>>13578Yeah. It just kinda happened. I tried to convince myself that we were completely different and other negative things that I remembered them doing but it didn't help.
For example, I was in the same class with them in 10th grade and they completely shaved their hair and eyebrows outta nowhere. That was really weird to me and I thought that they were going through some weird shit so maybe my feelings would disappear.
But they didn't.
Also, they smoke weed (doesn't really matter right? but it was a complete shocker given how extroverted they are (i. a. they're ALWAYS happy and making jokes really don't seem like the type to get involved with drugs but obviously "don't judge a book by its cover" or whatever).
And there have been many issues with drugs that have lead to loss in my family so I try to avoid them at all costs and I thought, unconsciously, maybe my feelings would disappear after finding out he smokes weed? Nope.
So its been a big complicated journey of confusion and anger.