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>>13426
Sorry to hear that. ;_;

A good friend of mine committed a suicide few mounth ago, took some pills or something.

You should follow suit.(USER WAS BANNED FOR THIS POST)

>>13428
Damn wtf. Where is the report button when you need it. That is uncool shit to say to a person. All of us are real people behind a screen an contrary to popular opinion words can hurt.

Sei man. Im so fucking sorry. All of you are free to come to my place to stay a few days if you need some space.

Stay strong, Sei. Suicide is hardly ever something you can predict, so it's no one's fault. You have to be in the mindset that it's better of you're dead to have the courage at all, so she probably has been thinking of the pros and cons for years. Rest her soul. She's probably happy wherever she's going.

>>13430
>it's better of you're dead

Well hey, more the reason for him to join her. She's waiting for you, Sei(USER WAS WARNED FOR THIS POST)

>>13431
I did not mean it like that. Don't twist the meaning of the things I post. Sei, you still have people to live for.

>>13426


For some reason I cried a little even though I don’t really know you. I hope you get through this ok.

I’ve lost two family members so far, when I was young; it was a long time ago.

For the longest time I thought it was my fault, or that my love was not enough, that I failed somehow, etc. I NEEDED to have a reason why they would throw their lives away, why they were in pain.

It was not until I developed Bipolar disorder that I truly had any understanding what they were going through, and I can tell you: there is no reason, only pain. You could give me billions of dollars, a super-model wife & loving children, stacks of pharmaceuticals and recreational drugs, everything in the world…. NONE OF THAT WOULD MAKE THE PAIN GO AWAY.

And when I’m having an affective episode it feels like the pain will *never* go away.

So please, don’t look for a reason why a person killed themselves, don’t seek blame, they would not want you to suffer. I hope you can just let it go and find a way to love yourself and those around you, I hope you don’t spend countless years of your life blaming yourself like I have.

Thanks for listening.

Holy fuck. I'm so sorry.

I don't think I can say anything that you don't already know, but I'd like you to know that I owe you big time. Indirectly, you've made my life better and perhaps even prevented me from killing myself, due to making this community exist, and consequently allowing me to meet people I've met.

I've known you for years now - and it really wouldn't be the same without you. Even though you don't talk much, I know you are around and it's somehow comforting. I really enjoyed the talks we did have.

It hurts me to know how much you must hurt right now, and I wish I could help in some meaningful way but I'm probably not the person who can do that as we're not really close.

A person who was close who died….I guess most of my family? Everyone but mum and mum's mum have died within my lifetime. I still miss dad a lot. He also killed himself.

>>13426
I'm extremely sorry for your loss sei. It's always hard losing someone…. I know my words can't even begin to help the situation but my condolences and love go out to you dude. Stay strong.

Wow Sei, I'm really sorry you had to go through this.
I couldn't make deep bonds with anyone aside my mother and brother, hence, I never had any close person (though I did have pets) dying on me, so I can't know or understand for real exactly how it must feel, but I earnestly hope that you will overcome this well and I want you to know that even when this place isn't exactly gold and diamonds, we're here for you. This community has been the emotional support of a lot of people, including myself, so as Nam said, it really hurts to know you had this happening in your life (and being unable to do anything), even when you're literally in the other side of the world and that we really don't know each other, I've been here for years and I enjoyed my time and chat we've had, even when they were utterly insignificant or irrelevant, or even if they weren't really a lot of talks.

I really don't know what else I can say. Hang in there, surround yourself of your friends/relatives, and don't let yourself down.

Be strong Sei, my most sincere respect to you.

I'm so sorry… I wish I had something meaningful to offer you, but I don't know what to say; I haven't ever lost anyone close to me–not even a stupid pet–so I can't even begin to imagine how you feel. I'm certainly not taking it well, despite that I didn't even know anything about her. I didn't sleep well and I still feel like breaking things. I can't possibly conceive of how it is for you. As everyone else has been saying, I wish you the strength to get through this–and in moving on, please don't blame yourself. I'm absolutely certain that she loved you and she would take this all back if she could.

And though I don't know you personally either, I'd like to reiterate what Nami said about the community. By making Uboachan possible, you've helped me immeasurably. The users here are the only people I ever really talk to these days, as well as the only people in my life I could ever have come close to calling friends. Honestly, I don't even talk to my family nearly as much as I talk to the users here. It's no exaggeration to say that I'd be dead if I hadn't found this place. You (as well as the community) have my sincerest thanks–and whatever you do, please don't any more of you die like this. Sei is a living testament to the crippling blow that such a death would be to those who care about you.

>>13426

I'm sorry Sei :(

>>13439
Seconded, im just not good at saying such things.

Hang in there.

Keep living and seeking happiness. It's what everyone wants for their loved ones.

Fucking hell. I have a gut feeling any consolation offered you by internet people isn't going to seem to have any real significance, and I'm not sure it would be right to think otherwise, but I'm honestly sorry to hear.

