i dont know. I feel like it's over completely. i feel so low. i want to draw, but I don't feel any happyness or fufillment anymore, I'm just pissed that im not good enough. someone else would have made a bigger impact if they had what i have. why do i have

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Anonymous 10/26/24 (Sat) 08:13:59 No.5496

i dont know. I feel like it's over completely. i feel so low. i want to draw, but I don't feel any happyness or fufillment anymore, I'm just pissed that im not good enough. someone else would have made a bigger impact if they had what i have. why do i have it? I make shitty use of my shitty ability. I don't know why i feel this way. I'm just so sick of failing and not being enough. I just wish I could be proud of what I make

Anonymous 10/26/24 (Sat) 08:15:50 No.5497

i feel defeated, im too tired. im so sick of this. i feel like crying because that's how pathetic i am

Anonymous 10/26/24 (Sat) 08:36:01 No.5498

i used to think that if i tried hard and practiced a lot, i could be proud of my art, and i could make other people happy. im not going far anymore, i dont find the joy in it. i havent spoken to any of my friend in months, i feel like i dont deserve it. i dont have the dedication to improve. How am i supposed to improve? i wanted to get better for their sake. but now it's just a waste. I know people who wish they could do what I could do. the world is so stupid. why give me this? why this? Now I know it's not possible to be good anymore. I know now that it was just a stupid childish dream. I'll never reach the levels of the artists that I admire. I was never supposed to do anything great. I was doomed to mediocrity. i dont know what to anymore but it doesnt matter. i'll just give up everything because everything was all for nothing in the end.

Anonymous 10/26/24 (Sat) 08:38:45 No.5499

Are you self taught? Maybe it’s good to take some time out to clear your head?

Anonymous 10/26/24 (Sat) 09:06:03 No.5500

>>5499
i wanted to learn how to draw so i looked at some tutorials and practiced. right now, i can't help but feel like i'm not cut out for it. i'm nowhere near where i want to be.
I think i really do need some time to clear my head, but i dont know how. I just obsess over drawing and make myself do it when im tired. i can't not think about it.
when i look at a nice artwork, sometimes i'm excited because i think i can get to that level someday, other times i'm depressed because i'm not at that level yet. Every piece of media i consume, i can't help but think how it would be if i did something like that, or if I made it. I can't do anything without thinking of art. I can't play games without thinking of making games of my own, i can't read manga without thinking of creating something myself. I can't watch yt videos because i feel like they're pretentious? Why am i like this??

Anonymous 10/26/24 (Sat) 16:20:37 No.5501

>>5500
Well there you have it, you just looked up some tutorials, that's not where it ends, you need to consume more educational material to improve, practice alone won't take you there, you're not "doomed", you simply need to learn what you don't know.

tl;dr watch more tutorials