No.13454
Use stainless steel only. An old box cutter could have microscopic rust that could set up infection in your arm months to tens of years later. Better yet, don't do it. You'll get the same endorphin high taking a hard run. I used to cut, too.
No.13455
I've never seen the appeal in cutting one's self. I'm just curious, but why do people do it? I've known a couple of people to do it solely for attention.
>>13454I'm pretty weak and I have a couple of weights at home, so when I'm mad/annoyed with something I'll feel like destroying my body, so I'll work and push myself to the limit. I love feeling sore the next day. It's really satisfying to know that I've done something beneficial.
No.13457
I did when I was in my early teens purely because of fascination. I like inner workings of bodies, that includes things like imagery of bones, organs and blood and blood was something I could draw without too much pain or permanent damage.
I would draw with it. Mum found the drawings. Shit was awkward. She firmly believed I was a satanist for years and honestly that's probably better than explaining the real reason to her.
I don't remember what exactly I used, but I think it was scissors and a razorblade. The cuts weren't deep generally, but I did go too deep a couple times and had to wear bandages.
Ultimately, cutting is a sub-par choice when it comes to making your pain go away/distracting yourself. There are much more effective and less visible/dangerous ways to do it. You can lose yourself in hobbies, other external stimuli like sport [like the other anon said] or if you need skin contact, things like hot showers, salt scrubs or drawing on yourself. If it's not a habit yet, don't make it one.
No.13458
>>13455OP here. I started doing it because it's one of the only ways to make myself feel something. When I'm alone with nothing to do and nobody around all I can think about is how other people are just distracting me from the real me, who is a sad wreck not fit to leave the house let alone socialize with other people. From doing it so far, cutting myself helps me remind myself that I'm just a person, that I'm alive. It gives me a way to have some kind of control over my life that I can't get anywhere else. It makes me feel better knowing that I can still feel something other than apathy.
Mostly I just want other people to commiserate with about it. I know I shouldn't be doing it but I almost feel like I deserve it for being so pathetic. I don't care if other people see it, I'm not doing it for attention, I'm doing it for myself. There are alternatives I'm sure.
No.13459
Usually I either take shower/bath or destroy a useless object around the house.
>>13458Which manga can I find that picture
No.13462
>>13458I think you're going the wrong way about it. The pain from cutting will distract you from how you feel about yourself, but the marks afterwards will remind you of how messed up you are. In general, cutting will always lead to a 'loop' which keeps you down and feeling bad about yourself, and dissociated from others.
Stopping yourself from cutting shouldn't be about knowing you "shouldn't be doing it". If you ever plan on getting out of this feeling of misery (which you should be, in general, as no one enjoys being depressed) cutting should be the first thing you cut out of your life (I'm so sorry.)
Pick up a hobby, or as some other anon suggested go running. That should get you some stability and satisfaction. If you get 'urges' to cut, get some squishy toy and press on it hard.
Also, making a thread asking and talking about cutting and then saying you're doing it entirely for yourself feels a bit disingenuous.
I've had this talk with so many people that it just feels strange. Just stop doing it and find something that keeps you occupied. Go to a therapist. Get better as time goes on. It's a long process, might as well start it now.
If you need more help, I'll check this thread in a day or 2. I don't usually check the boards much.
No.13468
I've self harmed to varying degrees for a while. When I was a kid, I used to bite my thumb really hard when I got angry with myself or with things in general, I have a faint mark on my thumb from it now.
When I was 15, I was super depressed that my two friends I'd known since I was young randomly stopped doing anything with me, parents were constantly fighting then broke up and I was confused about a lot of stuff. I was like that for a pretty long time, one night I randomly took a pair of scissors and started scratching my arm with it, then from there on I started getting rougher and cutting. I'll be 22 soon.