The whole "we're sorry and we feel indebted to you because of this community" thing has already been run into the ground but that's true.
More than that though I can't help but think you're a pretty nice-seeming guy, and that much is clear with people feeling genuinely sorry for you this much on an imageboard. You've clearly made life a fair deal more livable for some, but that's just an extension of who you are, which again, seems pretty damn alright, at least with the limited knowledge any of us are operating on. So I hope things get better for you.

I'm so sorry. Please keep your head up and don't let sadness overtake you. We all care about you!

Be sure to let others know it wasn't their fault. As how suicide always goes, they all feel guilty over this. If she had it in her, she could have gotten the courage to do it at any point.

>>13445
And you're a huge faggot trying to look edgy.

Truly sorry, Sei. Just hope that she's in a better place now.

I wanted to report in to say that I feel empathy for you Sei. ;_; I'm sorry.

someone just linked me this thread in skype
i am so sorry man
may she find her peace in another world…

Although it might not mean much, I'm truly sorry for your loss.

I saw the red text announcement on the home page. I hope the name Asher and the reference 'caught the bus' doesn't mean she was a major alt.suicide.holiday fan. That would make her the first person who actually caught the bus I've ever heard about. That would fuck me up.

>>13453
Her name was Asher for that reason, and all of your suspicions are true.

>>13461
I used to discourage people from committing suicide in that group by convincing them why they haven't gotten to the point where suicide would be the easiest option. I hate to see a fellow Asher go..

I remember the first time someone I was friends with committed suicide. His name was Lyle and He & His Brother were exactly like me and Mikkey. Lyle was me and Wyatt was Mikkey. We made a good group back in high school. I used to go rave with Lyle all the time and we always pretty much knew that if a club was throwing an EDM night, we'd see each other there. I don't talk about it much because its been so long ago but every once in a while I go down my "memories" folder or nostalgia about the things we did. Mainly it was going over to his house to jam on the drums, listen to loud techno music, and jump on the trampoline. I swear our stories up until the point at which we met were so similar I could have sworn we were twin-twins (Me & Mikkey, Lyle & Wyatt). When I moved back to GV we naturally started hanging out again, and were both handling our losses after hard breakups and becoming isolated from our families and doing drugs to cope and to feel good. When its all said and done, you feel all these crazy things and for me they subsided over time. Dont take coping advice from me other than anything as a suggestion, though.

Also, I hope >>13428 got banned for life. But, I feel sorry for him too because he probably does not know what it feels like to have friends and to lose them.

I wrote this a while ago but posted it in her honor.

http://uboachan.net/lit/res/517.html#527

Then theres Laura, who died in a car crash up on 174 about half a mile from where my stepdad Chuck also died. Laura reminded me a LOT of Haruko from FLCL. I was actually on my way to pick her up but we were dragging and she instead found a ride with someone who happened to have been drinking. That someone was Chuck Yeager's grandson, believe it or not. He got off with a slap on the wrist. When she died, there were assholes like >>13428 at our high school who would vandalize the memorial tree where she hit. They'd also throw their lunches at us and call us 'emo faggots'. I assure you they got their asses beat, most of them by a single girl for that matter. The memorial spot, for anyone who's been to my house, is the tree along 174, just before the Y on the right side, with all the bark ripped off of it.

Then theres Chuck, as I just recently mentioned. He's the first close death I ever had. I've got a long history with him and he was the only person I ever called "Dad". He was bad-ass AF. Two weeks after moving here, however, when things were just starting to get under control, he was on his motorcycle coming back home from dinner on my mother's birthday when he hit the gravel and slid into a fire hydrant. We have a cross there for him, just up from Laura's spot, that we actually had to steal back from caltrans after they took it down. "Its a distraction to the drivers".

I'm starting to feel pain in my gut now. I will really miss Asher. Shes really the reason I know all you guys in the first place.

>>13463
I wanna do this but i honestly didn't know anything about a.s.h. until now. Its a usenet irc channel if my vague research is correct. If so, whats the channel name? something like #alternativesuicideholiday?

>>13472
Most ASH sources are offline now. Just continue to spread the support you feel for the suicidal anywhere you can.

My friends girl friend almost ODed on heroin on my bed. That was a pretty awkward experience.

>>13464
>>13467
Y'know people talking about actual close friendships with people they did lots of drugs with and had good times with in highschool feels kind of out of place here, and usually I'd be more judgmental but they sound like they were pretty good people. Also interesting stories.

An online friend of mine commited suicide a year ago. The one year anniversary of their suicide is actually this move, I believe. I had lost most contact with them but when we talked it was like no time had passed. I had known that friend since 2010 so it was a pretty big hit.

I wonder if I couldve stopped it if I had talked with them more? They had attempted suicide before but I talked with them through the whole experience and they lived. I think about this a lot.

I hope theyre in a better place.

ITT: tripfag gets btfo

http://pastebin.com/0JCx46B1
Not sure if this is a great idea but I wrote a thing that touches on this.
A lot of it doesn't though. I've been debating posting it, worried it'll come off as gratuitous self advertisement and aggrandizement due to that. That isn't the intention.