No.5467
I get your feeling.
Back in the days, i enjoyed drawing and it was pretty much the only real hobby i had for years. I had a lot of support from my friends and family.
Then i met a girl and we started going out. She was way better than me at art and already won several prizes at local and even national drawing contests. I feeled like a huge fraud, but this alone wasn't enough to make me quit.
One day, i showed her one of my latest work and she laughed. She told me to quit already, to stop trying doing a thing i wasn't made for. We stayed together for nearly two years then we broke.
17 years later, i've yet to use a pencil again and my old Wacom tablet is still stored in its box.
Sometimes, when i doodle for my 5 years old son, my wife says "hey, you're good, why aren't you drawing more often ?".
Sure, wanting to improve yourself and setting high goals is a good thing, but if you love what you're doing, just don't mind what the others think about it as you may lose something important to you.
No.5468
So, let me reformulate in a less TL;DR way : if you're really passionate and honest about what you're doing, you're by no means a fraud.
No.5469
>>5468This made me feel a lot better. Something I do know is that the fear of rejection comes from a desire to change and be better. That desire is not something the everyday person has, and I think it's beautiful(?) in some weird way.
Thank you for telling me about your art too. It sounds tough being with someone who tells you off for following your passion. I hope I can do the complete opposite. Maybe one day I can inspire people to draw or follow the things that make them feel complete. I just want to make people feel… things in the end.
No.5470
>>5469The irony is that i finally gained a little bit of notoriety (not in art, though) when i stopped caring about what the others could think about my work and published things i just wanted to share.
Even if you're not the best artist out there, be honest and inspiring, i think it will be more than enough (even if unfortunately, social media like twitters are full of toxic people wanting to hurt you just for sport).
That's the first time ever i confessed this story to anyone other than a few close friends, i'm really happy if the experience i've drawn from this old wound can help someone feels better.