It used to be a thing I'd think about, but now it's just impulse when I'm angry. If there's nothing like scissors around then I just use dig my nails into my hand, etc. Obviously it's not good, but I don't think it's as bad as some people act, unless you're going very deep, etc.
No.13469
I scratch my arms and hands and dig my nails in my palms when I'm nervous or angry.
I do it simply on impulse and I pretty much don't realize my actions until I feel the ripped skin under my nails and notice I'm bleeding.
No.13473
>>13458Ah, thanks for the explanation; I can sort of relate. When I was the most depressed I'd ever been I too wanted to feel something, anything at all. I listened to sad music all day, tried to find the saddest anime/manga to read and just tried to get myself to cry. Feels great to cry it out.
No.13479
I did… Not to deep to need surgery, but deep enough to have a visible scar.
I discovered that the pain only disappears for a while, maybe substituted by physical pain but it's not really the solution.
No.13497
Whenever I get the urge to self-harm, I just masturbate. Try that anon.
No.13498
>>13489>Suffer to feel goodOkay
No.13499
>>13498Hey kiddie, don't criticise that which you don't even attempt to understand, and probably will never understand anyway.
No.13500
>>13498Sometimes the suffering does feel good when your brain is out of wack. And I mean, let's face it, neets and hikkis are almost always depressed. It's better than grabbing a knife and killing their family or something.
No.13502
>>13499>Kiddie>Not giving an adult answer like >>13500 and using rectus as flamethrower instead.>>13500Well if not hurting others is the case I suppose it could be.
No.13504
>>13503But it did, kiddie, thinking about
>Feel bad to feel goodafter reading your post is perfectly normal, not everyone has the same experiences in life and the obvious for you can be trivial to others.
By perfectly normal I mean it's easy to think that way, and I still do, except for cases like the other anon said, if you just want to avoid hurting others.
No.13506
>>13505lol if you think anyone who actually cuts themselves is bothered by this petty edit
What's the point in making fun of it anyway?
No.13507
>>13506>lol if you think anyone who actually cuts themselves is bothered by this petty editFirst, you obviously didn't see the first image which either explains you're relatively new or don't come here too often as to understand the joke around this.
Second, your post can be translated as:
>Jokes are not allowed here.That is even more petty in my opinion.
>What's the point in making fun of it anyway?What is the point of any joke, anyway?
Also, I made this post
>>13469Are you happy now that I literally had to explain it was a joke even when it was obvious?
No.13508
>>13498When you feel like shit all the time then why not? Endorphins feel nice and a heroin high feels god like.
No.13509
>>13508You know you can just do sports, eat chocolate or fap
No.13510
>>13509Not
>>13508Sports takes effort, chocolate would be too sweet and fapping requires energy.
No.13511
>>13509>Do sportsDo you even know where you are?
No.13512
>>13511Pretty sure even a NEET could manage a jumping rope or a couple dumbells.
No.13520
I would cut myself, but I'm afraid of people seeing it while the cuts are healing. I know they would assume that I need help and that seeing my arms or legs or whathaveyou would be a cry for help from me but it wouldn't be like that at all. If I did it it'd be for my own satisfaction.
No.13521
>>13517When you feel like cutting, grab a marker and start drawing on your arms or legs or whatever instead.
No.13592
I used to cut with my Swiss army knife on my arms and thighs, deep enough to bleed but not enough to cut arteries or veins.
I was depressed and lost, I was angry at myself for ending up a loser. The physical pain was a distraction from how awful and fucked up I mentally felt.
I'm still attracted to the idea of destroying myself so I just took up smoking when I had the chance to.
No.14050
Reviving this thread cause I want to talk about it some more.
I used to cut a little, but now most of my self harm involves digging my fingernails into my skin or biting myself. Obviously not as harmful as cutting but I haven't really recovered. I've been thinking about going back to full on cutting just because I don't know, its relieving in a sense? I exercise and everything but it doesn't really replace self harm for me, theres a quality to it I haven't found in anything else, it just helps me let out frustration even if it isn't healthy at all.
