody craves validation. "Yes op, I feel like this ALL the time. Would you like to start sucking each other's cocks to feel better", is what every single person on the planet wants to be told.

I have some experience with dissociation, depersonalization and derealization. I've always had brief moments of them in the past and apparently most people do. It is an alien state. You control your body like a puppeteer, everything looks like a documentary of your life, the world is distant. Nowadays I get those feelings during great exhaustion, at the station, after days of the same routine or in wide open places, even stronger when the area is artificial and empty.

years old post but whatever
i frequently experience derealisation and less frequently depersonalisation. it feels like real life is just a white void (think the armoury scene in the matrix for example) and this is just layered on top like a blanket but its not real and sometimes i press my finger into the walls or furniture expecting them to phase through because they are not real. during these times my surroundings usually feel like they look fake and artificial. in some cases my vision looks as if i am viewing through a fish eye camera lens

sometimes when outdoors i feel as if i am really at home and the outdoors are just a hallucination. in these moments i usually have to resist the urge to lay down on the pavement because i have to tell myself that i am really outside and i am not at home but i just cant shake the feeling. and thats what this really is, sometimes i genuinely believe that none of these things mentioned throughout but the majority of the time i know its wrong and this is real and i control my actions but i just cant shake the feeling and it wont go away

and sometimes i just dont feel my actions are mine. i feel they are robotic being performed automatically regardless of my mind. this happened earlier today and most often happens when outside going to the shop

something i feel may be related is i am sitting still and i feel like moving or getting up but i just cant do it and i keep sitting or laying perfectly still but could just be laziness desu
dead thread but i needed to get this out there

I'm in a perpetual state of (subdued) derealization. Wish I felt it stronger, actually. If I genuinely felt like none of this was real, it'd be easier to care less about trivial stuff.

Although, the depersonalization is much stronger. I think the feeling must be similar to what people who do certain drugs experience. I feel like people are actively immersed in their thoughts and their perception of who they are, and what this is. Sometimes I like to just watch my thoughts like they aren't mine, and it really feels like i'm just some foreign perspective watching a machine run on auto. When I think like that, all my actions feel completely predetermined – Simply a collection of fundamental particles governed by determined, albeit probabilistic, laws, and i'm merely a sentience along for the ride. I probably don't even exist.

>>6999
Forgot I made this thread. Time doesn't matter much here. Relate hard to your post, not the bit about fish eye but that's interesting because there's truth to that. If you look at a close bit of ceiling corner and a far bit they're at different angles. We just don't normally percieve it that way because it's more useful when straight lines are straight and not curved. But if you look at a drawing using that sort of perspective it looks curved. Merry christmas anon.

>>7012
Maybe.