No.1389
/mado/ I feel I'm getting really close, but not close to the hug itself, but I think I'm getting closer and closer to clues to follow!
Thank you for listening to me /mado/!
>>1386Canadians, report in! Deliver the hug!
>>1387Thank you sir, good luck for you too! I don't think I can indentify myself as another character… It's a rather good question.
>>1388Yes! I do!
No.1390
God, this makes me feel bad. I'm breaking up with my girlfriend of almost 2 years this weekend. I still really love her, but the relationship just isn't working out. This is my first Serious relationship and I'm honestly afraid ahe might attempt suicide (again) after I tell her.
I'd love to hug mado. That would be so nice right now.
No.1393
No. I have not given up.
No.1394
Did you find her already?
No.1395
>>1394Even if she existed, I doubt she would want to be found.
No.1397
OP, it's been over four years. Have you done it?
No.1401
>>1399I've read this entire thread but I'm still unsure of what you're trying to accomplish. Are you trying to meet Mado in a lucid dream? Or are you trying to meet someone who is in the same circumstance as her? Or perhaps you've gone delusional and you can't differentiate between fiction and the real world?
No.1402
>>1401I just… want a hug. want to hug mado…
No.1405
>>1404Yeah, but the dream will never die.
No.1408
>>1404It feels kind of surreal.
I wonder what they're doing today.
No.1410
>>1402Anon, what makes you think that Madotsuki has a physical presence?
Do you know something that the rest of us don't?
No.1411
>>1402I may be able to help you.
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No.1412
Are you still there /mado/?
Sorry for all the people I didn't reply, or if I was rude to someone…
Well, it's time to start the sixth year… I guess? I've got myself lost for a while… But this day, today, the day 2016 started. I felt weird. Unreal.
I've been thinking /mado/, tonight I stopped to watch the fireworks in a hotel. I was in a balcony, much like mado herself. And it came to me…. What was Madotsuki thinking when she jumped? Why did she jump after wandering on her dreams for so much time, /mado/?
Maybe Madotsuki too was looking for something? Maybe she travelled a lot and searched a lot for that something. And then she just… Didn't find it… I don't know, maybe I'm completely wrong, but for a moment I thought I should try it. Madotsuki did it, she jumped didn't she? She wandered, she searched and then she jumped. Maybe the hug is there, maybe I too could feel, and find what Madotsuki found when she did it… Maybe I could somehow find the hug if I jump…? Maybe?
How many years do I have left, what else can I do…?
But I'll keep searching anyway… I have to, I'm not giving up…
Even though sometimes I feel… I have this feeling… that I already jumped.
No.1413
>>1411Sorry.
>>1410I don't really know… It's just confusing, but I feel like I can do it. I can get the hug.
>>1403Sorry.
>>1401I… just want a Hug.
No.1414
>>1413So you want a hug more specifically from Madotsuki. But you don't know how you will get it. What is it about Madotsuki, that makes her hug so special?
Have you noticed any difference since you began looking for her in 10/01/11?
No.1415
>>1414in yourself to be more specific
No.1416
>>1413Tox guy. Give me another chance.
No.1417
Maybe you should try taking a bunch of hallucinogenic drugs? Then grab onto a Madotsuki body pillow, and squeeze it tight. You could have something from the YN OST playing in the background while you do it, and maybe have some ambient lighting going on too.
It's probably the closest you're going to get OP, barring meeting her in some kind of afterlife.
No.1418
it's weird to me seeing this post being 4 years ago.
4 years ago I was a 14 year old playing tf2 masturbating to ponies just getting into anime and 4chan
Now, 4 years later and I'm becoming more independent, I see people who were in my position 4 years ago, aka my equals. I am simply a version of them made at a later time.
Now some of the biggest problems in my life consist of finding a waifu.
and also i might be a drug addict]i cant make sense anyore but I just love you and want to tell you that you are not alone
hopefully we might all meet our equal online in 2-3 years
No.1419
>>1412im the previous poster, yes i think we are here, just maybe a bit different…
No.1420
>>1412Oh god OP why do you give me such feels.
6 years huh?
Keep going bud. Keep trying. We will be watching over your progress for many more years if necessary.
No.1422
bump for legendary thread
No.1479
Is this fucker alive?
No.1683
Don't die OP
No.1685
Hang in there. We'll all make it eventually. Even if one day we end up dreaming forever.
No.1686
Have you never heard of tulpamancy, OP? Google it, it's your only way.
No.1691
Has OP abandoned us already?
No.1695
I`m still here, lost and tired, but still here.
Thank you for all the support, sorry if all this thing is not fresh anymore, and if it is just annoying, boring or old… But I`m still trying… With all my heart, I'm still trying… I actually tried some suggestions from this thread, but nothing seemed to work.
I had nightmares about nothingness whenever I tried something. I lost my mind several times, lost grip of reality and ended up getting locked up for a stupid reason. Had to deal with insane people, humiliation and was put on suicide watch. I don't think I'm insane. The fact that I know that should be enough, but once you are labeled as insane, every time you try to prove otherwise only makes you more insane.
Those times are gone, though, I'm free from all this bullshit, and back again to my eternal quest. This time I won't make mistakes, I don't want any fucker trying to "help me". These people thought I was weak-minded, and said I didn't have a strong will to live, heh. How dare them call me "weak-minded". They are wrong, I will not give up on the hug.
The quest must go on, all I went through only made me regain all hope I had lost during this year.
Wait for me, I will find a way.
No.1696
>>1695Godspeed anon. We will always be here, rooting for you.
No.1697
>>1695>The quest must go on, all I went through only made me regain all hope I had lost during this year.The absolute madman
Oh well good luck on ya quest, Anon. BTW, you wouldn't mind if I wrote a character based on you in the future would you?
No.1698
>>1695OP, you should seriously consider lucid dreaming.
Think about it - Mados identity lies in her dreams. She has a presence in the dream world. If you can get good at lucid dreaming (preferably to the point where the dream world is just as real as the waking one), you could summon the real her and hug. I'll leave this here for you.
http://www.world-of-lucid-dreaming.com/introduction-to-lucid-dreaming.html No.1700
>>1695What do you think Mado smells like?