No.14122
I cut myself, it doesn't make me feel better but it keeps me alive so w/e
>>13507Nearly 3 month old post I'm responding to here but I'd like to remind everyone here that jokes are usually funny
No.14126
I used to do it during a major depressive episode, about 6 months. Not routinely, it happened a few times, but since I'm a serious boi, I went deep and "retouched" the old cuts after they'd healed. I used steel razor blades.
The scars have faded but some are still there (after 1.5 years) and will probably never go away.
It was a game of self-hate and, in a way, a competition with myself: can you go deeper this time? Ha ha, you can't just slit the veins? What a loser.
It also felt good. It let my mind wander, for once. It was fun to look at the blood drop, immerse myself in the colours, the sensations. And the physical pain was much better than the emotional pain. It was the best thing ever.
Then came the nasty part. Cleaning up, bandages, self-loathing, etc.
Sometimes I want to do it again but then I think about how much of a hassle it is to take care of the cuts. The high is pleasant, but the aftermath kinda sucks.
No.14172
I find self-harm scars cute. I'm not really sure why. But I have for a long time, and at one point some years ago got a few girls I knew from forums and one from 4chan to send me pictures of theirs. Not that I was intending to encourage it or anything; for the most part they were no longer even doing it and the one who was was my best friend at the time, me being a NEET that only really talked to other anons, and was only doing it as a sort of favor, for what that was worth, and she was and still is the perpetually bored type that just does outlandish shit to feel something, and self-mutilation was a natural extension.
I'm really not sure why I find them cute. I feel a little as if I should have guilt over it, but I don't, because I don't think it's for a bad reason.
Is it a bad thing in itself though?
Not meaning to be edgy, I'm honestly curious. I've felt the urge to ask someone for a long time but, well, an odd thing to.
No.14174
>>14172Well it seems you encourage that kind of behavior anon.
Self harm is not cute or cool.
No.14741
sorry for necro
just wondering, if i were to bleed out in a bathtub, would it stain the tub?
No.14744
I cut myself four or five times now, about a week in between each time.
It feels pretty good most of the time, sometimes just okay or meh. When I cut myself for some reason it feels very relieving and it feels like all the anger and sadness is just pouring out of the wound.
No.14746
I have been attempted too but I've never done it.
Because for me my mental anguish is strong enough that cutting would barely do anything.
I'm also afraid of my own blood and just my own.
No.14767
>>14741i think it would depend how long the blood was left there
No.14773
i used to
now i just photoshop the scars out of my model photos :^)
No.14777
I would if I wasn't afraid someone else would see the scars
No.14795
I used to, on numerous occasions. It was mostly with whatever razor I could find; not very deep, but I'd make a lot of them and in places where I knew I would bleed more, although I eventually had to switch to more discreet places like the tops of my thighs. I don't ever recall having a consistent reason behind any of my binges besides a lack of impulse control and selective pain reception, both likely stemming from a pervasive inability to stay grounded in reality. I wouldn't really call it a desire to "feel real," though. I'd do it for a number of reasons, depending on the situation, but the method was always the same (unless I was particularly desperate.)
I think a common reason, though, is the sense of punishment it gave, as well as - oddly enough - the cleanup afterwards. I always did it so precisely, sterilizing the razor and cleaning it afterwards, and then bandaged my wound up properly as well. I used to really like the burn of rubbing alcohol, and I'd heard hydrogen peroxide actually caused more harm than good on wounds, so I'd always use that to disinfect it. I liked the dull burning pain of walking around with a healing wound that had been bandaged up, and disliked whenever it'd go away. It felt nice to be reckless, yet calculated. I had control, but I simultaneously didn't. I'd struck an odd sort of balance that I lacked everywhere else in my life, and it was all by my own hand.
…This turned out a lot more pretentious and morbid than I'd hoped it would, sorry.
No.14834
>>14832Please do not cut yourself; there are methods of escapism that do not involve long-lasting scars.
No.14835
Why would you do that??
No.14839
>>14834i messed up a long time ago, the scars i have aren't gonna go away so i might as well add to the collection
No.14840
>>14839Sorry, but that's bull. Scars aren't limitless. Adding more only increases your chances of getting seriously hurt.
I mean, that's like saying, "Oh I've already lost one arm. No harm is cutting off my leg now."
Please stop while you're still breathing.
No.14841
>>14839Hey, I have the same kind of scars and I can assure you they disappear slightly thanks to the passage of time. Sure, it may have taken 4 years for them to be a lot less notorious but still.
No.15037
Pretty depressed the last few months and not really giving a fuck about anything anymore.
Thinking about buying some razor blades tomorrow and trying out cutting
No.15044
I only do it three times in my life.
1. My "friends" make fun of me. "lol anon, u r rlly stupid sometimes, llololol, hey fagfriend, do u remember when anon say something rlly stupid? i think shes retarded or something lolol", I cut myself in the bathroom with my scissors. They were my friends in middle school, but I graduate of middle school and actually im in high school; theres no one of them there. I have two little scars, they are not visible but you can notice them.
2. This was because my brother (22 years old) touch me and I don't like being touched and he knows it, so when he do it I punch him? but my nails were a little long, so I made a little small in his finger; and was bledding a little and go to our mom and says "moooom, anon cut me!!!!!!!" and mom go with me and asks "why u cut your brother?!" and my brother makes a scene and blablabla. So, because of this, I was in despair and I was thinking: "So that little cut hurts to you? You will see a really cut." So when I was alone in my room, I cut myself with my own nails. I was bledding, but I did not care. Theres two scars, because I was cutting myself with the index and middle finger. But the scars are not really visible now.
3. The same situation of the first.
So, I'm not cutting myself now. The last cut was like… in march?
But when I was cutting myself, was because I was feeling despair. And that despair makes me cut myself for feel something, feel something to forget your despair.
By the way, when I'm feeling nervous or I'm having a panick attack, I scratch myself, I scratch my arms, my neck, my hands…
Sorry If the english is bad. It's not my first language, so I would appreciate if you told me that I have a mistake or something.
No.15119
Do you guys cut yourself horizontal or vertical?
Almost all pictures about cutting show horizontal cuts but vertical seems to be more effective.
No.15121
I've cut myself a few times with a switchblade. One was very deep, like cutting a steak. I don't do it anymore. I did it purely for endorphins. I prefer using drugs.
No.15122
>>15119cutting vertically can kill you anon. becareful
No.15123
>>15119If you want to kill yourself, yes, vertical is the most efective way; blood drains way faster and the waiting is shorter. But cutting yourself is about being fashion, so I doubt anyone tried it and survived.
No.15124
>>15119i stopped cutting vertically because it always made me light headed
No.15130
>>13455>why do people do it?It's known that the mind tends to fixate on pain, so it's possible that it works as an effective distraction from psychological/emotional pain by converting it to physical.
>I've known a couple of people to do it solely for attention.Which is, in itself, a problem.
No.15131
>>13510>Sports takes effortAnd team skills, or at least not an utter hatred of social contact.
No.15132
>>14122>jokes are usually funnyEveryone has a different sense of humor. I personally find the concept of death and self harm hilarious.
No.15136
Box cutter razor. Not very deep. It takes your mind off most things, or at least numbs you to them.
No.15274
When I was younger I used to cut. It started from wanting to inflict pain upon myself but became a commonplace 'boredom-killer'. Boredom used to drive me to literal tears. I haven't cut in at least a year now though I've tried to 'get back into it' so-to-speak, I suppose I've just outgrown any perceived benefits it used to give
No.15282
>>15277Because masturbating is hard after a while and it doesnt feel good at all.
